Happy Halloween Day!!!

Happy Halloween Day to everyone out there!!! ENJOY !!!

*Princess enjoy yrself over at HK yea.... Take care.... =)

New Blog Skin!!!

Woooooohoooo........ Created a new skin for my blog!!! Don't you think it look nice???? This is the first time i created something like this... dont u think i'm a genius!!! hahahahahahahahah... okok.... I'm just excited that's all .... anyway enjoy ya =p

Princess left late last night...... wishing her a safe journey and an enjoyable trip. =)

Well i have been blogging so frequently recently that i wonder have i got a habit out of it! However for the first time in many weeks, i dont feel like blogging ytd. Sorry ... prob i'm just feeling abit down.... PMS !?!? No, i dont think so.... prob i'm just sad that princess is not in singapore now.... Basically, i just have no mood.... Just realise that princess has the capability to make or break my day! Oh no.... this is terrible.... I know it doesnt make sense because we are not even together yet, and i dont think we have much chance of being together based on the current situation. Nonetheless i hope god can give me a sign.... is she the one??? I dont know man! I just know that she has somehow or rather become quite important for the way i behave.... she has the ability to make or break my day. She has the ability to make me feel happy or sad. Whatever the case.... i hope i wont sink down further until she give me a positive sign to do so.....

Still wanna wish her a safe journey! Take care princess, dont catch cold yeah..... =)

It gonna be another long long day to pass...........................

Ladder 49

Watch Ladder 49 just now, what a emotional show. It is a movie that play with individual emotion. Having watch HK firefighter show too, the story line is aint much different from it. Fire can be a good servant as well as a bad master. How true is this statement. Watching the show just bring back memories of my very own fire fighting experience. I believe any son, daughter and wife would be proud of my dad for his calmness and protectiveness over me and my mom then. The fire was big, it broke off at my house kitchen, my dad’s left arm is covered by flames. How would a normal person behaves when part of their body being covered by fire and their son and wife is with him too. Confuse, scared, Panic? Screaming for help? Not my dad! His is one brave man! No panic, just the claming look and soothing voice “Get out of the house, ask neighbours for help and call fire-station for rescue” Nodding my head and off I go…. Running out of my house leaving my dad alone fighting the fire. Images of fire on his left arm still running through my head. Wasn’t sure what to do but was just following my dad instruction. So I was out of the house and asking neighbours to help us out. My mom was worried sick. Soon people were seen rushing in and out of my house with pails and pails of water. Not long after, sirens of fire engine can be heard. There came those fireman trying to rescue the whole situation. My dad was brought to the hospital, he came back the very night. After the whole incident, patches of black color can be seen all over the house. It is aint black paints but black soot resulting from those fearsome flames! Till today my dad still has that burnt scar on his left arm, neither him nor me can forget that incident. For him, it leaves a deeper impression, for there are still scar to remind him of his close encounter and firefighting with the fire. Whereas for me, I will never forget, for I saw what actually happen, the terrifying moment, the braveness I saw in my dad. The fearful scene of that very instant of my dad’s left arm being covered by fire, could not forget how dangerous the whole situation was. It was really a close encounter with that bad master side of fire.

Back in my navy days, I got a chance to learn how to fight fire. Wearing those suits and carry those oxygen tanks, playing with fire extinguisher, putting out fire with fire extinguisher and water hose. It was a terrific experience. Did manage to learn how to control the fire with all sorts of techniques. From all my experience I had, I can definitely duly feel what Ladder 49 this show is trying to bring out.

A good show overall, it shows how brave all those firefighter are. The dilemma of each fireman feels when they have a family to take care of, the concerns of each family members about their own hero in the house. The feeling of a lost collegues... tt kind of feeling can reallie kills! The feeling of losing a close kin! That is sooo much worse! For all those firefighter that has risk their life to saves soooo many lives and prevent many broken family. They duly deserve my utmost respect! *Salutes!

