Went to my uncle wake ytd, pretty heart-wrenching to see my grandma sitting at one corner. She look so frail and melancholy. Talk to her for a while, it saddens me to see her in her phyiscal shape right now and at times she sounded senile. Who wouldnt be, for she had already gone through real bad times when she lost her husband when the kids are still young, and had lost her youngest son 10 years ago prior to losing her second son now.


My dad's mom (my grandmother) become thin and sickly and acting like a small kid before she pass away. I hate to see elders becoming like this. It scares and sadden me because i cant imagine my parent might one day become like them and for me myself would become exactly like one next time. Why do we have to go tru this? To me it just didnt make sense. Where did we come from and where will we go after we die. If there's life after death, wouldnt it be better that we die when we are healthy as compare to being thin and sickly and senile because when we are dead, we will still be "living" healthy in the other world as compare to otherwise.


I seriously dont understand why people would commit sucide over small matters. If life is a one time love affair with the earth, isnt it so damm precious to throw it away. Its real sad to know that whatever you have work so hard all your life for, you might not get to enjoy it because if you die too early, then that's too bad for u.


Where will we be after death? Will us be forever gone? "Sleeping" for millions of years and losing touch with all our love ones. Why cant we be ard to witness the revoluation of the earth. I would jump into joy if i manage to meet a ghost, spirit of whatever you call it. If we are suppose to be one of them when we are dead, why are we afraid of them, if we will be one when we are dead, doesnt it mean that there will be life after death, wouldnt it be wonderful just to witness whatever gonna happen to this earth and our love ones daily lives.


I'm dead jealous about the prospect of human races able to go for Space holiday, to be able to travel to Mars, Jupiter, just like how all our long ancestors are dead jealous now about us able to travel by planes to different parts of the world for holiday.


Am i able to live that long to see that happening, maybe by then i would have lost my eyesight, hearing, and become too senile to see the world or maybe i would have long been extinct in this world.


I wish i could live life again. There are so many things that i would love to do if i'm able to turn back time.