It's been a long time since i last post anything. Nowadays been busy with some of my personal stuffs and kinda lazy to blog also.


Well just came back from a short trip, was indulging myself with lots of shopping..... yea u heard it right... shopping.... somehow or rather i love to shop while i'm overseas..... prolly i got the shopaholic syndrome when i'm overseas! hahahahah
Bought a few stuffs..... "On Sales" sign was everywhere and it just make my heart pump real fast! hahaha..... went to a mambo shop, where they having 50% sale! wooohoo..... bought one berms from there...... definately a great catch! Still bought some clothes, shoes here and there from other places..... i feel so shiok and at the same time BROKE!
Yup, that's the after effect of shopping...... =(


Was happy to see dearie today, show her the stuffs that i bought for her as well as for myself..... it was great to see her smiling when she sees her present, hope she reallie like it! =)
And She surprise me with her "Snoopy night lamp" gift! woohoo.... sooo cute! Did i tell u guys i love snoopy..... yeah i know i'm a guy.... but i just love snoopy..... so cute!!!


Ok gonna fix my snoopy night lamp now........ *poof*

I'm down with running nose, argh! terrible man! The skin around my nose is peeling off as a result of massive rubbing, even the tenderness of the tissue couldnt prevent it from happening and this just shows how bad my running nose is! Now, i just have to stick those tissues up my nose to stop my mucus from flowing out.
Chinese New Year is around the corner, I decided to start to clean up and pack my room early this year! It's time to get rid of all those old, useless things! Started packing, cleaning my room since ytd..... I have to take a break now cos my nose is irritating the hell out of me. =p


I have been racking up my past these few days and cleaning up my room didnt do any help to that situation, ohh well, i couldnt help but feels abit nostalgic...... Saw how madly in love we were then and just within month everything changes and it just goes to show we shouldnt take anything from granted. I made mistakes before and i wouldnt wanna made the same mistakes again, if not everything will be back to square one again isnt it. My past would not be a stumble block for my future bcos i'm pretty firm in certain things, and once i made up my mind, nothing seems to be able to change it. And i have told myself there is nothing i would regret if i look back. Yup, no regrets, i did what i have to do then, no regrets whatsoever! Right now i only have my future slowly unfolding right in front of me, and i'm enjoying every single minute with dearie now. My past would not be an obstacle, rather it will serve as a reminder for me not to take anyone / anything for granted.


Clearing / Keeping the things of old means i'm ready for the new year! I'm ready for new stuffs to enter into my room! Though i'm half way tru cleaning my room, it seems my room is lots freshier and i'm beaming with delight at how neat my room looks now! Cool!


To the one who has just enter my life and create a new lease of life in me
What a way to kick start Year 2005 with her in my life now, may each day unfold every magical moments in our relationship

This song is specially for you dear!


My Everything - 98 Degree


The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me


Chorus


You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything


Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give and won't let go
I hope you'll always know


Chorus


Bridge
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete
For all time
For all time

He who think he knows alot actually knows only the superficial of things, and it would only do him good if he can keep his comments to himself before he realise that he will be force to eat his own words later on in his life.
Well he will never know the real truth anyway, because unless both parties decided to reveal, he will never in his life found out the bloody truth. If only he knows then he would have use a hammer to knock on his head for his so call naive and one dimensional thinking.


I wouldnt reallie blame him because he aint know her well enough, for me... i didnt even know she was like that until things happen, and the things she did prior and after the break up make me feel so ............ oh well... shant elaborate further.


Relationship is a sticky and complicated issue and since he doesnt know everything, it would be wise to keep his bloody comment to himself before i have the last laugh for his stupidity and the effect of karma!


SHUT DA FUCK UP!

I always got a feeling that someone unauthorise has been reading/following my blog, i guess i've somehow confirm this thought of mine. Oh well, not that i mind a single bit because it was suppose to be open / public anyway. A blog is a place where u able to pour out yr feelings and thoughts and there's nothing to hide out there.


Did i actually talk bad about somebody else behind their back? did i? have i ? my goodness, what i have written in my blog is nothing but the truth.


