It's been a week since i last blog. Well alot of things has been going tru my mind lately. Been reflecting, thinking about lots of stuffs.... i realise i'm no longer the same before.... ok probably still have some traits of the old. Nonetheless feel that i've grown much more mature these days. Ever since tt fateful thing happen, i think i change quite a fair bit and i mean change for the better.


Firstly, i visit library more often these days, so much so that i begining to ponder whether will it be my hang out place soon. This could never happen many months back, seriously to tell you guys the truth, i dont reallie like to read books, i would prefer to watch movies, shows rather than reading books. Alot of things happen and now i seems like i cant get enough of self-improvement books! These days I've been walking into bookshop and library to scan for books to upgrade myself ever so often.


A change in me definately, and i believe it is definately a change for the better. =) Secondly, i beginning to think more in term of EQ. i started to put myself in other person shoes more often than not. Grown mature or probably i'm ready for the next stage of life. Nowadays i find that 24hr is not enough! Not enough for me to think what i wanna think, do what i wanna do.... simply not enough time. Ppl always say i got time on my side, and i starting to believe so..... however i would have prefer to be much younger. I beginning to realise what all those elders means when they say i got youth or time on my side. I realise they say it with a word of wisdom, Never in my life, i feel the urge of charging myself up for the business world. Though ppl have been saying i have the youth to fight in the business world, I still feel that i should have started sooo much earlier. Many plans came to my mind recently, so much so that even when i'm about to sleep, ideas and thought still wouldnt wanna leave my mind for me to have a good night rest. Simply too much stuffs to ponder about. I feel that i should try and do whatever i wanna do in the business world and grab whatever opportunities that is within my reach, if everything fails, and become bankrupt or whatever, at least i still have some time left to pull myself up. To make long story short, i'm going to be my own boss instead of working for ppl. I believe in working hard for myself rather than for ppl.


Knowledge is never ending and i think i'm far lacking behind in terms of life knowledge.... i'm reallie playing catch up now by reading books and motivational CDs. If all these sounds weird to you , nvm... it's ok... probably somewhere down to road, you will feel what i feel right now. It's painful to work for someone seriously. Shant elaborate on that, if you are smart enough you will understand what i mean.


Today, i look into my dad's eye, for the first time i feel that i fail as a son. I feel soo sour inside me.... Ppl always say human eyes dont tell lies, and i believe it is somewhat true. What i saw was not a reflection of myself in his eyes, what i actually feel/see (if you use heart to see) is a wonderful dad who has aged soooo much in recent years, it just reaffirm me that i would be real devasted if he is no longer ard in this world. He has been a pillar of strenght/support for me, though he can be unreasonable at times, anyway which dad dont. He had work sooo hard all his life for the family, he's been tru tough times ever since he was young, He made all those sacrifices for me and the family for god knows how much. He bite his teeth and carry on working so that he can get our lifes in shape, and even at this tender age of his, he still work sooo hard for money! I feel so bad and ashamed that he still have to work soo hard for money. I thought it should be time for my parents to rest and me taking the full loads for them. I think health is a very much important issues for them. They needed sooo much rest and enjoy the remaining days of their lives. I believe life is very very short, 23 years of gone and i believe i havent have any real impact or done anything to the family. We living in a highly fast moving society that i believe many familys fails to have financial security.
I see ppl living in big houses, big cars, a comfortable lifestyle..... i look it all in envy, it's a dream of many, and of cos it is also one of my many dreams too, can i achieve that, of cos you have to work hard if not it will be call dreaming rather than dreams.
I wanna obtain financial security and rewards my parents for working their socks off for the family. I believe it is the least i could do to make their lifes sooo much more happier and meaningful.


It pains me to see that my parents still work sooo hard every single day for the family. The more i see them working hard and cant help, the more i feel that i'm nothing but a useless bum. I need to work hard and do something for them, i think my parents definately deserve a break after working sooo hard for soooo many years. They definately deserve to go for a six month holiday or even a year holiday break, probably to see the world.


The longer i become financial stable, the longer they have to work hard and sooo much lesser time for them to enjoy themselves. Cause everybody has a life span, happy or not, my parents will leave the world sooner or later. I love my parents sooo much that i wouldnt wanna leave them, but can i make us live forever? The answer is definately no, for those individuals who are now working soo hard to fulfill their own dreams, buying new sports car or branded goods, pls remember that you wouldnt be who you are if you are without your parents. They have work soo hard, ask yourself do you want them to continue to work hard till the last day of their lives? Ever wonder why your parents work soo hard for the family, and don't u think your parents deserve something???? I firmly believe my parents deserve something from me!


So all i have to do now is to work hard and secured financial security/stability!
Today entry is rather emotional and reflective.... i thought i could just pen down some of my many thoughts that has been going tru my minds recently.

Been quite busy recently... that's the reason why i hardly update my blog. I feel good to be busy, it means i'm productive and urm making money! hahahaha ~ Jokes aside... i mean most of the time when u r busy it means u r working hard to earn money ... ok at least it applys to working class ppl like me.... so busy means money and thats good! =p


I'm still a poor guy, very much in debt, i'm having bank overdraft now.... all thanks to my degree loans, now i have to slog sooo hard to pay back the money..... hiaz... Nevermind, i can see light at the end of the tunnel pretty soon.... urm prob another 1 and a half yr of repayment left to go.... (pretty long tunnel yeah isnt it) =p


Well Didnt do anything special or extra-ordinary on Valentine Day. I mean is there a need??? Me and dearie are already one SPECIAL couple.... hahahah.... ok, i'm just crapping, pls ignore.....
Well due to my finance status, didnt reallie plan one major major surprise for her, it just another simple day that we spend together. Didnt wanna get suck in by those horrendous commercialise gimmicks on this so call "special day" for Couples. The prices of some gifts just goes out of hand during this period and sometimes i wonder if it really a special day for us couple or special day for companies to make money out of it.


Today went down to Bedok reservoir to help out in TP open house. Ohh well since it's TP open house, many secondary schools have been invitied to TP for a tour and students from numerous schools came down to participate in our water adventure event and of course it's was held at bedok reservior. For the first time i swim in a reservoir =) and just to inform you guys if you happen to taste saltiness in your house tap water.... you know what's the reason ah! hahahaha~ just kidding.... i didnt pee just fyi and anyway i believe PUB will do a good job in purifying the water.
Anyway you wouldnt believe what i saw! so much algae was found in the reservoir .... ohh gross! real gross..... *pukes...
Anyway today weather not bad, was having fun doing some board surfing till i have to rescue one victim that had fallen into the water. No worries, i'm a qualified lifesaver, so here i go to the rescue!.... eh-hemm of cos not some superhero lah.... just save the victim thats all.... hahahaha... =p


The Open house will end tml, if you guys wanna see me in action..... ok i mean come and take a look in TP and of course the water advanture event, you can always pop by yeah..... =)


Here are some of the photos that we took on Valentine day .... enjoy and pls dont break out laughing if you see the fatter side of me!
Take it away.............



