Tsunami - The nature force

Forget about the latest gadget in town, forget about what's hot and what's not for fashion! The "rejected" feeling of not having one of the latest gadget, following the latest fashion trend is nothing compared to the massive destruction caused by mother nature. Thousands of lives were lost by the recent horrendus Tsunami.

What is Life? Have anyone wonder? Didnt i mention i'm going to post something about my thoughts on Life and Death, didnt know that a few days later, thousands of lives are being swept away just in a couple of hours.

*Why are we born?
*Who made our existence?
*What is the purpose in us living?
*What is life after Death? Is there any in the first place?
*Where will we be after we die? Dont tell me is either Heaven or Hell, because do u think it reallie exist ? If there is life after death, what happen to those Dinosaurs that once rule the earth, what happen to those animals that dies, wouldnt they be experiencing life after death too........

I dont wanna ask any more qns, the thought of it just me scared, just make me wanna tears, it is not death that is scary, it is the thought of leaving yr loved one behind, the things you love to do (be it sports or whatever passion you have), imagine leaving behind all yr fav CDs, electronic gadget, yr soft toys, etc..... Not knowing where the hell you would go, what life would be in the year 2100 or 2200 ...... we cant live that long to see the world, we cant do this , we cant do that, then where will we be in yr 2100 or 2200? The thought of dissapearing forever in the faces of earth just scares me, Then the qns of where are we here and where will we be after death always sent shiver down my spine...... Hundreds and Thousands of qns about life and death always ringing in my head, and i could only beg with mercy to my brain not to think about all these.

I dont mind seeing ghost, though we have been taught that they are the spirits that would do more harm than good to you. I heard stories of ppl being possess by evil spirits, how true would that be? Is it just a make-up stories or was it real cases, many a times we always scare ourselves out of nothing......... When we are young, how many kids dare to walk alone in the dark... Why are we just sooooo afraid to walk in the dark, is it because our parents or whoever always say there are ghost ard and some badies ard dark places. Our mind are just being tuned by our parents or our seniors that whenever we are alone in the dark, we will shiver in fear.

Going back to those stone ages days where human races dont even know how to speak, know nothing about electricity, they faces the dark once the night falls, and with onli moonlight to fall on if there ever need to see something...... Do u think they are worried of ghosts?

People always say we'll become ghost after we die, or whatever kind of things based on the stories you heard since young..... i dont mind seeing a ghost because if there is such things as ghost or ppl possess by spirits, then prolly i would be contented because i would know that i would still live after i die, there is still life after death tt is. I know i got weird thinking, but that is me, cause the thought of dissapearing completely and leaving behind yr loved ones and yr beloved stuffs just scared the shit out of me........

Ok, enough of my it, i dont wanna think anymore..........

The recent Tsunami attack just reinforce that statement or , "Life is fragile" , "Life is just like a Candle"
Buildings and roads that takes years to build, Families that takes decades to build up are just literally wash away by that massive Tsuanmi within hours. One might think that some part of those villagers might blame the god for taking aways the lives of the beloved kins, they would probably blame the "sea god" or whatever god they might think of or being mention by their ancestors............... whatever the case, shant argue whether is it god's will or just the cause of that destructive earthquakes

Let's have a moment of silent for those that had perish in that terrible Tsunami

Anyway i'll be away for two days, just in time for the 2005 countdown, it's the time where most would be scared to travel by the sea, but for me, i'm just going against the odds by travelling using ship route.

Just hope that i will have a safe trip. =)

Happy advance 2005 to all my friends!

Merry X'mas Everyone! Urm... though it's kinda late, however there a saying "Better Late than Never"

Well was quite busy for the past few days, didnt reallie have the time to sit down in front of the comp to blog, was busy driving my relatives ard this christmas and not forgeting spending precious time with my dearie!

It was a special christmas this year, no happening stuffs, just me and her... and i think sometimes it is better to leave the whole world for a while to be with yr loved one. That's exactly what i did.

Christmas Eve
Didnt do much, just me and dearie out shopping, places were flooded with people! gosh! i hate crowds! yea i reallie hate it! I just cant walk, shop with peace, and with tt sickening feeling of squeezing through the crowds! oh gosh! yucks, pukes!