The wind is cold, its another cold and wet day, hope princess is able to take care of herself. Well wake up this morning feeling abit moody, dont know the exact reason.... i'm serious ... until now i cant find the exact reason for feelng moody.... Hiaz... all i know is that i'm sooo sad when i heard tt princess is going away for 4 days. Yes, though i dont meet her everyday or talk to her over the phone everyday, at least i get to see her online or u know at least i know tt she is in spore, if let say i wanna contact her, i'm abe to do so tt kind.... Well, sorry guys... i think i think too much liaoz...I think i hardly stand a chance with her anyway.... ok... wadever...

Wadever the case... i wish her safe journey and hope she able to take care of herself..... if she can give me a chance... i will be more than willing to take care of her... but she's an independent woman, so she knows how to take good care of herself.

It's gonna be a long long day for me...... a long cold day.....

Just Bath.... wooo ... feeling so fresh and clean. =) Was in a happy mood until my desktop cant boot up!! I'm so pissed now! ARGH!!! My desktop up the lorry lioaz!! Bloody hell... spoil at this time.... and i got soo many important stuff inside my desktop comp somemore!!! argh!!! Luckily i got my laptop if not you guys wont see me online and of cos dont talk about writing this in my journals!

Was home for dinner... and guess what i saw on TV!? I saw princess again... omg! This time is not a glimpse lor... got soo much of her..... I just smile to myself =) Finally hear her voice over the TV. It's been a long time since i last see her and of cos dont mention abt talking to her over the phone. Hmm.... me kinda in a lost what i'm going to do.... Well if its meant to be, its meant to be yeah.... =)
Anyway was happy to see her... though it's on tv and not face to face.... at least i get to see her.... well she just look so sweet and cute on tv yeah.... =) Anyway she has been on my mind ever since i wake up.... well dunno whether she feels what i feels too or not.....

Anyway bought a pair of shoe .... yes i spend money again!!!! Luckily got discount.. $100 for a Hush Puppies Working Shoe. Ex right? But i just like Hush pupp... one of my fav brand.... just for yr information, i wore Hush Pupp school shoe during my upper sec sch days! Hahahah

I think i better get my comp fix!! argh! I feel like slapping my desktop comp and ask it to wake up its bloody idea!!! argh!
BOOM!! * Slap the comp!!

I shall censored the rest of the details........ =p

Before i leave,anyone wanna give me money? I think i need money to get a new desktop ! Haiz.... gonna spend money again...... going to get POK KAI soon liao lah......

Just sooo happen to caught a glimpse of princess on tv again!!! Hahah... seems like it is so qiao..... didnt watch the show onli until tt fateful part of hers..... didnt know she will appear on tonight show... ahhaha.... reallie very qiao man! Seems like god want her to be in my mind always yeah..... hahah.. okie okie... i'm uttering rubbish again...... dont wanna her to feel awkward or watsoever.... Very happy that we are still friends. =) Can we develop further??? Hahah ... only time will tell and also only if fate allows us to do so... meanwhile still wanna know her better. =)

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Wake up this morning, feeling so much better than ytd, however still feel sick though.... the weather ah is terrible man...was sick because of that.... Anyway was in great mood to go to office... feel so relax!

Today went shopping alone! Hate to do shoppin alone, how i wish i have somebody accompanying me...... nonetheless i brought a Giordano jeans, It's the latest design and it cost me $70 bucks! okok.. $69 to be exact. Wanting to buy a pair of jeans soooo much... finally got one! Was feeling happy... =) Always nice feeling to buy things but painful to realise i've just spend money.... ohh.... heart pain yeah.... Walk in and out of several shops... wanting to buy soooo many stuffs... i guess i have to curb my temptation of buying things, cause right now i'm in a period of agressive savings!!! I need to save enough to pay off all my loans... i want to feel debt free!!!! Once i get myself debt free.... i will SPEND!!!! Spend on the things i wanna buy soooo much! Saw some nice shirts and pants at TOPSHOP and G2000, soooo tempted to buy all those stuffs and then procced to sony ericsson shop, saw the latest phone s700i!!! Wah pianz again feel so tempted to buy it! The phone look so nice and cool and the function is gd! solid man!!!!

CAN SOMEBODY PLS GIVE ME MONEY!!!!

I wanted to buy sooo much things... i think if i got money now.... my one time shopping spree will satisfy all my urge.... and it will probably cost me $3k to $5k !!! Hahaha.... $5k for one day of shopping is hell lots of money man!! urm... at least to me lah... I got sooooo many things i wanan buy!!!! Gosh!!! Can somebody really pls give me money to spend!!!