Dont you think we are a special couple 



Kelv : Urm.... well.... i think i'm more special ! heehee 



Jo : Yah right?!?! who say so? Box you! * Bish !!! I'm more special lor ! .... humph! =p  

Happy Valentine Day 2005

It been a fruitful CNY so far for me! And if u guys were wondering how come i never reply sms or blog for the past few days, it is because i was away, i was out of town =) Anyway meet up with relatives and friends during this festive season, it is always good to catch up after sooo long over a year or so. Did gamble a bit there and then and was pretty lucky to won some money =) Well it was just for the fun of it, not trying to earn some big bucks during those gambling sessions. Well did recieve quite a fair bit of ang pow monies and of cos it will be crediting to my bank account soon! hoooray!!! hahahahah =)


I realise something over the weeks and it just speed up the whole process during this CNY period, and that is i have grown fatter!!! Yup i guess over the weeks i put on so much weight that my face become sooo much rounder and pls let's not talk about the size of my tummy now yeah. I guess i have to control my diet before i become unrecognisable by my friends.... keke~


Aint sure whether can i collect some more ang pow or not, however i need money, lots of money and erm.. who dont right.... bleahz
Went to temple today to pray "tai sui" cos it's my year just in case u guys forgotten. Ohhh well... didnt know and dont really bother, just follow tru the motion, ppl say wat and i just follow.... i am tt chin chai, anyway i'm a free-thinker, therefore anything also can. Well dear say better be safe than sorry, ask me just go and pray, and of cos i did with the company of my family.


So today is Valentine day! and i feel so guilty as i have not done anything yet... yup i think i gonna get it big time..... i'm a big time procastinator lah! and of cos i always think tt something nicer will pop up along the way, always thinking there will be nicer gifts to buy for dearie, well sooo much sooo that now i got none... hahahah....
Anyway sometimes it is not the gifts or whatever stuffs that is important, what's more important is the heart. And i so thankful that i found her and of cos it will be our first valentine day together =) It a day for a special couple like us to be out there spending time on a special day like this =)


Dedicated this song below to her...... Angels brought me here by Guy Sebastian.
Somehow it been a amazing journey and i so thankful to have found her... and did angels brought me to her? ok wait... shall i say did angel brought her to me because i'm just as special! hahahah..... ok i shall cut the crap and pls enjoy the lyrics.....=p

Angels Brought Me Here - Guy Sebastian


It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

I'm back after being MIA for quite long again............=p
It just 4 more days before CNY!!! Basically it just another "ANG POW" collection time... heehee *grinz


Did some spring cleaning today.... wooo... so tired.... *yawns... CNY is all about spring cleaning, buying new year goodies, buy new clothes, decoration of the house and of cos the most important for the kids, and that is the collection of "ang pow"
I'm not exactly facinated about the immenient of CNY, prolly i grown out of it..... I dont have the same excitement that i used to have when i was a small kid, prolly i beginning to see more than just ang pow time =) Lots of things has been going through my mind recently..... think i have grown mature over certain things.... =)


Anyway CNY coming, we should be in high spirits to greet the new year!!! So let's us just celebrate yeah..... To all my friends Happy advance Chinese New Year.... (just in case i dont blog next few days) =p


And yeah one more thing to add.... i finally got my tag board fix and so guys u can start tagging me again.... =)

It's been a long time since i last post anything. Nowadays been busy with some of my personal stuffs and kinda lazy to blog also.


Well just came back from a short trip, was indulging myself with lots of shopping..... yea u heard it right... shopping.... somehow or rather i love to shop while i'm overseas..... prolly i got the shopaholic syndrome when i'm overseas! hahahahah
Bought a few stuffs..... "On Sales" sign was everywhere and it just make my heart pump real fast! hahaha..... went to a mambo shop, where they having 50% sale! wooohoo..... bought one berms from there...... definately a great catch! Still bought some clothes, shoes here and there from other places..... i feel so shiok and at the same time BROKE!
Yup, that's the after effect of shopping...... =(


Was happy to see dearie today, show her the stuffs that i bought for her as well as for myself..... it was great to see her smiling when she sees her present, hope she reallie like it! =)
And She surprise me with her "Snoopy night lamp" gift! woohoo.... sooo cute! Did i tell u guys i love snoopy..... yeah i know i'm a guy.... but i just love snoopy..... so cute!!!


Ok gonna fix my snoopy night lamp now........ *poof*

I'm down with running nose, argh! terrible man! The skin around my nose is peeling off as a result of massive rubbing, even the tenderness of the tissue couldnt prevent it from happening and this just shows how bad my running nose is! Now, i just have to stick those tissues up my nose to stop my mucus from flowing out.
Chinese New Year is around the corner, I decided to start to clean up and pack my room early this year! It's time to get rid of all those old, useless things! Started packing, cleaning my room since ytd..... I have to take a break now cos my nose is irritating the hell out of me. =p


I have been racking up my past these few days and cleaning up my room didnt do any help to that situation, ohh well, i couldnt help but feels abit nostalgic...... Saw how madly in love we were then and just within month everything changes and it just goes to show we shouldnt take anything from granted. I made mistakes before and i wouldnt wanna made the same mistakes again, if not everything will be back to square one again isnt it. My past would not be a stumble block for my future bcos i'm pretty firm in certain things, and once i made up my mind, nothing seems to be able to change it. And i have told myself there is nothing i would regret if i look back. Yup, no regrets, i did what i have to do then, no regrets whatsoever! Right now i only have my future slowly unfolding right in front of me, and i'm enjoying every single minute with dearie now. My past would not be an obstacle, rather it will serve as a reminder for me not to take anyone / anything for granted.


Clearing / Keeping the things of old means i'm ready for the new year! I'm ready for new stuffs to enter into my room! Though i'm half way tru cleaning my room, it seems my room is lots freshier and i'm beaming with delight at how neat my room looks now! Cool!


To the one who has just enter my life and create a new lease of life in me
What a way to kick start Year 2005 with her in my life now, may each day unfold every magical moments in our relationship

This song is specially for you dear!