Got a christmas gift from dearie...... it's a wallet !!! Sweet! Real nice...... The way she wrap the gift, ohh..... nice wrapper, nice wrapping skills, the best thing is the gift itself! Branded Wallet, bet it cost her quite a fair bit, She bought me something that i would have to think thrice or countless time before buying. And to think that she dont mind parting away her precious money to get me something sooo expensive when she's not even working! Gosh, dont want her to go into financial crisis bcos of this gift, but it's happening soon anyway.......

*looking at my precious wallet now! Sweet! =)

Got her a pressie too, she badly need a watch and i guess it's the perfect christmas pressie for her! =) It's the latest design, and it's not even official launch yet till Feb 05 and currently there's only 1 piece of tt design at 2 outlet in Singapore and since i get 1 for her that would mean there's left onli one in the whole wide singapore, which also means either 1 more person or none will have exactly the same watch as her till the official launch date! ok at least tt wat the salesgirl say. Nonetheless such a special girl she is definately deserve a special gift that i'm giving her. Merry X'mas dearie! =)


Christmas Day
The moment the clock struck twelve! Ho ho ho! Dearie just beside me! Tt's nice! keke~ It's always great feeling when your loved one just beside you on this joyous occasion. =) grinz
Was out with my relatives that's from overseas, since they came all the way here, it onli make sense for me to bring them ard, and dearie was there tagging along too....... it's just feel nice having her accompanying me.

Boxing Day
Was out shopping with my relatives again, and this time it was an improptu decision that dearie was out with me again. hahahah~ Guess she cant even not see me for one day! hahahah.... i'm just kidding! =P

My sis is off to Batam enjoying herself with my relatives! Well I'll be joining her soon when i settle my stuffs, and then will head back to Singapore for the YR 2005 Countdown!!! =)

6 more days to year 2005!!!
Very very fast it's gonna be the end of yr 2004, i can still remember soooo clearly about saying out loud my yr 2004 resolution on 1 jan 2004..... oh well... times reallie flies, and now i gonna have my 2005 resolution ready to be said!

I hope i will have a wonderful year ahead! as Yr 2005 is my year!! cos it's the chickie chickie year! hahahaha....

Just in case i dont blog tt often......... to all my friends, Best wishes for Yr 2005!!! Cheers!

Ho Ho Ho ...... Santas Clause is Coming to town......

Just 2 more days before Christmas...... Been walking ard lately and saw sooo many shops putting up e "On Sale" signboard...... argh! no money man! if not i will be one of the many enjoying myself with discount products. =P

Still got no plans for Christmas! hahahah... dunno where to go, dunno wat to do........... Well dont have a habit of celebrating Christmas though.

Meeting Dearie later to watch the "Kung Fu' Movie, i believe i will have a good time laughing away while watching that show, Stephen Chow never fail to make me laugh in his show. =) *grinz

Office is having Christmas celebration later during lunch time, i got my pressie ready, no fanciful pressie, just cheap cheap one, hehe.....

* I want lots of pressie for my Christmas!!! =p

Hi Guys. i'm back ! I better be back before you guys get sick and tired of reading the same entry for days! =) and of cos before spiders start crawling all over my bloggie site. =p

Nothing much happen during the past few days, been busy with one stuffs a couple of days ago, and that is to get my Final Year Project done!~ Finally complete it on 18 dec! Phew~ Hopefully nothing go wrong and i will graduate with a Degree!! Complete a hons degree at the age of 23, and considering i'm a guy that gone tru national service... hmmm.... not a bad achievement... hahaha.... *peace
Going to be Harry Potter as plan next year nov, when i recieve tt piece of paper, many regards as a Degree cert, and without it, many companies would just slam their door hard on yr face. Ouch! tt's the cruelity in life!

Spend the past few days chilling out with dear..... yeah.... i think abit no life ... just me and her... however i just like it this way... and she doesnt seems to mind a single bit. Went carrefour tt day with my parents, she can just click with my family just like tt...... I dont think i can click with ppl the way she does it. =)

Christmas is coming..... *kelv sing........ Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way................ Joy to the world, the lord has come....... Last christmas i give you my heart, the very next day you give it away, this year to save me from tears, i give it to someone special.......................

okok...... enuff of singing.... Christmas is coming, and yet i dont know wat to do... oh well.. normally i dont have a habit of celebrating christmas.... it's just in me. Nonetheless gonna spend it with someone special this year...... with or without doing anything , it doesnt matter ... as long as i'm with her..... everything, anything is fine.......