*Can anyone tell me this coming week the first prize no. for 4D... or can i have the winning tickets for next month Singapore Sweeps!?!??!!?!?!?

* I need money!!!!

Woke up this morning with a bad sore throat. My throats hurts like mad.... think it lack of natural lubricants, which is WATER! Drank lots of water and eat vitamin C pills, at least doesnt hurt that much and can go to work. It has been rainning for the past few days.... ohh.. nice cold weather though...... well work up in a sunny morning then after that the sky start to turn dark and ka boom ! It rains..... First thing came to my mind was princess.... Hahahah... yea i know i'm mad... Cause it's reallie rainning heavily and its very cold... and i know during this period of time she would leave house to go to somewhere... so i was worried that she might catch cold... okie okie... i know she will take care of herself.... well.. i'm just worried for her lah..... silly me ah... =p

Well ... manage to hit my ERP award! hahahah... Phew! wat a close shave! Well well.... Hopefully everything will turn out well!!!! =) So far it has been a great monday! no blues!!! hahahahah....

Still feeling sick.... i guess i havent been resting well for the past few days... Hopefully i feel better next few days! Gotto start on my revision soon....... November very scary month for me!!! aaaahhhhh......

Manchester United 2 Arsenal 0

Saw that score!?!?!?!?!?! YEA!!!!! Man u Rocks man!!!! Man U, my fav team has beaten Arsenal, my most hated team, 2-nil!!! Most importantly it ended arsenal 49 unbeaten runs. SSSSSOOOOOOOO Happy!!! Tomorrow sure got mood to work!!! HAhahhahah....

Just got back home, was out with my parents..... Well Sunday is always a day i would dedicate to my parents ! I just wanna spend time with them. To me ..... Sunday is Family day !!!!

Below is the lyrics of the song "Angels Brought Me here" I found this song very meaningful..... ok at least to me lah........ cause this song speaks alot for my current situation.... I thought my dreams came true, i thought she is the answer to my prayers, anyway she really did saves me.............. okok.... i'm unttering rubbish again....... wadever..... Enjoy the lyrics yea, will post the song soon.

Angels Brought Me Here - Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
(Oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here


* I missing princess again.... I don't know why, i know i shouldn't feel this way because urm...... urm..... well wadever lah..... i just know that whenever i think of her.... the thought of her would make me smile =)

It's a cold and wet sunday.... wooo..... cold cold..... Don't know why it rain so much recently.... is it because it is feeling sad and crying for me?? hahahahaha... me talking rubbish....

Well .... real cold..... hope princess can take good care of herself and dont catch cold =)

*yawns*.... Doing nothing online now... very sianz... however dont feel like sleeping early.... just wanna rest and relak.... =) sianz sianz sianz...... today is a cold and wet day.... was freezing cold when i was teaching! Seriously, it's no joke to teach on cold days.... the pool is just like a suffering chamber!!! Freezing cold.......


"Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened." =)

Well this sentence definately suits what i'm feeling right now..... =)

*nites everyone

Wake up not too long ago, and here i am writing things in my blog page.... i think it is going to be like a routine for me liaoz.... no good man... i need to catch more rest !!! Feeling a bit sick.... caught a flu .... hiaz..... =(

Well, i'm feeling abit awkward today, cant say the exact reason why i'm feeling this way, hmm.... prob bcos of princess bah. You know sometimes having too many girls chasing you is no good.... cause when there is a time where u needed to chase someone, you will be in a lost, and this is what i'm feeling right now.... Boring man!

Ok, so what if i miss her, she dont miss me, so what if i like her, she dont like me...... hahaha... Anyway still want to thank her, for after so long nobody except her, she is the only gal that can make me keep my ex out of my mind! She is special or wat! To me she is really one special person.......