My Everything - 98 Degree


The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me


Chorus


You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything


Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give and won't let go
I hope you'll always know


Chorus


Bridge
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete
For all time
For all time

He who think he knows alot actually knows only the superficial of things, and it would only do him good if he can keep his comments to himself before he realise that he will be force to eat his own words later on in his life.
Well he will never know the real truth anyway, because unless both parties decided to reveal, he will never in his life found out the bloody truth. If only he knows then he would have use a hammer to knock on his head for his so call naive and one dimensional thinking.


I wouldnt reallie blame him because he aint know her well enough, for me... i didnt even know she was like that until things happen, and the things she did prior and after the break up make me feel so ............ oh well... shant elaborate further.


Relationship is a sticky and complicated issue and since he doesnt know everything, it would be wise to keep his bloody comment to himself before i have the last laugh for his stupidity and the effect of karma!


SHUT DA FUCK UP!

I always got a feeling that someone unauthorise has been reading/following my blog, i guess i've somehow confirm this thought of mine. Oh well, not that i mind a single bit because it was suppose to be open / public anyway. A blog is a place where u able to pour out yr feelings and thoughts and there's nothing to hide out there.


Did i actually talk bad about somebody else behind their back? did i? have i ? my goodness, what i have written in my blog is nothing but the truth.


Seems like she out to make me a culprit of the whole relationship thingy. Well it takes two hand to clap and it take both parties to maintain a relationship. I admit that i belong to the "bo-chap" kind, i realise all those mistakes that i did, i'm not those type that goes around pointing fingers at others and say "hey, its yr fault and it's not mine".
I always the kind that when things happen or things is happening, i would sit down and reflect upon myself, what is going wrong, what actually happen, was it the fault of my own or something else.
I'm a thinker not someone who would push the blame to others. Even the recent car accident that i had, i did straight away admit that i was wrong, i was wrong to drive fast on rainning day, did i point a finger and say look, "the bend was too sharp, how can they make the bend sooo sharp, it sooo dangerous for road users" or "it must be that slippery road, cant they just do something bout that road" or even "the car is lousy, i should have drive a better and newer car"
Nothing of these sort, i know where i stand, if i know i'm in the wrong, then i'm in the wrong! There no two way about that and i wouldnt even point a finger at anyone else except myself.


What went wrong with my previous relationship, hell lots of reason, was it totally my fault!?!? A BIG NO!
And mind you that's an answer that i did went tru with some serious thinking!
As i said earlier, i always sit down and think it tru, when i broke the news to my parents, i didnt even point a finger at her! I didnt even say anything bad about her! All i did say was, i was wrong in this, that, and there, i shouldnt have done this, that and there. I didnt even utter a single wrong thing that she had did to me to my parents. All it was is just me, and me , and still me full stop!
Even when i tell my friends when they ask, it still the same, and when my closer frns probe more then i began to tell them more about the current situation about us then. I'm not going to say out all the juicy details now because i dont see a need for it anyway.


Alot of my frns did questions about the things i do for her, i wasnt moved by them because i know what i want, and to those who knows more abt what actually happen on the current situation then did label her as a bitch as a matter of fact. Not me, never did i say or label herself as a bitch even though she herself did kinda admit that.
I did all i can, things that i wouldnt even think i'm capable of doing, things i wouldnt know i can actually allowing it to happen to me, and things that i could even be able to tolerate to such a dramatic extend. In fact, to sum it up, i went to the limit, or should i say over the limit.


Revenge wasnt on my mind then when things happen, unlike some guys out there might have done, i didnt want it and i didnt do it because it wouldnt help the situation anyway and to the matter of fact that she was afterall the person i used to love most.


Did i ever say bad things behind her back? Nope, it was the truth and nothing but the truth. Never scold foul language at her for all the things that she did to me, never hit her, never blame her even when she go to such an extend. My goodness and now she seems like she wanna make me the biggest culprit of the whole damm thing? and making me sound like a damm sore loser?
Does feeling dissapointed and sick of the whole dramatic incident make u such a guilty person! i dont wanna make myself an angel out of this whole thingy because i know i'm not, and i must admit i did wrong things in the past before, however i dont like the feeling of being blame for something that i didnt do.


Oh well, i guess it's enough, dont wanna think too much anyway. It's funnie thinking such a person like her could actually become like that.... oh well..... enough, i reallie think i should stop.
I should look forward to my future rather than about my past. Anyway I'm thankful to god that i have found such a lovely person now, hope that i wouldnt need to experience this whole damm sour incident again. It just make me feel YUCKS! PUKES!


To my dearie now.....
This is for you..........


Because of you - 98 degree


* You're my sunshine after the rain, You're the cure against my fear and my pain

Know how dearie feeling currently...... insecure feeling that is... well who is to blame her for her three close frn, close click all broke off with their relationship. Totally understand wat she is going through right now. Share the same sentiments with her abt relationship.

Looking at my past, how fragile can a relationship goes, it can be so solid but the next moment it can be so weak. Never thought a love like this could turn out sooo sour. oh well tatoos of my name, joint account for buying house, etc all did surface before but i just dont buy those ideas because i always look at things at a different angle and always consider the "what if" Never did i thought of leaving her though we did quarrel a few times and things just got over heated, Many thought we gonna make it, afterall we been together for very long and were actually thinking of the next phase of our lives, nonetheless the "what if" did materalise anyway. Thank god, i keep rejecting the idea of her tatoo-ing my name on herself and of cos the money issue regarding about saving together to buy a house, I saw with my very own eyes how many couples fallen out because of money issues, and this to me is ridiculous. Luckily i make the right step and i didnt suffer any after-effect from all those things.
I made the choice of letting go, i thought loving someone doesnt mean that you need to have him or her. Oh well only not too long ago that i come to realise what she had done to me, i realise she doesnt deserve e love that i use to give her. It just make me sick! Never thought someone like her would change to become someone else. I hope she dont suffer the consequences of her action. I dont hate her for the things she did to me, i'm just plain dissapointed and it make me real disgusted and prolly it's a karma thingy for me because i did wrong things before. Anyway it just make me puke lah...... Everything happen for a reason. It's a cause and effect thingy, Action would follow by a reaction, and that reaction would follow by an action, and it just keep going round and round.

Good riddance to her cause i'm happy with my current one. Now, i feel like i'm reborn, and i looking forward with my current relationship. Sometimes in life, there always such things call "silver lining". There a saying "Don't Cry because it ends, Smiles because it happen" Deep meaning, lots of different angle to look at it. If you dont learn to let go you will never able to recieve.