*smile =)

Dearie is coming back today! wooohoooo..... ; )

Two more days before my project submission, and i still havent finish yet..... kan cheong spider liaoz.... just ask for extension and couldnt get it.....ohh no.... hiaz....... just have to try and finish it....shall hope for the best..... i believe i can do it

"Just Do It" yeah.... hahahahah

Ytd was my cousin big day..... was busy sending my relatives here and there..... been reflecting alot ytd, seeing alot of my cousin that are younger than me growing up..... and its kinda scary.... cos this means i'm growing old..... hiaz... well tt's life isnt it. I still can remember when i was 8years old, i wish i didnt have to grow any older.... I dont like the idea of growing old and then die..... So much thought went tru my young mind then and it is still pretty much the same now. Gosh! time reallie flies! Shant be too melancholic..... will put some thoughts on life and death next time... for now i need to spend more time on my project rather than my blog! hahahah....

oh well.... just too happy that dearie is coming back.....
She's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back............ did i mention that she's coming back... oh yes.... dearie coming home, she is coming back!

=) *big grinz

It's tuesday !!! two more days, dearie will be back! wooohoo... okok... cool it kelvin cool it... you are crazy..... yes i am, I miss her like crazy =)

It is also 4 more days before my project dateline!!! argh! die! Kinda half way tru... havent been reallie going full force in completing it, i guess i always reward myself for the effort i put in my project. Sometimes over rewarding! heehee~ Basically it is like work for 2 to 3 hour straight, then i will play game, relax, listen music... do watever stuffs other than project for more than same amount of time i put in my project... guilty guilty =P

So far this week has been good, missing her wasnt as bad as i first thought cause we thought we not going to talk for the longest time, luckily thanks to the greatest invention on earth, that invention we call cellphone, or handphone as we commonly know. Dont know whether Hp bills gonna shoot up or not. Well.... its doesnt reallie matter as long as i know she is doing fine over there, and she'll be returning like in two days time! =)
I'm happy because i can save on overseas call and secondly i can see her... well the latter will be the more exact reason though =)

Tml is my cousin big day, yes it is his wedding!!! Wish him blissful marriage. =)
This also means that its gonna be a busy day for me as well, as i have to chauffer my relatives ard..... FOC chauffer leh.... wah piangz..... oh well it's a joyous occasion so it doesnt reallie matter =)
Time reallie flies, still can vivdly remember the days where i use to play with my cousin, and tml he is gonna get married (as in chinese customary), and prob few years down the road he will become a father. Without me carefully thinking, i'm gonna reach mid twenties pretty soon... oh gosh..... that's super fast! The way time flies reallie scare me...... Responsibility always comes together with age. The older you are, the more responsibility you would be expected to shoulder...... gosh ... i havent have enough fun yet... oh well who would say they have had enough fun. I miss the good old carefree days where i dont even need to care about money, work, blah blah blah.....
It is way much better to be a child. Sometimes with the amount of stress, pressure, responsibility you have, you just feel like hey! i need to take a break and catch my breath! phew!

Well.... that's the cruel fact of life b'cos time and tide wait for no man! Now i just have to look forward and miss all those good old days =)
Hope year 2005 would be a wonderful year for me!!!

Ok gonna catch the last episode of "My mighty in-laws" It's gonna be real exciting!!! After that shall head back to my project.....

*counting down the no. of days..... it's just another 2 more days....... =)

It's Sunday!!! Times reallie fast.... we approaching to the end of yr 2004 pretty soon..... Alot of things happen this year... Ups and down but i thank god cos i believe i gonna have a good closing end for my 2004 yr. =)

Those that know me and quite close to me will know exactly what happen to me during my low key period this year..... I thank those who stood by me during that period of time.... and i'm soo happy that i have found somebody special that would stand by me forever.....

She may not be the prettiet woman i ever know.... She may not be good in alot of things but to me she is someone special....
*She is sweet, real sweet
*She show me the meaning of love that i use to find it sooo difficult to trust just months ago

LOVE is a strong word.... and i dont say LOVE to anyone.... I have my own sets of LOVE value, i have my own defination of LOVE, LOVE is a word i would use it sacredly.... I onli say it to two woman in my life b4... however she gonna be the third woman that i will gonna say it. I believe she deserve every single alphabet of LOVE... she deserve every single meaning of this word LOVE from me.

Dear, you know how much u mean to me... This song is for you.....