She is damm funnie... she didnt even know how to reject a person.... aint sure whether did i make the right step or not.... at least i know i've no regret!? *william hung --> I've already give my best and i've no regrets!
hahahahahahhaah =p

Well.... she never reallie reject me, however she give me a very big qns mark ans.... i dont know whether she trying to say "look you are a nice guy, however you are not my type, so i dont think u suit me and bcos you are a nice guy, i dont know how to reject you in a nice way" answer or "ok, i'm shock, i dont know what to do, i'm not rejecting you because i dont mind knowing u even better first, to see where we can go" answer. Well whatever the answer may be, i will know it during these few days.... i've just have to put myself in her shoe and get the answer, though it is tough, i mean very very tough!

I guess most likely i've have to move on again bah.... it's not being negative, it is being prepared for the worst! Well it would be good if she can show me signs, then i will know wat to do.....

ok, this is morning madness! ciaoz, adios.................

*Hungry again!

Finally tell her how i feel...... a stone just lift up from my heart.... i can breath again...... Well i guess she might be reading this post too... anyway it doesnt matter actually... this is an open blogsite wat... anybody can read abt it. =p

Well luckily we still friends though.... anyway i feel so light after telling her.... and the best thing is we are still friends.... well i kinda expected she wouldnt know wat to react! true enough she dont know how to reply, ahahhaha, she dont know how to reject me!.... am i being negative or what!?!? ayiah if not then say what, say i still got hope meh.... bcos she never reject me???? haha... tt's urm abit wishful thinking man.....I know myself.... prob i'm not her type... well it's ok yea.... nobody is suited for everyone =)

Thanks edison for yr concern yea....... ; )

Happy playing gunbound princess =) Gotto grab something first before i sleep... i'm very very hungry!!! Recently i get hungry so easily! am i have puberty or wat!!! gosh!!

* I need food!!!

Just got back home after a long long day! Slept at 2am and wake up at 7am today! I'm dead tired now!!! *Yawns*

Just came back home after the lifesaving meeting, finally got hold of the CD from melvin! yesh! finally can view our Japan competition that was telecast on Star Sports channel that was shown two months back!

Wat an exciting yr ahead for lifesaving!! Plenty of oversea competition!!! wooohooo! steady! i feel like trainning again!!! hahahahahah =)

Came back and show dad my japan trip! then all of a sudden... just took a glimpse of what showing on the tv and i manage to saw princess!!! omg! how qiao is that! She looks real good.... ok prob i'm just bias! Wadever... she reallie look good wat. =p

Ohh weekend is coming!!!! SHIOK! =)

Shall i say or shall i not.... okok... i know i have been saying so many times... well.. i'm reallie in a dillema what! hiaz....... well hope watever decision i'm going to make wont make me regret later on. =/

Just bath.... Feeling so clean and nice! Just got back from wx's grandma wake..... Have a nice time chatting with princess , wx and wx's cousin, gavin.

Anyway It's been 5 days since we last meet, however it's seems to me we havent been seeing each other for ages. Tell me abt missing somebody man, i was reallie looking forward to seeing her today... though our meeting is abit the u know.....yes.. out of the place.

Princess show me her kids photo...she look so cute in the photo.... however i never tell her that.... ayiah me ah.. this person always dont know how to express myself.... sometimes i reallie dont know wat to say abt myself... haiz...

Anyway today was the first time i hear her talk so much and smile so much..... she just plain sweet yea..... I just love her big round eyes... it is so mesmerizing....
While looking deep in her eyes, i feel like telling her that i got a crush on her.... i mean...i reallie fighting hard to keep this little secret of mine to myself! We were chatting and laughing away.. and i'm just plain worried that if let say i tell her oredi... it will affect our friendship, the way we behaving now...... i'm reallie in a dillema!

Well i was reallie enjoying every seconds with her around. Well she's online now... however she went to bath... hmm...... i'm still thinking of her at this moment

Should i say or should i not?!?!? Shall i toss a coin to decide!?!?!? omg! this is madness......

What can i say........ hiaz...... can somebody show me a sign....... ohh dear.....

Anyway Good night, sugary dreams my dear princess............. =)

I've just wake up not too long ago.... getting excited abt what going to lay ahead for the day. =)

Have a chat with princess ytd night before she sleep.... still get so excited whenever i saw her online..... have some fun chatting with her...and was enjoying every bit until she mention her crush... i was like ... *ouch! pain! "xin ru dao ge"......It bring me back down to earth, well.... that's life isnt it...... she aint know how sour i got, or how heart pain i have, nonetheless i thank her for telling me the things she going tru... at least i'm someone she trust and she's comfortable in telling....

