It's been a week since i last blog. Well alot of things has been going tru my mind lately. Been reflecting, thinking about lots of stuffs.... i realise i'm no longer the same before.... ok probably still have some traits of the old. Nonetheless feel that i've grown much more mature these days. Ever since tt fateful thing happen, i think i change quite a fair bit and i mean change for the better.


Firstly, i visit library more often these days, so much so that i begining to ponder whether will it be my hang out place soon. This could never happen many months back, seriously to tell you guys the truth, i dont reallie like to read books, i would prefer to watch movies, shows rather than reading books. Alot of things happen and now i seems like i cant get enough of self-improvement books! These days I've been walking into bookshop and library to scan for books to upgrade myself ever so often.


A change in me definately, and i believe it is definately a change for the better. =) Secondly, i beginning to think more in term of EQ. i started to put myself in other person shoes more often than not. Grown mature or probably i'm ready for the next stage of life. Nowadays i find that 24hr is not enough! Not enough for me to think what i wanna think, do what i wanna do.... simply not enough time. Ppl always say i got time on my side, and i starting to believe so..... however i would have prefer to be much younger. I beginning to realise what all those elders means when they say i got youth or time on my side. I realise they say it with a word of wisdom, Never in my life, i feel the urge of charging myself up for the business world. Though ppl have been saying i have the youth to fight in the business world, I still feel that i should have started sooo much earlier. Many plans came to my mind recently, so much so that even when i'm about to sleep, ideas and thought still wouldnt wanna leave my mind for me to have a good night rest. Simply too much stuffs to ponder about. I feel that i should try and do whatever i wanna do in the business world and grab whatever opportunities that is within my reach, if everything fails, and become bankrupt or whatever, at least i still have some time left to pull myself up. To make long story short, i'm going to be my own boss instead of working for ppl. I believe in working hard for myself rather than for ppl.


Knowledge is never ending and i think i'm far lacking behind in terms of life knowledge.... i'm reallie playing catch up now by reading books and motivational CDs. If all these sounds weird to you , nvm... it's ok... probably somewhere down to road, you will feel what i feel right now. It's painful to work for someone seriously. Shant elaborate on that, if you are smart enough you will understand what i mean.


Today, i look into my dad's eye, for the first time i feel that i fail as a son. I feel soo sour inside me.... Ppl always say human eyes dont tell lies, and i believe it is somewhat true. What i saw was not a reflection of myself in his eyes, what i actually feel/see (if you use heart to see) is a wonderful dad who has aged soooo much in recent years, it just reaffirm me that i would be real devasted if he is no longer ard in this world. He has been a pillar of strenght/support for me, though he can be unreasonable at times, anyway which dad dont. He had work sooo hard all his life for the family, he's been tru tough times ever since he was young, He made all those sacrifices for me and the family for god knows how much. He bite his teeth and carry on working so that he can get our lifes in shape, and even at this tender age of his, he still work sooo hard for money! I feel so bad and ashamed that he still have to work soo hard for money. I thought it should be time for my parents to rest and me taking the full loads for them. I think health is a very much important issues for them. They needed sooo much rest and enjoy the remaining days of their lives. I believe life is very very short, 23 years of gone and i believe i havent have any real impact or done anything to the family. We living in a highly fast moving society that i believe many familys fails to have financial security.
I see ppl living in big houses, big cars, a comfortable lifestyle..... i look it all in envy, it's a dream of many, and of cos it is also one of my many dreams too, can i achieve that, of cos you have to work hard if not it will be call dreaming rather than dreams.
I wanna obtain financial security and rewards my parents for working their socks off for the family. I believe it is the least i could do to make their lifes sooo much more happier and meaningful.


It pains me to see that my parents still work sooo hard every single day for the family. The more i see them working hard and cant help, the more i feel that i'm nothing but a useless bum. I need to work hard and do something for them, i think my parents definately deserve a break after working sooo hard for soooo many years. They definately deserve to go for a six month holiday or even a year holiday break, probably to see the world.


The longer i become financial stable, the longer they have to work hard and sooo much lesser time for them to enjoy themselves. Cause everybody has a life span, happy or not, my parents will leave the world sooner or later. I love my parents sooo much that i wouldnt wanna leave them, but can i make us live forever? The answer is definately no, for those individuals who are now working soo hard to fulfill their own dreams, buying new sports car or branded goods, pls remember that you wouldnt be who you are if you are without your parents. They have work soo hard, ask yourself do you want them to continue to work hard till the last day of their lives? Ever wonder why your parents work soo hard for the family, and don't u think your parents deserve something???? I firmly believe my parents deserve something from me!


So all i have to do now is to work hard and secured financial security/stability!
Today entry is rather emotional and reflective.... i thought i could just pen down some of my many thoughts that has been going tru my minds recently.