Say'n I LOVE YOU - Moffats

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true
I may not be the best
Looking guy you ever knew
But I can show you love
That will always be true
And when your skies turn grey
My love will guide the way
And if these words that I hold
Could only be told

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

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She is out of town, going genting for holiday... i wish that she will enjoy herself..... =)

I just left a week before i have to submit my project up... this coming week gonna be very busy ... with wed gonna be big day for my cousin cos it gonna be his wedding!!! Shall not spend sooo much time on my blog lioaz... gonna head back to my project.... I need time... plenty of time.....

*Off to my project now....
*I MISS HER =)

My dad got his cab on the day same as dear dear bday.... that's to me is soooo conincident yeah... =) Well so far it has been good for daddy so far.... i wish him good business =)

Was out with dear celebrating her bday ..... think i didnt reallie do a great job.... alot of impromptu decision, nonetheless hope she enjoyed herself =) Well just love the times we share together...... it is just plain sweet!

I got myself a brand new nike slipper! hahaha.... did i mention before i onli wear nike slipper.... oh well i'm just abit nike craze.... well dont care lah.... i "Just Do It" hahahaha

I havent start on my project yet... argh! simply no mood... i will start tonight... yap.. definately tonight! I have to submit the project if not i cant complete my degree course and it would mean i wasted two years studying for tt stupid paper call Degree in accounting and finance. Sometimes i wonder do i reallie need to go tru shit and money to get that piece of paper... afterall it is seriously a peice of paper..... oh well... shouldnt complain so much since i'm very very close to the finishing line..... Gambatte yo!!!

well been out with dear every single day from the day we got together... i dont know whether it is good or bad.... but i just miss spending time with her but at the same time i got my own stuffs to juggle.... guess it is what we always say, we need time management and setting priorities yeah.... hahaha

Well it;s gonna rain soon now... dark clouds over the sky... well just hope that it dont rain while i'm coaching later.....

Christmas approaching... and i dont have enough money to spend during this holiday.... argh.. financial crisis for me...... bleahz.... nonetheless hope i can see money fall from the sky soon......

*staring at the sky now...........

My daddy and sis are back !!! I'm free from the responsiblity that i was shouldering for the past few days! Phew!

Yup as my sixth sense predicted correctly, i got my pressie from dad.... nice nice.... =)

Today is dear's birthday............. Happy birthday dear! =)

My dad is going to collect his taxi today !!! oh wat a day yeah.... 0812... This number sure is special...... quick must buy 4D ... muahahhahhaha

Ok is lunch time.... i'm hungry..... Food........ i'm coming for you!!!!........... yum yum yum yum...

It been 3 days since i last blog anything.... well... apologies for that... i have been a filial son all these while. Has been helping my dad with his business while he is enjoying himself over at Thailand with my sis.... Talk about fairness yeah.... hahahahahahaha

Well since the day i finish my exam till now ... i havent even touch my project yet... ohh guilty guilty but at least i manage to borrow some books to start on my project.

These few days have been kinda a routine for me... wake up 6 plus in the morning go work (as in my dad business) then do this do that as he has ask me to do.... blah blah blah.... And at the end of the day i will sleep like around 2am in the morning... so which means i onli been getting 4hrs of sleep for the pass three days.... i wanna faint soon... my eyes kinda puffy now... Dont know whether i look like puffy fish or not... wwaaahhahaha....

And for the past few days i have been meeting dear too.... ohh... dont know wat going to happen if we dont meet each other for few days... well.. guess it will happen pretty soon cause i dont have sooo much luxury of a time to spare and neither has her too.... =p

She is a sweet lovely lady.... did anyone know that she spend soooo much time and effort on creating, decorating, fixing a blogsite just for the both of us..... omg! Tell me if she sweet or not.....=)

And it was just 2 days ago that she told me i am rank no.1 in her life! Am i really that good to be somebody no. 1 in their life? oh well..... to her i am... and i am real honoured. =)

It's tuesday today and tml would be dearie bday!!! and i havent got her a present yet.... gosh! any idea anyone???? (Within my budget pls ah...) =p

Tonight is the night my dad and sis are coming back!!!! Hoooray!!!!! I can sense they gonna bring back alot of present for me.... My sixth sense normally dont fail me! hahahahaha....