Seems like she out to make me a culprit of the whole relationship thingy. Well it takes two hand to clap and it take both parties to maintain a relationship. I admit that i belong to the "bo-chap" kind, i realise all those mistakes that i did, i'm not those type that goes around pointing fingers at others and say "hey, its yr fault and it's not mine".
I always the kind that when things happen or things is happening, i would sit down and reflect upon myself, what is going wrong, what actually happen, was it the fault of my own or something else.
I'm a thinker not someone who would push the blame to others. Even the recent car accident that i had, i did straight away admit that i was wrong, i was wrong to drive fast on rainning day, did i point a finger and say look, "the bend was too sharp, how can they make the bend sooo sharp, it sooo dangerous for road users" or "it must be that slippery road, cant they just do something bout that road" or even "the car is lousy, i should have drive a better and newer car"
Nothing of these sort, i know where i stand, if i know i'm in the wrong, then i'm in the wrong! There no two way about that and i wouldnt even point a finger at anyone else except myself.


What went wrong with my previous relationship, hell lots of reason, was it totally my fault!?!? A BIG NO!
And mind you that's an answer that i did went tru with some serious thinking!
As i said earlier, i always sit down and think it tru, when i broke the news to my parents, i didnt even point a finger at her! I didnt even say anything bad about her! All i did say was, i was wrong in this, that, and there, i shouldnt have done this, that and there. I didnt even utter a single wrong thing that she had did to me to my parents. All it was is just me, and me , and still me full stop!
Even when i tell my friends when they ask, it still the same, and when my closer frns probe more then i began to tell them more about the current situation about us then. I'm not going to say out all the juicy details now because i dont see a need for it anyway.


Alot of my frns did questions about the things i do for her, i wasnt moved by them because i know what i want, and to those who knows more abt what actually happen on the current situation then did label her as a bitch as a matter of fact. Not me, never did i say or label herself as a bitch even though she herself did kinda admit that.
I did all i can, things that i wouldnt even think i'm capable of doing, things i wouldnt know i can actually allowing it to happen to me, and things that i could even be able to tolerate to such a dramatic extend. In fact, to sum it up, i went to the limit, or should i say over the limit.


Revenge wasnt on my mind then when things happen, unlike some guys out there might have done, i didnt want it and i didnt do it because it wouldnt help the situation anyway and to the matter of fact that she was afterall the person i used to love most.


Did i ever say bad things behind her back? Nope, it was the truth and nothing but the truth. Never scold foul language at her for all the things that she did to me, never hit her, never blame her even when she go to such an extend. My goodness and now she seems like she wanna make me the biggest culprit of the whole damm thing? and making me sound like a damm sore loser?
Does feeling dissapointed and sick of the whole dramatic incident make u such a guilty person! i dont wanna make myself an angel out of this whole thingy because i know i'm not, and i must admit i did wrong things in the past before, however i dont like the feeling of being blame for something that i didnt do.


Oh well, i guess it's enough, dont wanna think too much anyway. It's funnie thinking such a person like her could actually become like that.... oh well..... enough, i reallie think i should stop.
I should look forward to my future rather than about my past. Anyway I'm thankful to god that i have found such a lovely person now, hope that i wouldnt need to experience this whole damm sour incident again. It just make me feel YUCKS! PUKES!


To my dearie now.....
This is for you..........


Because of you - 98 degree


* You're my sunshine after the rain, You're the cure against my fear and my pain

Know how dearie feeling currently...... insecure feeling that is... well who is to blame her for her three close frn, close click all broke off with their relationship. Totally understand wat she is going through right now. Share the same sentiments with her abt relationship.