Really struggling with myself on whether do i wanna tell her abt how i feel or not.... i dont know how long can i keep this feeling to myself..... however at the same time i dont wanna spoil the current friendship that we are having now..... i'm just worried that everything wont turn out fine... then both of us will be in an awkward position.... I dont wanna her to feel awkward. Anyway even if i tell her i got a crush abt her... i guess tt's abt it bah..... i still wanna know her better... bcos i think i have yet to know her well enough...... I just hope that if i choose to tell her one day, she just aware that there is someone out there is carrying a torch for her.....aiyah... dont wanna think so much lah.... i just wanna know her more first.

Well, going to wx grandma wake later in the evening...... dont know whether shld i go or not... however since princess is going... then i also go lor.... i dont wanna go to the wake with nobody i know oso..... feels very weird lor. Well she say she going right after her mc coaching.... so that means i think her bro shld be coming also bah.. and some of her friends too...... but wadever the case... it suppose to pay the last respect to wx grandma though i never see her before. it's just out of respect bah.... anyway just that at the same time, i oso can see princess ... =)

Well looking forward to meeting her later on.... it's been a long long time since i feel for someone till like this... it's surprises even me at the rate i'm falling into this...... hmm.. guess she reallie one special gal to make me feel this way bah....

*thinking, thinking, still thinking abt her..... omg! this is madness....can somebody tell me what to do......

I'm back home!!! Yea after a long long tiring day!?!?! I'm walking like a dead zombie just now....... Sleep late last night... as i was experiencing/experiementing with my 'rented' laptop ! Thanks yixun... thanks for lending =) Xie Xie Ni. Borrow the laptop to do my thesis for my degree course. My desktop abit unstable, i'm just worried that it gonna crash anytime!

Went to K-box ytd with the swim team ppl, had a great singing session... from my heart will go on by celine dion to without me by eminent! We basically sing all kinds of songs! Had a great time tag team with andrew.... we sang well for the song "jie kou" by jay chou.. anybody outta wanna hear me sing!??! hahahah... just kidding..... me singing so-so only... However was having a real great time singing ..... =)

Wake up early in the morning... and guess what's the first thing i do after i wake up?????? I went to check my phone.... was hoping that i will recieve sms from princess..... hahah.. abit dumb right... but well.. i dont know why i behave like this... hiayoh.. this is madness.

On my way to office... i was doing work in the bus, this is the usefulness of having a laptop with you! So convenient to work!! you can work anytime any place.... I can just use the spare time to do my project instead of siting like a blur guy staring at the tv programm shown on the tv mobile. I'm just trying to make my time more effective tt's all.

Still thinking of her whenever i go...hiaz.... i think she must be feeling tired... bcos she has been running tru my mind the whole day!!!!

Well still thinking of whether shld i tell her how i feel abt her.. or shld i just keep it low profile and keep it to myself..... I'm having mixed feeling... bcos i know that prob i have a low chance as she oredi have a crush on someone else.... however... i dont know... i just think that she's reallie a nice gal.. i tout we have quite a fair bit of smiliarity between us...... hmm..... i'm in a dilemma......

Anyway was dead tired after a long day at work..... going for a course over at Toa Payoh... i was dragging my feet to the place...... then all of a sudden.. my handphone sms ringing tone ring..... i was like hiaz...er.. ok..... the whole day my phone has been ringing... and everytime i was hoping that i will receive sms from her.... and everytime was like er... it's not her lor... so when my hp ring.. i was telling myself... ayiah ... confrim not her.... and guess what .. when i saw the sms.. i was like er....huh??..... did i see correctly??? It was her!!! i was thinking to myself..... sure or not... reallie its her??? After seeing several times, and reassuring myself that it is her... i was like.... *smiles* she reallie know when to make my day !!! =) =) =) =)

*right now still thinking abt her..........

Can somebody outta save me??