I'm quite skeptical abt relationship, was badly affected so just take it one day as it is, nonetheless i think dearie also suffer the same effect as me, so it just make us so perfect, understanding each other so much. She just plain worried that one day things might change and turn sour, and of cos i feels for her because i'm just as worried as her. sometimes i feel that me and her just think the same way, it is either i'm just as childish as her or she is just as mature as me! i mean in terms of relationship. I'm glad that I've found her. I just plain love the way she love me. I thank god that she appears in my life, somehow or rather there a sequences of events that lead us to be together, somehow or rather it seems to be plan of. Sorry i cant explain, as i say everything happen for a reason, We just have to learn from our past mistakes and be a better us that kind.

I dont know what my future lies, but i very comfortable with you dearie, as i say it so many times before, I just treasue every moment spend with you! I LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME!

Wake up early in the morning to get ready for the last day of my Uni life! yeah! It's the last project presentation on my part. Now that i'm done with it, i can rightly declare that everything is over! I just have to wait patiently for my result and hopefull everything turn out well, and i will recieve my Honours degree cert in Nov 05 as scheduled =)

My presentation wasnt tt smooth, no laptop for my presentation, i didnt own a laptop and thought i might have my classmate laptop or even able to loan one of the laptop from the sch to use, however seems like Mr Murphy is right, his famous murphy law is back to hit me! Nonetheless just go ahead and present without the aid of presentation slide though, Luckily the lecturer like what he hear, and he's kinda impress at the way i presented, though i know that there is still room for improvement, he said it was a very good presentation nonetheless. Wow! Wat a remark! That's to me was good enough and it just make my day! Having a lecturer to praise me on my last presentation , my last day as a undergraduate just make the whole journey of my degree course ending in such a sweet high note!

After that went to collect my dad's car. It was ready for collection after 4 days of repair. Was happy to see the current state of the car, memories of the car accident just keep flashing across my mind and i thank god i'm still alive and the car didnt sent to a place for scrapping. After that went to tyre shop and get the car tyre change. My goodness, after seeing the state of the car tyre, i know exactly what the main reason for me losing control of the whole damm car! One of the side tyre was totally "botak", wah piangz! I didnt know how badly worn out the car tires were. Now, this explain exactly the reason why my car skided, hey i aint pushing the blame but the fact is that with one tire "botak" and the the rest of the tires wasnt in reallie good shape, it just not suited to be drove in a wet condition! Damm it, the accident could have been avioded, i shouldnt have drove at a speed i'm normally would have drive while approaching the bend because the tires just werent ready on that slippery road! argh! Sucks!!! Well the accident already happen, nonetheless still wanna thank god that i'm still alive and be able to sit right here in front of my comp typing this out! Somehow or rather i think the "fu" that i got from Japan to protect our family having a safe journey while driving seems to work and prolly it might just be the act of god to send me a msg that i shouldnt be driving so fast on rainy days while approaching a bend. I just thank god that i'm safe and sound to be able to still see my parents, my loved ones ard and that includes you dearie =)

Gonna head to my bed for some much needed rest. Havent been reallie resting well this past few days. Gonna take a nap now ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

* Bed bed here i comeeeeeee.............

Happy New Year 2005 !

When the clock struck twelve, screams and cheers were heard along Orchard road and of cos without the lack of that terrible "spraying session"
Not those friendly handshake gesture wishing everyone Happy New Year but those sticky, foamy spraying all over the place, your body, your eyes, ears, ......

It was a happy occasion! It's a brand new year! Not that i mind a single bit of the fun surrounding Orchard road, i just hate it when somebody just spray in yr eyes! I hate it when a group of guys just go over and spray gals, it's a joyous occasion, not an occasion to disturb gals and get to know gals tt kind..... Those ah beng just seems to like this kind of ways to "tackle" unknown gals on the streets. Have fun yes, but not the way of having a whole group of ppl coming towards a gal and spraying her face, eyes, ears...... no wonder there are reports that some gals got molested during Christmas and New year celebration. I see it with my own eyes a whole group of guys "arming" with one spray cans on each of their hand surrounding a few gals and spray at them. While some knows their limits, and some dont always taget gals, they target those less equip or armed ppl. It seems more like a spraying war than a happy occasion celebrating the born of a new year.
I'm not exactly a racist, but i couldnt stand those indians, blangahs, ah nei, wat ever names you have for them..... I'm not too sure whether they are locals or not, prolly some of thems are not, They are a bunch of idiots! They onli target gals, ladies, in short, female species. They just aim at the eyes, I feel like whacking some of those indians! Freaking irritating, They are having fun just by spraying at the gals and make them scream and god knows prolly just touch abit when their eyes are covered with foams. Those indians doesnt look local to me, and to me thats crazy, if they are not local which means they are prolly from india, sri lanka and they jolly well know that their native country are hit hard by the tsunami, and they still have the mood to get out of the streets and have fun disturbing gals. Yes they didnt spray on guys, they just spray gals! female species!
I got soooo worked up that i nearly fight with one of those indians, freaking moron, they got nothing to do than keep disturbing my dearie....... f**king idiots! If not because i know that it was suppose to be a happy/joyous occasion on the back of my mind, i would have just throw a punch on those "black shit"!

Came home relatively late, didnt get enough sleep and off i go to help my dad with his work the next day, nothing special happen, passing by early morning on the streets of orchard road, where it was quite clean compare to the day before drastic dirty condition. It just show the efficiency of our cleaners! They reallie did a great job in keeping Singapore clean! *Salutes!
I wanted to go home and rest earlier and so i was driving at a little faster speed, it wasnt raining, however it did rain a moments ago and the road was kinda slippery, so when approaching a sharp bend and I executing my cornering tt time, my car just skided and i lost control of the whole damm car - the car just goes 180 degree to the right then 180 degree to the left and then right and then left and BANG! My car crash! I wasnt dazed or watsoever, my reaction was that this time i'm in deep shit!!! the doors just got stuck and i just couldnt come out of the whole car, i have to reallie hit it real hard in order to push open the door, and now that i manage to open the door, i just couldnt close it..... my gosh! I couldnt believe it! Throughout my 4 years plus of driving, i never met any accident, and my first one was on 1st of jan 2005 and what a day to have a car accident! and what a way to start my 2005! I think maybe i should go and attend advance driving course (a course you need to take before you can go for car racing on a circuit) Prolly i just need to know some of the techniques, so next time if ever my car skided, i would know how to react.
I think i'm kinda traumatise by this whole incident, till now, whenever i drive and approaching a bend, i would go super slow, not the usual me that is....... oh well.... luckily i'm safe, but the repair cost gonna cost quite a big sum. I thank my fourth uncle for sponsoring me $1000. I was so touch and sooo paiseh.... hiaz...
apologies to my dad too, caused it is his car and because of the accident created lots of unnecessary inconvience for him.
The accident could have been far worse, i thank god that i'm still alive and no major injury inflicted to me. Now i would reallie drive with care, it's gonna be along time before i would start driving recklessly again........ wait a min, i dont think i will ever drive recklessly again.