*prezzie prezzie........ =) BIG BIG GRINZ ... hehe~

EXAM OVER!!!! Hoooray!!!! It feel sooo good... yeah... so damm good! Was in happy mode for the past two days or so.... Just wanna relak my mind, my brain after working so 'hard' for my exam. I think i've no more brain juice left lioaz..... =p

Thursday paper was good, at least i know how to do..... however i got soo many info to write, i dont know how to arrange it in nicely order....hahah... and in the end..... dont reallie have time to finish it properly.... i guess i always write grandfather story.... hiaz... well.. dont think soo much... at least it is definately better than the tuesday paper.... and i can rightly annouce i gonna graduate from my degree soon ............ wooooooohhhhhaaaaaaa........

I nearly scream! when the invigilator say "ok, times up, stop writing"..... i'm not trying to scream or shout at him, but the fact is that my exams are over... yeah it is all over... finally over.... my last degree exam paper is over!!!

I feel like celebrating until i realise hey...i still have a project need to be submitted on this month 18 before i can duly say i have complete my degree course (of course that is that i got no supp paper or watsoever) I was like... alamak! But hack it... gonna play first.... i still left a jolly 14 days to work on my project.... at least it is a project .... i also believe project is easier than exam.... urm.... i hope this belief still hold on... ok at least till i submit my project on the 18. =p

Went out with Jo after my exam.... she was late and yet she still dare to come out with the joanne rule of punctuality... omg... can faints ................ Went to catch the show ... "without a paddle" quite a nice show.. was laffing alot in the movie... The show was nice, but the things that happen in the show was even nicer....... *shant say what actually happen in the show... *grinz
muaaaahahahahahahahahahah

After the show, was walking aimlessly again.... we always do tt, however we kinda enjoy it... ok probably we just enjoying each other company and not the walking aimlessly part... cause after walking sooo long, my leg and back hurts ....

Friday, sent my sis and dad off to Thailand... Sawadee-kup .......... my sis is having competition over there... how i hope i can join her.... i mean i just wanna go overseas.... =) however i cant.. cos i have to help my dad on his business since he's following sis over ... They better buy something good for me when they come back..... hahahahah... just kidding...=p

Alright its time to sleep! Need to catch some rest.... very very tired..... to that someone special that has enter my life... i miss you....... *poof*

Hasnt been a great day today! So damm bloody weird... Woke up today and manage to catch the bus to go to exam venue... wasted 10mins to try to clarify with them to get my seats... why cant they have a proper allocation, soo many miscommunication, idiots man! It's already 10.10am on the clock, take a look at my exam qns... feel like walking out immediately, this is madness.... spend close to half an hour to decide which qns should i attempt, and in the end onli manage to complete 2 out of 3qns.. SHIT! Was quite tired after the exam cos i studied till quite late the day before... tout i can go home and sleep but was ask to do some stuffs.... argh.. didnt rest and of i go for coaching... miss my bus the moment i reach there.... waited and waited and it seems like ages and the bus still insist on not coming, well took another bus instead and then try to change bus later at the other bus stop, and not long after i alight at the bus-stop, the bus i suppose to take came, wah piangz... why cant the bus just come 2mins earlier just now.... Because of waiting for tt stupid bus i was late for coaching.... Then when i finish coaching was about to leave tt time, it rain! Gosh.... wait until the rain stop and then proceed to the bus stop to take bus and go home, and when i ran towards the bus stop the moment i saw the bus, the bloody female bus driver just dont wanna stop for me, and in the end i have to wait soo damm long again for the bus to come! Idiots! Everything didnt seem to go smoothly for me today especially the EXAM TODAY!!! argh!! I wonder did i offended anybody and being cast a spell or wat! Argh! Hope tml will be a better day! Hopefully my thur would not be the same as today! Thursday gonna be the last day of my exam! Hope whatever i study will come out!
*Pray Hard!!!

Anyway Thanks Jo for being sooo sweet, thanks for that lovely sms, you did make me smile! Thanks

Alright time to head back to my notes! Last paper! Hang on there!!!!

*Studying Mode

So fast its the last day of the month November. This also means that i'm going to have 1 more exam before becoming a free man. Oh well it was just last week that the thought of having exam would sent cold vibe to my skin, and now i'm going to finish my exam pretty soon. Times reallie flies!

Today paper just sucks! and i reallie mean suck big time!!!! Argh! Frustration, agony, whatever negative aspect of feeling will be associated with me right after i finish my paper, or in fact while sitting for the paper. Up to this point in time i am still FRUSTRATED, ANGRY, FURIOUS, MAD!!!!