WOW!!!! Feeling good this morning!! I chatted with princess ytd night. Well though the topic is abit out there, but who cares at least i get to talk to her and understand her a little better. Well can conclude that i got a crush on her and she got a crush on somebody else! wah pianz eh.... i wanna faints lioaz..... anyway dont know whether does she has abit of feeling for me... well .... i dont think so lah.... nonetheless i'm just plain happy to talk to her over the phone. It doesnt matter what the conversation is, it is the person on the other line that matters.

" It doesnt matter what the conversation, just as long as she calls " Invisible Man by 98 degree.

Well still thinking whether do i wanna tell her that i got a crush on her..... i mean if i dont tell her, she wouldnt know my feeling for her and then i will become like the person in the song "Invisble man"

anyway when she told me she was feeling sad, dissapointed and confused.... i more or less guess it concern BGR, and true enough, she feeling sad, dissapointed and confused because of what's going on between her and her crush.
Haiz.... when i realise that she got a crush... i was feeling abit sad...... i was like... er.... okie.. she got a crush..... anyway it's the first time i see her like this... yes, though i dont know her long enough but this is the first time i see her not behaving her usual self.

I was feeling sad that she's sad. I mean this is the last thing i wanna her to be. and guess what.... i actually kinda help her between herself and her crush. er... wait.. i dont think i reallie help lah.... i was just listening to her.... just give a listening ear....and a few suggestion... anyway i just wanna her to pour out what is bothering her so she would not bottle up her feeling and feel sad deep down inside, i just want her to feel better and be happy.
Well for me.... liking someone doesnt mean that u must have her by yr side, it is making tt someone happy. I'm just trying to do that.
Told andrew abt it... and he say i dont know my priorities... ahhahahah... i mean yes i got a crush on her but tt doesnt mean i must make her mine what.... if she like somebody and she's better of with that somebody ... then it is good for her wat... as i say liking someone doesnt mean that you must have tt someone by yr side, it is letting that someone you like feels happy.

Well i aint sure whether this is a one-off conversation over the phone.... i still wanna chat with her over the phone again and get to know and understand her more.... and i dont wanna keep chating with her over the same issues too.. cause it makes no sense either... anyway during our conversation, we also do talk abt other stuffs... and to my findings... somehow or rather both of us behaves the same way in life, and have the same thoughts in life and in love.

Didnt know she also has a bad experience when she was competing in last year sea games....... Totally understand how she was feeling tt time cos i was badly hurt, badly affected when i was competing in last year sea games too.....

She also agrees that in relationship that there is three stages... that is .... crush, like and then love. She will never hurried into a relationship because to her it makes no sense.. bcos she prefer to reallie understand a person first before she will have a relationship with tt person.... and for me its the same! both of us just got the same thinking.

There are still plenty of things that i found out that she got the same thinking as i do in terms of life, sports, relationship. How coincident can that be...... Prob sports person do understand another sports person better... but i find that we just have too many things in common... aint sure if she's feeling this way.... but i reallie do think that we have lots in common.

Ohh... this is getting a little long out here..... still thinking should i let her know that i got a crush on her........Below is a short list of the things i like about her..... and i believe there will be more next time... =)

10 Things I Like abt HER
* I like her big round eyes
* I like her long silky hair.... makes me wanna touch and smell her hair
* I like the way she smiles...... it's the best things that can ever happen on earth!
* I like the way she 'bian zhui'
* I like the way she nodes her head innocently ... she just look so sweet and cute.
* I like the way she looks when she's blur.... tt's so cute!
* I like her simplicity
* I like the way she always think for others, she would keep her problems to herself bcos she dont wanna make ppl worried for her. She just want ppl ard her to be happy. For this she is sooo like me, bcos i behave this way too.
* I like the way she thinks, though she is young, she is matured enough and she somehow or rather knows what she wants in life.
* I like the way she handle over relationship matters because it is soooo smiliar to how i handle mine.