My new year resoultion!
* To grow taller! yes ... for many years, it never change! hahahahah
* To earn more money! yes tones and tones of money


Happy New Year to all my friends! Have a wonderful 2005!

Tsunami - The nature force

Forget about the latest gadget in town, forget about what's hot and what's not for fashion! The "rejected" feeling of not having one of the latest gadget, following the latest fashion trend is nothing compared to the massive destruction caused by mother nature. Thousands of lives were lost by the recent horrendus Tsunami.

What is Life? Have anyone wonder? Didnt i mention i'm going to post something about my thoughts on Life and Death, didnt know that a few days later, thousands of lives are being swept away just in a couple of hours.

*Why are we born?
*Who made our existence?
*What is the purpose in us living?
*What is life after Death? Is there any in the first place?
*Where will we be after we die? Dont tell me is either Heaven or Hell, because do u think it reallie exist ? If there is life after death, what happen to those Dinosaurs that once rule the earth, what happen to those animals that dies, wouldnt they be experiencing life after death too........

I dont wanna ask any more qns, the thought of it just me scared, just make me wanna tears, it is not death that is scary, it is the thought of leaving yr loved one behind, the things you love to do (be it sports or whatever passion you have), imagine leaving behind all yr fav CDs, electronic gadget, yr soft toys, etc..... Not knowing where the hell you would go, what life would be in the year 2100 or 2200 ...... we cant live that long to see the world, we cant do this , we cant do that, then where will we be in yr 2100 or 2200? The thought of dissapearing forever in the faces of earth just scares me, Then the qns of where are we here and where will we be after death always sent shiver down my spine...... Hundreds and Thousands of qns about life and death always ringing in my head, and i could only beg with mercy to my brain not to think about all these.

I dont mind seeing ghost, though we have been taught that they are the spirits that would do more harm than good to you. I heard stories of ppl being possess by evil spirits, how true would that be? Is it just a make-up stories or was it real cases, many a times we always scare ourselves out of nothing......... When we are young, how many kids dare to walk alone in the dark... Why are we just sooooo afraid to walk in the dark, is it because our parents or whoever always say there are ghost ard and some badies ard dark places. Our mind are just being tuned by our parents or our seniors that whenever we are alone in the dark, we will shiver in fear.

Going back to those stone ages days where human races dont even know how to speak, know nothing about electricity, they faces the dark once the night falls, and with onli moonlight to fall on if there ever need to see something...... Do u think they are worried of ghosts?

People always say we'll become ghost after we die, or whatever kind of things based on the stories you heard since young..... i dont mind seeing a ghost because if there is such things as ghost or ppl possess by spirits, then prolly i would be contented because i would know that i would still live after i die, there is still life after death tt is. I know i got weird thinking, but that is me, cause the thought of dissapearing completely and leaving behind yr loved ones and yr beloved stuffs just scared the shit out of me........

Ok, enough of my it, i dont wanna think anymore..........

The recent Tsunami attack just reinforce that statement or , "Life is fragile" , "Life is just like a Candle"
Buildings and roads that takes years to build, Families that takes decades to build up are just literally wash away by that massive Tsuanmi within hours. One might think that some part of those villagers might blame the god for taking aways the lives of the beloved kins, they would probably blame the "sea god" or whatever god they might think of or being mention by their ancestors............... whatever the case, shant argue whether is it god's will or just the cause of that destructive earthquakes

Let's have a moment of silent for those that had perish in that terrible Tsunami

Anyway i'll be away for two days, just in time for the 2005 countdown, it's the time where most would be scared to travel by the sea, but for me, i'm just going against the odds by travelling using ship route.

Just hope that i will have a safe trip. =)

Happy advance 2005 to all my friends!

Merry X'mas Everyone! Urm... though it's kinda late, however there a saying "Better Late than Never"

Well was quite busy for the past few days, didnt reallie have the time to sit down in front of the comp to blog, was busy driving my relatives ard this christmas and not forgeting spending precious time with my dearie!

It was a special christmas this year, no happening stuffs, just me and her... and i think sometimes it is better to leave the whole world for a while to be with yr loved one. That's exactly what i did.

Christmas Eve
Didnt do much, just me and dearie out shopping, places were flooded with people! gosh! i hate crowds! yea i reallie hate it! I just cant walk, shop with peace, and with tt sickening feeling of squeezing through the crowds! oh gosh! yucks, pukes!

Got a christmas gift from dearie...... it's a wallet !!! Sweet! Real nice...... The way she wrap the gift, ohh..... nice wrapper, nice wrapping skills, the best thing is the gift itself! Branded Wallet, bet it cost her quite a fair bit, She bought me something that i would have to think thrice or countless time before buying. And to think that she dont mind parting away her precious money to get me something sooo expensive when she's not even working! Gosh, dont want her to go into financial crisis bcos of this gift, but it's happening soon anyway.......

*looking at my precious wallet now! Sweet! =)

Got her a pressie too, she badly need a watch and i guess it's the perfect christmas pressie for her! =) It's the latest design, and it's not even official launch yet till Feb 05 and currently there's only 1 piece of tt design at 2 outlet in Singapore and since i get 1 for her that would mean there's left onli one in the whole wide singapore, which also means either 1 more person or none will have exactly the same watch as her till the official launch date! ok at least tt wat the salesgirl say. Nonetheless such a special girl she is definately deserve a special gift that i'm giving her. Merry X'mas dearie! =)


Christmas Day
The moment the clock struck twelve! Ho ho ho! Dearie just beside me! Tt's nice! keke~ It's always great feeling when your loved one just beside you on this joyous occasion. =) grinz
Was out with my relatives that's from overseas, since they came all the way here, it onli make sense for me to bring them ard, and dearie was there tagging along too....... it's just feel nice having her accompanying me.

Boxing Day
Was out shopping with my relatives again, and this time it was an improptu decision that dearie was out with me again. hahahah~ Guess she cant even not see me for one day! hahahah.... i'm just kidding! =P

My sis is off to Batam enjoying herself with my relatives! Well I'll be joining her soon when i settle my stuffs, and then will head back to Singapore for the YR 2005 Countdown!!! =)

6 more days to year 2005!!!
Very very fast it's gonna be the end of yr 2004, i can still remember soooo clearly about saying out loud my yr 2004 resolution on 1 jan 2004..... oh well... times reallie flies, and now i gonna have my 2005 resolution ready to be said!

I hope i will have a wonderful year ahead! as Yr 2005 is my year!! cos it's the chickie chickie year! hahahaha....

Just in case i dont blog tt often......... to all my friends, Best wishes for Yr 2005!!! Cheers!