Looking at my past, how fragile can a relationship goes, it can be so solid but the next moment it can be so weak. Never thought a love like this could turn out sooo sour. oh well tatoos of my name, joint account for buying house, etc all did surface before but i just dont buy those ideas because i always look at things at a different angle and always consider the "what if" Never did i thought of leaving her though we did quarrel a few times and things just got over heated, Many thought we gonna make it, afterall we been together for very long and were actually thinking of the next phase of our lives, nonetheless the "what if" did materalise anyway. Thank god, i keep rejecting the idea of her tatoo-ing my name on herself and of cos the money issue regarding about saving together to buy a house, I saw with my very own eyes how many couples fallen out because of money issues, and this to me is ridiculous. Luckily i make the right step and i didnt suffer any after-effect from all those things.
I made the choice of letting go, i thought loving someone doesnt mean that you need to have him or her. Oh well only not too long ago that i come to realise what she had done to me, i realise she doesnt deserve e love that i use to give her. It just make me sick! Never thought someone like her would change to become someone else. I hope she dont suffer the consequences of her action. I dont hate her for the things she did to me, i'm just plain dissapointed and it make me real disgusted and prolly it's a karma thingy for me because i did wrong things before. Anyway it just make me puke lah...... Everything happen for a reason. It's a cause and effect thingy, Action would follow by a reaction, and that reaction would follow by an action, and it just keep going round and round.

Good riddance to her cause i'm happy with my current one. Now, i feel like i'm reborn, and i looking forward with my current relationship. Sometimes in life, there always such things call "silver lining". There a saying "Don't Cry because it ends, Smiles because it happen" Deep meaning, lots of different angle to look at it. If you dont learn to let go you will never able to recieve.

I'm quite skeptical abt relationship, was badly affected so just take it one day as it is, nonetheless i think dearie also suffer the same effect as me, so it just make us so perfect, understanding each other so much. She just plain worried that one day things might change and turn sour, and of cos i feels for her because i'm just as worried as her. sometimes i feel that me and her just think the same way, it is either i'm just as childish as her or she is just as mature as me! i mean in terms of relationship. I'm glad that I've found her. I just plain love the way she love me. I thank god that she appears in my life, somehow or rather there a sequences of events that lead us to be together, somehow or rather it seems to be plan of. Sorry i cant explain, as i say everything happen for a reason, We just have to learn from our past mistakes and be a better us that kind.

I dont know what my future lies, but i very comfortable with you dearie, as i say it so many times before, I just treasue every moment spend with you! I LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME!

Wake up early in the morning to get ready for the last day of my Uni life! yeah! It's the last project presentation on my part. Now that i'm done with it, i can rightly declare that everything is over! I just have to wait patiently for my result and hopefull everything turn out well, and i will recieve my Honours degree cert in Nov 05 as scheduled =)

My presentation wasnt tt smooth, no laptop for my presentation, i didnt own a laptop and thought i might have my classmate laptop or even able to loan one of the laptop from the sch to use, however seems like Mr Murphy is right, his famous murphy law is back to hit me! Nonetheless just go ahead and present without the aid of presentation slide though, Luckily the lecturer like what he hear, and he's kinda impress at the way i presented, though i know that there is still room for improvement, he said it was a very good presentation nonetheless. Wow! Wat a remark! That's to me was good enough and it just make my day! Having a lecturer to praise me on my last presentation , my last day as a undergraduate just make the whole journey of my degree course ending in such a sweet high note!

After that went to collect my dad's car. It was ready for collection after 4 days of repair. Was happy to see the current state of the car, memories of the car accident just keep flashing across my mind and i thank god i'm still alive and the car didnt sent to a place for scrapping. After that went to tyre shop and get the car tyre change. My goodness, after seeing the state of the car tyre, i know exactly what the main reason for me losing control of the whole damm car! One of the side tyre was totally "botak", wah piangz! I didnt know how badly worn out the car tires were. Now, this explain exactly the reason why my car skided, hey i aint pushing the blame but the fact is that with one tire "botak" and the the rest of the tires wasnt in reallie good shape, it just not suited to be drove in a wet condition! Damm it, the accident could have been avioded, i shouldnt have drove at a speed i'm normally would have drive while approaching the bend because the tires just werent ready on that slippery road! argh! Sucks!!! Well the accident already happen, nonetheless still wanna thank god that i'm still alive and be able to sit right here in front of my comp typing this out! Somehow or rather i think the "fu" that i got from Japan to protect our family having a safe journey while driving seems to work and prolly it might just be the act of god to send me a msg that i shouldnt be driving so fast on rainy days while approaching a bend. I just thank god that i'm safe and sound to be able to still see my parents, my loved ones ard and that includes you dearie =)

Gonna head to my bed for some much needed rest. Havent been reallie resting well this past few days. Gonna take a nap now ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

* Bed bed here i comeeeeeee.............