I just couldnt do a bloody single qns! Yes not even a SINGLE Qns !!! This is the worst paper i ever take in my whole student life! It was drastic contrast to all the papers that i have took previous week. I have confidence abt the result or the marks i going to get for all my previous paper. Nothing of this sort can be said to this paper, probably the outcome that i'm most confident of is that i'm going to FAIL, and i mean FAIL BIG TIME!!! ARGH!!!
I'm absolutely gutted! The papers is upon 300 marks (3qns 100 marks each) and i only manage to do 2 qns, and u guys know that i dont even know to ans any one of the qns. I do it for the sake of doing it! I reallie wish i didnt have to sit for this paper!!! I feel like walking out of the exam venue, but the saddest truth is i'm already there... leave and i would get 0 marks, so i decided to give it a shot even though i aint know shit abt any of the qns!!! To make matter worse, it is all calculation based qns... it is either u know or u dont know, there is nothing in between, it is not like those kind of marketing or management paper where u can bluff yr way through and hope for the best that kind! Oh well.... i'm dead! i'm in deep shit! would reallie have to pray very hard in order to get at least a 25%.... yup u get me right... that would mean 75marks upon 300marks! Gosh! That's the minimum criteria i have to obtain before any thoughts of having an honours degree and i havent even consider other factors yet!!! gosh ! This paper is terrible... i should have just take it last semester. Even if i took it while i was sick i think i could still gather a score higher than what i'm goin to get today. It's not that i'm pessimistic or what, it is just the cruel fact of the bloody truth! I aint know how to do a single qns!!!! I aint know shit man!!!! Ok the problem is not because i didnt study, if i didnt study then it is fair enough, but the blooy problem is that the topics that is being tested is not being covered with me last semester!!! I bet they did some correction over what topic is going to be tested and what is not for this subject for the current batch of student and not me!!! And i'm the bloody kuku from my own batch (previous batch) sitting for that bloody exam paper! Tell me abt it! I know nuts what is going on for the current batch of student! and to be tested on the topic that they study and not mine! This is ridiculous! Oh gosh! can somebody pls save me! I need the marks! i badly need the marks! I do not want the result for this paper to spoil all my previous good mark i obtain , the effort i put in for all my previous papers! I do not want at the end of the day i didnt meet the first criteria for a honours degree because of this bloody stupid idiotic reason! I'm going mad!! Real mad! and to think that i still have one more paper to go! I just have no mood to carry on and to add salt to my wound, the next paper for me is also last semester paper, and i beginning to wonder whether will it be the same topics that i did covered to be tested in this coming paper! I'm going crazy! This is madness! .... MADNESS !!!

安靜 - 周杰倫 ( An Jing - Jay Chou )

I love this song soo much.... The lyrics is sooo meaningful.....and it says exactly what i was feeling the other time..... oh god! why am i feeling nostalgic again...... argh.....

安靜 - 周杰倫

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
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An Jing - Jay Chou

Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself clear
I know and I'm sure
You don't regret
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
You being with me was in the past
I hope he loves you more than I do
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

You want me to say it, but it is awkward
I don't even want to break up
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much
I'll still be fine
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
I really don't have the ability
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you so much

I'm one big culprit of not studying... just aint no mood.... my friends are all celebrating the completion of their degree where i'm left to complete another 2 more papers! Argh! Oh well Exam coming on Tue... and i have to do something abt it... i have oredi wasted two days as i didnt even touch my notes. I needed somebody to kick my ass and scream my head off a little.... oh well.. nvm...i shall find some self-motivational factors!

Today is Sunday, and it's a perfect day to study.... *yah damm right! oh well..... i going to have my whole day preparing for my exam..... I shall look forward to the day 2 Dec where i will duly complete all my exam ! Yeah! But in the meantime i gonna slog like an idiotic person..... and i dont like this kind of feeling....

Ytd was Jay concert.... heard from Jo is a super duper concert... and i'm jealous.... hahaha.... oh well... some of his songs are real nice and the meaning for certain songs are really very meaningful... okie, shant elaborate what kind of connection between me and his few certain songs.... just dont wanna feel nostalgic yeah.......

I'm going to head back to my notes.... i needed to... i being force to... cos i dont have a choice and i dont have much time left either.........

*Switch to Studying mode!