Ho Ho Ho ...... Santas Clause is Coming to town......

Just 2 more days before Christmas...... Been walking ard lately and saw sooo many shops putting up e "On Sale" signboard...... argh! no money man! if not i will be one of the many enjoying myself with discount products. =P

Still got no plans for Christmas! hahahah... dunno where to go, dunno wat to do........... Well dont have a habit of celebrating Christmas though.

Meeting Dearie later to watch the "Kung Fu' Movie, i believe i will have a good time laughing away while watching that show, Stephen Chow never fail to make me laugh in his show. =) *grinz

Office is having Christmas celebration later during lunch time, i got my pressie ready, no fanciful pressie, just cheap cheap one, hehe.....

* I want lots of pressie for my Christmas!!! =p

Hi Guys. i'm back ! I better be back before you guys get sick and tired of reading the same entry for days! =) and of cos before spiders start crawling all over my bloggie site. =p

Nothing much happen during the past few days, been busy with one stuffs a couple of days ago, and that is to get my Final Year Project done!~ Finally complete it on 18 dec! Phew~ Hopefully nothing go wrong and i will graduate with a Degree!! Complete a hons degree at the age of 23, and considering i'm a guy that gone tru national service... hmmm.... not a bad achievement... hahaha.... *peace
Going to be Harry Potter as plan next year nov, when i recieve tt piece of paper, many regards as a Degree cert, and without it, many companies would just slam their door hard on yr face. Ouch! tt's the cruelity in life!

Spend the past few days chilling out with dear..... yeah.... i think abit no life ... just me and her... however i just like it this way... and she doesnt seems to mind a single bit. Went carrefour tt day with my parents, she can just click with my family just like tt...... I dont think i can click with ppl the way she does it. =)

Christmas is coming..... *kelv sing........ Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way................ Joy to the world, the lord has come....... Last christmas i give you my heart, the very next day you give it away, this year to save me from tears, i give it to someone special.......................

okok...... enuff of singing.... Christmas is coming, and yet i dont know wat to do... oh well.. normally i dont have a habit of celebrating christmas.... it's just in me. Nonetheless gonna spend it with someone special this year...... with or without doing anything , it doesnt matter ... as long as i'm with her..... everything, anything is fine.......

*smile =)

Dearie is coming back today! wooohoooo..... ; )

Two more days before my project submission, and i still havent finish yet..... kan cheong spider liaoz.... just ask for extension and couldnt get it.....ohh no.... hiaz....... just have to try and finish it....shall hope for the best..... i believe i can do it

"Just Do It" yeah.... hahahahah

Ytd was my cousin big day..... was busy sending my relatives here and there..... been reflecting alot ytd, seeing alot of my cousin that are younger than me growing up..... and its kinda scary.... cos this means i'm growing old..... hiaz... well tt's life isnt it. I still can remember when i was 8years old, i wish i didnt have to grow any older.... I dont like the idea of growing old and then die..... So much thought went tru my young mind then and it is still pretty much the same now. Gosh! time reallie flies! Shant be too melancholic..... will put some thoughts on life and death next time... for now i need to spend more time on my project rather than my blog! hahahah....

oh well.... just too happy that dearie is coming back.....
She's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back............ did i mention that she's coming back... oh yes.... dearie coming home, she is coming back!

=) *big grinz

It's tuesday !!! two more days, dearie will be back! wooohoo... okok... cool it kelvin cool it... you are crazy..... yes i am, I miss her like crazy =)

It is also 4 more days before my project dateline!!! argh! die! Kinda half way tru... havent been reallie going full force in completing it, i guess i always reward myself for the effort i put in my project. Sometimes over rewarding! heehee~ Basically it is like work for 2 to 3 hour straight, then i will play game, relax, listen music... do watever stuffs other than project for more than same amount of time i put in my project... guilty guilty =P

So far this week has been good, missing her wasnt as bad as i first thought cause we thought we not going to talk for the longest time, luckily thanks to the greatest invention on earth, that invention we call cellphone, or handphone as we commonly know. Dont know whether Hp bills gonna shoot up or not. Well.... its doesnt reallie matter as long as i know she is doing fine over there, and she'll be returning like in two days time! =)
I'm happy because i can save on overseas call and secondly i can see her... well the latter will be the more exact reason though =)

Tml is my cousin big day, yes it is his wedding!!! Wish him blissful marriage. =)
This also means that its gonna be a busy day for me as well, as i have to chauffer my relatives ard..... FOC chauffer leh.... wah piangz..... oh well it's a joyous occasion so it doesnt reallie matter =)
Time reallie flies, still can vivdly remember the days where i use to play with my cousin, and tml he is gonna get married (as in chinese customary), and prob few years down the road he will become a father. Without me carefully thinking, i'm gonna reach mid twenties pretty soon... oh gosh..... that's super fast! The way time flies reallie scare me...... Responsibility always comes together with age. The older you are, the more responsibility you would be expected to shoulder...... gosh ... i havent have enough fun yet... oh well who would say they have had enough fun. I miss the good old carefree days where i dont even need to care about money, work, blah blah blah.....
It is way much better to be a child. Sometimes with the amount of stress, pressure, responsibility you have, you just feel like hey! i need to take a break and catch my breath! phew!

Well.... that's the cruel fact of life b'cos time and tide wait for no man! Now i just have to look forward and miss all those good old days =)
Hope year 2005 would be a wonderful year for me!!!

Ok gonna catch the last episode of "My mighty in-laws" It's gonna be real exciting!!! After that shall head back to my project.....

*counting down the no. of days..... it's just another 2 more days....... =)

It's Sunday!!! Times reallie fast.... we approaching to the end of yr 2004 pretty soon..... Alot of things happen this year... Ups and down but i thank god cos i believe i gonna have a good closing end for my 2004 yr. =)

Those that know me and quite close to me will know exactly what happen to me during my low key period this year..... I thank those who stood by me during that period of time.... and i'm soo happy that i have found somebody special that would stand by me forever.....

She may not be the prettiet woman i ever know.... She may not be good in alot of things but to me she is someone special....
*She is sweet, real sweet
*She show me the meaning of love that i use to find it sooo difficult to trust just months ago

LOVE is a strong word.... and i dont say LOVE to anyone.... I have my own sets of LOVE value, i have my own defination of LOVE, LOVE is a word i would use it sacredly.... I onli say it to two woman in my life b4... however she gonna be the third woman that i will gonna say it. I believe she deserve every single alphabet of LOVE... she deserve every single meaning of this word LOVE from me.

Dear, you know how much u mean to me... This song is for you.....