Happy New Year 2005 !

When the clock struck twelve, screams and cheers were heard along Orchard road and of cos without the lack of that terrible "spraying session"
Not those friendly handshake gesture wishing everyone Happy New Year but those sticky, foamy spraying all over the place, your body, your eyes, ears, ......

It was a happy occasion! It's a brand new year! Not that i mind a single bit of the fun surrounding Orchard road, i just hate it when somebody just spray in yr eyes! I hate it when a group of guys just go over and spray gals, it's a joyous occasion, not an occasion to disturb gals and get to know gals tt kind..... Those ah beng just seems to like this kind of ways to "tackle" unknown gals on the streets. Have fun yes, but not the way of having a whole group of ppl coming towards a gal and spraying her face, eyes, ears...... no wonder there are reports that some gals got molested during Christmas and New year celebration. I see it with my own eyes a whole group of guys "arming" with one spray cans on each of their hand surrounding a few gals and spray at them. While some knows their limits, and some dont always taget gals, they target those less equip or armed ppl. It seems more like a spraying war than a happy occasion celebrating the born of a new year.
I'm not exactly a racist, but i couldnt stand those indians, blangahs, ah nei, wat ever names you have for them..... I'm not too sure whether they are locals or not, prolly some of thems are not, They are a bunch of idiots! They onli target gals, ladies, in short, female species. They just aim at the eyes, I feel like whacking some of those indians! Freaking irritating, They are having fun just by spraying at the gals and make them scream and god knows prolly just touch abit when their eyes are covered with foams. Those indians doesnt look local to me, and to me thats crazy, if they are not local which means they are prolly from india, sri lanka and they jolly well know that their native country are hit hard by the tsunami, and they still have the mood to get out of the streets and have fun disturbing gals. Yes they didnt spray on guys, they just spray gals! female species!
I got soooo worked up that i nearly fight with one of those indians, freaking moron, they got nothing to do than keep disturbing my dearie....... f**king idiots! If not because i know that it was suppose to be a happy/joyous occasion on the back of my mind, i would have just throw a punch on those "black shit"!

Came home relatively late, didnt get enough sleep and off i go to help my dad with his work the next day, nothing special happen, passing by early morning on the streets of orchard road, where it was quite clean compare to the day before drastic dirty condition. It just show the efficiency of our cleaners! They reallie did a great job in keeping Singapore clean! *Salutes!
I wanted to go home and rest earlier and so i was driving at a little faster speed, it wasnt raining, however it did rain a moments ago and the road was kinda slippery, so when approaching a sharp bend and I executing my cornering tt time, my car just skided and i lost control of the whole damm car - the car just goes 180 degree to the right then 180 degree to the left and then right and then left and BANG! My car crash! I wasnt dazed or watsoever, my reaction was that this time i'm in deep shit!!! the doors just got stuck and i just couldnt come out of the whole car, i have to reallie hit it real hard in order to push open the door, and now that i manage to open the door, i just couldnt close it..... my gosh! I couldnt believe it! Throughout my 4 years plus of driving, i never met any accident, and my first one was on 1st of jan 2005 and what a day to have a car accident! and what a way to start my 2005! I think maybe i should go and attend advance driving course (a course you need to take before you can go for car racing on a circuit) Prolly i just need to know some of the techniques, so next time if ever my car skided, i would know how to react.
I think i'm kinda traumatise by this whole incident, till now, whenever i drive and approaching a bend, i would go super slow, not the usual me that is....... oh well.... luckily i'm safe, but the repair cost gonna cost quite a big sum. I thank my fourth uncle for sponsoring me $1000. I was so touch and sooo paiseh.... hiaz...
apologies to my dad too, caused it is his car and because of the accident created lots of unnecessary inconvience for him.
The accident could have been far worse, i thank god that i'm still alive and no major injury inflicted to me. Now i would reallie drive with care, it's gonna be along time before i would start driving recklessly again........ wait a min, i dont think i will ever drive recklessly again.

My new year resoultion!
* To grow taller! yes ... for many years, it never change! hahahahah
* To earn more money! yes tones and tones of money


Happy New Year to all my friends! Have a wonderful 2005!