Today was my second paper and i couldnt finish in time! argh! Oh well Second paper for me but for my classmate it was their last ! Argh! After the paper, there was like soo much noise... noise of celebration... I'm jealous! freaking jealous!!!
Tml still got paper! argh! gonna head back to my notes soon... just no mood to study ... sianz....

Just finish watching "ye man qing jia" (My Mighty in-law) on channel 8. What a funny show!!! I getting hook on that show! Vincent Ng was super funnie in that show.... Almost all the character in the show are damm funnie too.... Two thumbs up man!!!

Well today episode is abt Rui-en and Vincent... hmm.... the way Rui-en tell Vincent on the things she like abt him.. oh my god.... thats like sound sooo damm familiar ! hahahahah
Well it was reallie sweet of her! i mean bascially when u like someone... u reallie like almost every single thing abt tt person lor... basically there is no reason why u like him/her but you know abt what/which things u like abt him/her and if u list it down, it gonna reflect almost pratically everything about him/her. =) grinz
Well just now tt part was reallly kinda bring back memories ... hiaz... sometimes it is just sooo hard to find someone u like and tt someone like u in return too..... =p

okok... shall stop feeling nostalgic and head back to my notes.... i'm soo worried that ppl might mistaken that i'm in a relationship with my notes now since i'm soo damm close with it.... its always me and my notes..... i'm freaking out soon....

Somebody saves me...................

*i'm uttering rubbish ... pardon me pls..... *poof*

Finally i decided to upload one of my all time fav song...... This is also a song where my nick came from..... "selfestem" .... I'm in a punk-rock mood now..... so here Selfesteem by offspring .. take it away.... =)


*Kelv sing... ahhemm.... la la lala la la la la lala.....

Selfesteem - Offspring

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert

Now I know I'm being used
That's ok because I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self-esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so

When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care, Right?

Now I'll relate this a little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem

Recieved a letter from the Navy asking me to go back for a seminar in full uniform! Argh! It's coming.... i can sense it coming..... my reservist... my national service liability ....argh! Well wat a waste of time! A full day listening to all those craps that i couldnt find at least a bit interesting! I bet they are preparing me for all those reservist shit! Leave me alone man... Not that i'm dont love the country or what, but i just think it's gonna take away the fun of being a common people (civilians) and i think i could have use the time to do something better, more meaningful things. And to think that i receive this piece of news just in the midst of my exam.... i wonder whether do they really have to give me their very own "morale boosting" treatment in such a timely fashion.

My dad just call me and told me he pass his taxi vocational license! Holy! Congrates Dad! You deserve it! He sounded sooo estatic over the phone that if there is a $100 dollar note lying on the floor, he'll probably miss it......
I bet he is beaming with joy now! He reallie deserve it for i witness the amount of effort he put in before the exam..... The way he studied and prepared for his exam makes me feel so guily over the way i'm currently preparing for my exam now! *ouch!
You can see the amount of desire he wants to get hold of that piece of license from the look of his eyes, the way he behaves..... If u staying under the same roof with him, i can gurantee you can feel it the same way as i do. Now that he passed the exam and getting the license soon, he deserve every single bit of that small piece of card that got the word "Taxi vocational license and his name on it."

Congrates to you, Dad! I love you!

Back to my own life, hahaha.. nothing much..... same shit, different day! Kinda half way tru my revision for my tml paper... pray hard that watever i've tried to study and memorise would come out in tml paper..... =)

I'm heading nowhere now except back to my notes ..... *poof*

Done with my First paper! Phew ! One down and 4 more to go... sweat sweat ....
Should have do better for my first paper... hiaz ... wasted man... I need to Hit 75 marks but i guess i could onli gather a marks that is close to that... booooo man.....

Oh well was down coaching and end up swam quite a bit.... feeling abit tired... and since i onli gathered 5hrs of sleep today, i guess it didnt reallie help ah... okie... i think i need to head back to my notes..... bed? notes? bed? notes? .... ok both i think


*poof*

Another piece of nonsense to destress me... oh well... This kind of survey or quiz or watever names u have for it, their main purpose is to destress a person yeah... so the answer or the result for it are sometimes true, sometimes it is somewhat true, sometimes it is not so true, sometimes it is not very true, sometimes it is not true, sometimes it is totally untrue

Hahahaha.... you are the judge to whether if it is the truth......

so many words of "true" ........... *faints

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