I've been wondering whether are we meant to be together because we have so many things in common, and able to understand each other point of view, nonetheless it is still too early too fast, i would love to know her a little more, a little better first. =)



Falling - Ant and Dec
You make me weak, girl you stand out from the crowd,
You are so strong never let life get you down
I can't go on, pretending I don't see
Just how good I'd be for you
And how good you'd be for me
And it doesn't matter how hard I try,
I can't suppress this feeling, this feeling inside
I think I'm falling girl

I'm falling for you, I'm falling for you,
It doesn't matter what you say, doesn't matter what you do
Baby it's true, I'm falling for you, I'm falling for you
You know how much I care for you,
(There's nothing that I would, I would not do)

Just got home ...... feeling tired..... well what's new yeah.... been out the whole day, confrim tired what. Well had a quick chat with amlin about some of my stuffs, and surprisingly after the chat, i realise tt i dont miss princess so much liaoz... though still think of her... but aint missing her like how i did for the pass few days... guess more or less i know or amlin and i concluded tt princess aint tt interested in me afterall.... well tt's my so-called thoughts and my conclusion. Haiz... take it slow man... shant think so much.... let nature takes its course.

Just realise the month november will be a scary month for me! super busy!!! dont think i can work man!!! Exam and exam and still exam during November!!! I think i will be a dead meat during tt month!! The thoughts of it coming soon just scared the shit out of me!!!

Aint missing her but thinking of her right now........ =/

Gd morning everyone! It's monday morning! Monday blues???? Well... didnt reallie sleep well last night, wasn't sure the exact reason, prob i just keep thinking of her! damm! Woke up and came online straight just so that i can spot her online.... She wasnt online... Then all of a sudden her nick just appear! i get so excited abt it.... I think i reallie fallen for her lioaz..... damm! not so quick pls....

She doesnt sound too happy ytd and this morning... her behaviour is sooooo different... probably i'm just too sensitive... but i can feel it man... I've got this feeling, she's not interested in me man! Probably she's giving out signals to tell me??? or was she having PMS?

Wadever, i guess i done for it man! cant believe i'm missing her every moment! argh! i hate myself for that! If she has the same feeling for me as i have for her... things would be much simplier..... well i guess it's not the case.

Does she knows i'm fond of her? prob i think.... she has been showing mixed signs.... wassup man.....

One thing i found out.. she is quite different from the rest of the girls i know, prob tt make her unique and probably certain words i said kinda offended her....... omg! i aint wanna offended her anymore.... dont know whether we can ever go out again or not...... I have yet to know her more..... dont know whether i have the chance or not? She's one busy gal and i think her time table just clashes with mine!? unless both of us reallie make an effort to go out together, like our first date?!? i mean our first outing..... It's kinda hard to know what's reallie in her mind......

I wanna go out with her again..... i think she driving me alittle crazy..... not much hope on our current situation.... but i've just wanna know her better as a friend.....

Got this feeling of spending time with her every moments.......... even not talking also nvm... i just wanna feel her presense......reallie i'm done for it man.... not even in a relationship and i'm feeling this way..... gone case liaoz............
Can someone tell me i still can be saved!?!?? gosh!

*missing her now* =/

Went to watch White Chick just now.... yeah..... i know i'm slow, it's was shown like dont know when ago but i just only manage to catch it today. Well.... went to watch it with princess as promise though.... Haha.... feel abit weird and funnie to watch it together.... i think somehow or rather both of us feel alittle awkard... couldnt explain the exact feeling.... well ... one thing i know for sure.... i know her alittle better after today... Nice cheerful girl she is.... hmm.... well well... aint know wat she's thinking man.... wadever..
Sometimes is not the movie.. is the person you watch it with..... well... The whole show is funnie... and the show is nice not bcos it is funnie or entertaining, it is also because that i watch it with her... keke~
Well aint sure is she the one..... but i cant deny the fact that i'm thinking of her now..... eh oh.... i'm in for trouble lioaz......
She aint the prettiest gal i know... but i do feel comfortable going out with her though it is onli like the first time we are out?! however still feel abit awkard... er.. of cos bcos it the first time we are out together u know..... hmmm....

I dont think she had the same feeling for me as i felt for her... well prob still early ah or prob tt's my thinking.... haiz... wadever.... one thing i know... i still have to know her better... and this means i would be out with her more often...ahhahah... didnt reallie talk to her today cos i was kinda tongue-tied...... i'm always like that ... i dont know why.... i hate myself for not being able to talk as and when i like.... sometimes i always get tongue-tied at important occasion!!! DAMM!

anybody outta know how to cure tongue-tied........ gosh!