Say'n I LOVE YOU - Moffats

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true
I may not be the best
Looking guy you ever knew
But I can show you love
That will always be true
And when your skies turn grey
My love will guide the way
And if these words that I hold
Could only be told

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

_____________________________________________________________________________________


She is out of town, going genting for holiday... i wish that she will enjoy herself..... =)

I just left a week before i have to submit my project up... this coming week gonna be very busy ... with wed gonna be big day for my cousin cos it gonna be his wedding!!! Shall not spend sooo much time on my blog lioaz... gonna head back to my project.... I need time... plenty of time.....

*Off to my project now....
*I MISS HER =)

My dad got his cab on the day same as dear dear bday.... that's to me is soooo conincident yeah... =) Well so far it has been good for daddy so far.... i wish him good business =)

Was out with dear celebrating her bday ..... think i didnt reallie do a great job.... alot of impromptu decision, nonetheless hope she enjoyed herself =) Well just love the times we share together...... it is just plain sweet!

I got myself a brand new nike slipper! hahaha.... did i mention before i onli wear nike slipper.... oh well i'm just abit nike craze.... well dont care lah.... i "Just Do It" hahahaha

I havent start on my project yet... argh! simply no mood... i will start tonight... yap.. definately tonight! I have to submit the project if not i cant complete my degree course and it would mean i wasted two years studying for tt stupid paper call Degree in accounting and finance. Sometimes i wonder do i reallie need to go tru shit and money to get that piece of paper... afterall it is seriously a peice of paper..... oh well... shouldnt complain so much since i'm very very close to the finishing line..... Gambatte yo!!!

well been out with dear every single day from the day we got together... i dont know whether it is good or bad.... but i just miss spending time with her but at the same time i got my own stuffs to juggle.... guess it is what we always say, we need time management and setting priorities yeah.... hahaha

Well it;s gonna rain soon now... dark clouds over the sky... well just hope that it dont rain while i'm coaching later.....

Christmas approaching... and i dont have enough money to spend during this holiday.... argh.. financial crisis for me...... bleahz.... nonetheless hope i can see money fall from the sky soon......

*staring at the sky now...........

My daddy and sis are back !!! I'm free from the responsiblity that i was shouldering for the past few days! Phew!

Yup as my sixth sense predicted correctly, i got my pressie from dad.... nice nice.... =)

Today is dear's birthday............. Happy birthday dear! =)

My dad is going to collect his taxi today !!! oh wat a day yeah.... 0812... This number sure is special...... quick must buy 4D ... muahahhahhaha

Ok is lunch time.... i'm hungry..... Food........ i'm coming for you!!!!........... yum yum yum yum...

It been 3 days since i last blog anything.... well... apologies for that... i have been a filial son all these while. Has been helping my dad with his business while he is enjoying himself over at Thailand with my sis.... Talk about fairness yeah.... hahahahahahaha

Well since the day i finish my exam till now ... i havent even touch my project yet... ohh guilty guilty but at least i manage to borrow some books to start on my project.

These few days have been kinda a routine for me... wake up 6 plus in the morning go work (as in my dad business) then do this do that as he has ask me to do.... blah blah blah.... And at the end of the day i will sleep like around 2am in the morning... so which means i onli been getting 4hrs of sleep for the pass three days.... i wanna faint soon... my eyes kinda puffy now... Dont know whether i look like puffy fish or not... wwaaahhahaha....

And for the past few days i have been meeting dear too.... ohh... dont know wat going to happen if we dont meet each other for few days... well.. guess it will happen pretty soon cause i dont have sooo much luxury of a time to spare and neither has her too.... =p

She is a sweet lovely lady.... did anyone know that she spend soooo much time and effort on creating, decorating, fixing a blogsite just for the both of us..... omg! Tell me if she sweet or not.....=)

And it was just 2 days ago that she told me i am rank no.1 in her life! Am i really that good to be somebody no. 1 in their life? oh well..... to her i am... and i am real honoured. =)

It's tuesday today and tml would be dearie bday!!! and i havent got her a present yet.... gosh! any idea anyone???? (Within my budget pls ah...) =p

Tonight is the night my dad and sis are coming back!!!! Hoooray!!!!! I can sense they gonna bring back alot of present for me.... My sixth sense normally dont fail me! hahahahaha....

*prezzie prezzie........ =) BIG BIG GRINZ ... hehe~

EXAM OVER!!!! Hoooray!!!! It feel sooo good... yeah... so damm good! Was in happy mode for the past two days or so.... Just wanna relak my mind, my brain after working so 'hard' for my exam. I think i've no more brain juice left lioaz..... =p

Thursday paper was good, at least i know how to do..... however i got soo many info to write, i dont know how to arrange it in nicely order....hahah... and in the end..... dont reallie have time to finish it properly.... i guess i always write grandfather story.... hiaz... well.. dont think soo much... at least it is definately better than the tuesday paper.... and i can rightly annouce i gonna graduate from my degree soon ............ wooooooohhhhhaaaaaaa........

I nearly scream! when the invigilator say "ok, times up, stop writing"..... i'm not trying to scream or shout at him, but the fact is that my exams are over... yeah it is all over... finally over.... my last degree exam paper is over!!!

I feel like celebrating until i realise hey...i still have a project need to be submitted on this month 18 before i can duly say i have complete my degree course (of course that is that i got no supp paper or watsoever) I was like... alamak! But hack it... gonna play first.... i still left a jolly 14 days to work on my project.... at least it is a project .... i also believe project is easier than exam.... urm.... i hope this belief still hold on... ok at least till i submit my project on the 18. =p

Went out with Jo after my exam.... she was late and yet she still dare to come out with the joanne rule of punctuality... omg... can faints ................ Went to catch the show ... "without a paddle" quite a nice show.. was laffing alot in the movie... The show was nice, but the things that happen in the show was even nicer....... *shant say what actually happen in the show... *grinz
muaaaahahahahahahahahahah

After the show, was walking aimlessly again.... we always do tt, however we kinda enjoy it... ok probably we just enjoying each other company and not the walking aimlessly part... cause after walking sooo long, my leg and back hurts ....