Been quite busy recently... that's the reason why i hardly update my blog. I feel good to be busy, it means i'm productive and urm making money! hahahaha ~ Jokes aside... i mean most of the time when u r busy it means u r working hard to earn money ... ok at least it applys to working class ppl like me.... so busy means money and thats good! =p


I'm still a poor guy, very much in debt, i'm having bank overdraft now.... all thanks to my degree loans, now i have to slog sooo hard to pay back the money..... hiaz... Nevermind, i can see light at the end of the tunnel pretty soon.... urm prob another 1 and a half yr of repayment left to go.... (pretty long tunnel yeah isnt it) =p


Well Didnt do anything special or extra-ordinary on Valentine Day. I mean is there a need??? Me and dearie are already one SPECIAL couple.... hahahah.... ok, i'm just crapping, pls ignore.....
Well due to my finance status, didnt reallie plan one major major surprise for her, it just another simple day that we spend together. Didnt wanna get suck in by those horrendous commercialise gimmicks on this so call "special day" for Couples. The prices of some gifts just goes out of hand during this period and sometimes i wonder if it really a special day for us couple or special day for companies to make money out of it.


Today went down to Bedok reservoir to help out in TP open house. Ohh well since it's TP open house, many secondary schools have been invitied to TP for a tour and students from numerous schools came down to participate in our water adventure event and of course it's was held at bedok reservior. For the first time i swim in a reservoir =) and just to inform you guys if you happen to taste saltiness in your house tap water.... you know what's the reason ah! hahahaha~ just kidding.... i didnt pee just fyi and anyway i believe PUB will do a good job in purifying the water.
Anyway you wouldnt believe what i saw! so much algae was found in the reservoir .... ohh gross! real gross..... *pukes...
Anyway today weather not bad, was having fun doing some board surfing till i have to rescue one victim that had fallen into the water. No worries, i'm a qualified lifesaver, so here i go to the rescue!.... eh-hemm of cos not some superhero lah.... just save the victim thats all.... hahahaha... =p


The Open house will end tml, if you guys wanna see me in action..... ok i mean come and take a look in TP and of course the water advanture event, you can always pop by yeah..... =)


Here are some of the photos that we took on Valentine day .... enjoy and pls dont break out laughing if you see the fatter side of me!
Take it away.............



Dont you think we are a special couple 



Kelv : Urm.... well.... i think i'm more special ! heehee 



Jo : Yah right?!?! who say so? Box you! * Bish !!! I'm more special lor ! .... humph! =p  

Happy Valentine Day 2005

It been a fruitful CNY so far for me! And if u guys were wondering how come i never reply sms or blog for the past few days, it is because i was away, i was out of town =) Anyway meet up with relatives and friends during this festive season, it is always good to catch up after sooo long over a year or so. Did gamble a bit there and then and was pretty lucky to won some money =) Well it was just for the fun of it, not trying to earn some big bucks during those gambling sessions. Well did recieve quite a fair bit of ang pow monies and of cos it will be crediting to my bank account soon! hoooray!!! hahahahah =)


I realise something over the weeks and it just speed up the whole process during this CNY period, and that is i have grown fatter!!! Yup i guess over the weeks i put on so much weight that my face become sooo much rounder and pls let's not talk about the size of my tummy now yeah. I guess i have to control my diet before i become unrecognisable by my friends.... keke~


Aint sure whether can i collect some more ang pow or not, however i need money, lots of money and erm.. who dont right.... bleahz
Went to temple today to pray "tai sui" cos it's my year just in case u guys forgotten. Ohhh well... didnt know and dont really bother, just follow tru the motion, ppl say wat and i just follow.... i am tt chin chai, anyway i'm a free-thinker, therefore anything also can. Well dear say better be safe than sorry, ask me just go and pray, and of cos i did with the company of my family.


So today is Valentine day! and i feel so guilty as i have not done anything yet... yup i think i gonna get it big time..... i'm a big time procastinator lah! and of cos i always think tt something nicer will pop up along the way, always thinking there will be nicer gifts to buy for dearie, well sooo much sooo that now i got none... hahahah....
Anyway sometimes it is not the gifts or whatever stuffs that is important, what's more important is the heart. And i so thankful that i found her and of cos it will be our first valentine day together =) It a day for a special couple like us to be out there spending time on a special day like this =)


Dedicated this song below to her...... Angels brought me here by Guy Sebastian.
Somehow it been a amazing journey and i so thankful to have found her... and did angels brought me to her? ok wait... shall i say did angel brought her to me because i'm just as special! hahahah..... ok i shall cut the crap and pls enjoy the lyrics.....=p

Angels Brought Me Here - Guy Sebastian


It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

I'm back after being MIA for quite long again............=p
It just 4 more days before CNY!!! Basically it just another "ANG POW" collection time... heehee *grinz


Did some spring cleaning today.... wooo... so tired.... *yawns... CNY is all about spring cleaning, buying new year goodies, buy new clothes, decoration of the house and of cos the most important for the kids, and that is the collection of "ang pow"
I'm not exactly facinated about the immenient of CNY, prolly i grown out of it..... I dont have the same excitement that i used to have when i was a small kid, prolly i beginning to see more than just ang pow time =) Lots of things has been going through my mind recently..... think i have grown mature over certain things.... =)


Anyway CNY coming, we should be in high spirits to greet the new year!!! So let's us just celebrate yeah..... To all my friends Happy advance Chinese New Year.... (just in case i dont blog next few days) =p


And yeah one more thing to add.... i finally got my tag board fix and so guys u can start tagging me again.... =)