I missing her ...... it's been a while since i last felt this way........ well suppose to watch movie with her though... but i think aint gonna watch it lioaz for wadever reason i aint sure of......

Could she be the one?!?! Aint sure?! but i know that i had my eyes laid on her..............

Who is she?!?! for those quite close to me will know who is she.... if u dont know, then.... ahhahahaha... u aint tt close to me ah.......

She had those mesmerizing round eyes and long silky hair.......... she aint lack of suitor i guess..... wadever.... if it's meant to be, it will be ah.... so aint in a hurry of this though......

Will she be mine?? hahahah..... BIG BIG BIG qns mark man

i aint sure wat to do next........ well... why shld i worry when i oredi say let nature take its course yeah...... =)

For now...... i'm still waiting.................................for the right person to come along.

Today i never go work!!! because my leg hurts like mad... cant walk properly ... decided to rest at home... bleahz =p

Well... my ex came to my house... sometimes i wonder why she still wanna be so nice to me.. haiyoh.... sometimes i just dont understand why she behaves in certain ways....

Hopefully i can find the gal i want pretty soon.... gals will ask where is their man in shinning armour... well for me, i would ask where is my beauty queen!?!? Quick come and saves me..... hehe =)

Guess what! What i predicted is right!!! Now my legs hurts like crazy! Basically walking like a old man!!!!! Wah pianz eh.... Think i better exercise more often or should i say run/jog more often... damm jialat..... cant even move my leg properly now... *ouch* *ouch* *ouch*

Today went to play soccer at the Tampines Street Soccer court. Didnt reallie have a gd game though.... It's been along time since i play soccer.. and of cos exercise! Just a few mins game play, oredi feeling tired... OMG! and after the game... was so tired... My leg aching like mad! I got a feeling my leg going to hurts like crazy tomolo!! *ouch*

Today 2nd Oct, the day after children day, of cos if not wad else.... well boughts some sweets ( M& M and HI-CHEW ) and crackers for my swimming kids.......

MY Swim Kids : Hello coach kelvin... hello kelvin kor kor...

Kelvin : Harlowz children.... how r u, you all seems so
Happy, ok tell you what... you all better listen to
me today ah... make sure you all swim fast fast
okie??? listen to me and swim properly, swim fast
fast, coach kelvin will give you present ok.... who
dont want present?!?!? raise up your hand

Kids : *nobody put up their hands* All keep quiet

Kelvin : Ok good, so everybody want present right!??!

Kids : YES!YES!!YES!!! all raise up their hand and nodding
their head

Kelvin : Ok! But first you all must listen to me ok, cannot
be nottie, must swim well today ok......

Kids : all shout together * YES !!! *

WOW! Teaching has never been easy man! Just the word 'present' will send the kids wild and listen to you! Better than raising voice to control them... hahah.. =)

After the swim classes, was distributing the 'present' .. the kids were waiting anxiously.... all sticking out their hand... hahahhaha... When i give out the sweet 'HI-CHEW', all exclaim "WAH!" HI-CHEW leh!! NICE NICE!!!
Not bad man! a simple sweets like this can make them go crazy! hahahaha
Kids are afterall kids! easily satisfied, easily contended. Well their parents are so delighted after seeing their kids smiling from ear to ear. Guess parents can be easily satisfied as kids too.

Feeling so happy after making children smile and laugh. Well i guess it's the next best thing compared to having lots of money yeah..... ;)

Happy Children Day !!!

Happy Children Day !!! What a day for the children!

Well 11yrs back was my last yr celebrating Children Day.... and 3yrs back was my last yr celebrating youth day! Gosh! am i getting old!!!??? Damm it.. i got no day to celebrate except looking forward to Father day??!?!?!? This is scary thoughts man! cant believe i reaching my mid twenties soon... haiz.... miss all the good old days as a kid... no stress... worry free...

Dont think i'll be celebrating father day soon man..... havent found a gal tt i can start a family with.... thought i found it last time... well... it didnt work out though.. nonetheless it's children day today!!

To all the kids in the world............... ENJOY yrself on this lovely day!!! Lot's of pressie waiting for u ................ =)