Friday, sent my sis and dad off to Thailand... Sawadee-kup .......... my sis is having competition over there... how i hope i can join her.... i mean i just wanna go overseas.... =) however i cant.. cos i have to help my dad on his business since he's following sis over ... They better buy something good for me when they come back..... hahahahah... just kidding...=p

Alright its time to sleep! Need to catch some rest.... very very tired..... to that someone special that has enter my life... i miss you....... *poof*

Hasnt been a great day today! So damm bloody weird... Woke up today and manage to catch the bus to go to exam venue... wasted 10mins to try to clarify with them to get my seats... why cant they have a proper allocation, soo many miscommunication, idiots man! It's already 10.10am on the clock, take a look at my exam qns... feel like walking out immediately, this is madness.... spend close to half an hour to decide which qns should i attempt, and in the end onli manage to complete 2 out of 3qns.. SHIT! Was quite tired after the exam cos i studied till quite late the day before... tout i can go home and sleep but was ask to do some stuffs.... argh.. didnt rest and of i go for coaching... miss my bus the moment i reach there.... waited and waited and it seems like ages and the bus still insist on not coming, well took another bus instead and then try to change bus later at the other bus stop, and not long after i alight at the bus-stop, the bus i suppose to take came, wah piangz... why cant the bus just come 2mins earlier just now.... Because of waiting for tt stupid bus i was late for coaching.... Then when i finish coaching was about to leave tt time, it rain! Gosh.... wait until the rain stop and then proceed to the bus stop to take bus and go home, and when i ran towards the bus stop the moment i saw the bus, the bloody female bus driver just dont wanna stop for me, and in the end i have to wait soo damm long again for the bus to come! Idiots! Everything didnt seem to go smoothly for me today especially the EXAM TODAY!!! argh!! I wonder did i offended anybody and being cast a spell or wat! Argh! Hope tml will be a better day! Hopefully my thur would not be the same as today! Thursday gonna be the last day of my exam! Hope whatever i study will come out!
*Pray Hard!!!

Anyway Thanks Jo for being sooo sweet, thanks for that lovely sms, you did make me smile! Thanks

Alright time to head back to my notes! Last paper! Hang on there!!!!

*Studying Mode

So fast its the last day of the month November. This also means that i'm going to have 1 more exam before becoming a free man. Oh well it was just last week that the thought of having exam would sent cold vibe to my skin, and now i'm going to finish my exam pretty soon. Times reallie flies!

Today paper just sucks! and i reallie mean suck big time!!!! Argh! Frustration, agony, whatever negative aspect of feeling will be associated with me right after i finish my paper, or in fact while sitting for the paper. Up to this point in time i am still FRUSTRATED, ANGRY, FURIOUS, MAD!!!!

I just couldnt do a bloody single qns! Yes not even a SINGLE Qns !!! This is the worst paper i ever take in my whole student life! It was drastic contrast to all the papers that i have took previous week. I have confidence abt the result or the marks i going to get for all my previous paper. Nothing of this sort can be said to this paper, probably the outcome that i'm most confident of is that i'm going to FAIL, and i mean FAIL BIG TIME!!! ARGH!!!
I'm absolutely gutted! The papers is upon 300 marks (3qns 100 marks each) and i only manage to do 2 qns, and u guys know that i dont even know to ans any one of the qns. I do it for the sake of doing it! I reallie wish i didnt have to sit for this paper!!! I feel like walking out of the exam venue, but the saddest truth is i'm already there... leave and i would get 0 marks, so i decided to give it a shot even though i aint know shit abt any of the qns!!! To make matter worse, it is all calculation based qns... it is either u know or u dont know, there is nothing in between, it is not like those kind of marketing or management paper where u can bluff yr way through and hope for the best that kind! Oh well.... i'm dead! i'm in deep shit! would reallie have to pray very hard in order to get at least a 25%.... yup u get me right... that would mean 75marks upon 300marks! Gosh! That's the minimum criteria i have to obtain before any thoughts of having an honours degree and i havent even consider other factors yet!!! gosh ! This paper is terrible... i should have just take it last semester. Even if i took it while i was sick i think i could still gather a score higher than what i'm goin to get today. It's not that i'm pessimistic or what, it is just the cruel fact of the bloody truth! I aint know how to do a single qns!!!! I aint know shit man!!!! Ok the problem is not because i didnt study, if i didnt study then it is fair enough, but the blooy problem is that the topics that is being tested is not being covered with me last semester!!! I bet they did some correction over what topic is going to be tested and what is not for this subject for the current batch of student and not me!!! And i'm the bloody kuku from my own batch (previous batch) sitting for that bloody exam paper! Tell me abt it! I know nuts what is going on for the current batch of student! and to be tested on the topic that they study and not mine! This is ridiculous! Oh gosh! can somebody pls save me! I need the marks! i badly need the marks! I do not want the result for this paper to spoil all my previous good mark i obtain , the effort i put in for all my previous papers! I do not want at the end of the day i didnt meet the first criteria for a honours degree because of this bloody stupid idiotic reason! I'm going mad!! Real mad! and to think that i still have one more paper to go! I just have no mood to carry on and to add salt to my wound, the next paper for me is also last semester paper, and i beginning to wonder whether will it be the same topics that i did covered to be tested in this coming paper! I'm going crazy! This is madness! .... MADNESS !!!

安靜 - 周杰倫 ( An Jing - Jay Chou )

I love this song soo much.... The lyrics is sooo meaningful.....and it says exactly what i was feeling the other time..... oh god! why am i feeling nostalgic again...... argh.....

安靜 - 周杰倫

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
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An Jing - Jay Chou

Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself clear
I know and I'm sure
You don't regret
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
You being with me was in the past
I hope he loves you more than I do
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

You want me to say it, but it is awkward
I don't even want to break up
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much
I'll still be fine
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
I really don't have the ability
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you so much

I'm one big culprit of not studying... just aint no mood.... my friends are all celebrating the completion of their degree where i'm left to complete another 2 more papers! Argh! Oh well Exam coming on Tue... and i have to do something abt it... i have oredi wasted two days as i didnt even touch my notes. I needed somebody to kick my ass and scream my head off a little.... oh well.. nvm...i shall find some self-motivational factors!

Today is Sunday, and it's a perfect day to study.... *yah damm right! oh well..... i going to have my whole day preparing for my exam..... I shall look forward to the day 2 Dec where i will duly complete all my exam ! Yeah! But in the meantime i gonna slog like an idiotic person..... and i dont like this kind of feeling....

Ytd was Jay concert.... heard from Jo is a super duper concert... and i'm jealous.... hahaha.... oh well... some of his songs are real nice and the meaning for certain songs are really very meaningful... okie, shant elaborate what kind of connection between me and his few certain songs.... just dont wanna feel nostalgic yeah.......

I'm going to head back to my notes.... i needed to... i being force to... cos i dont have a choice and i dont have much time left either.........

*Switch to Studying mode!

Today was my second paper and i couldnt finish in time! argh! Oh well Second paper for me but for my classmate it was their last ! Argh! After the paper, there was like soo much noise... noise of celebration... I'm jealous! freaking jealous!!!
Tml still got paper! argh! gonna head back to my notes soon... just no mood to study ... sianz....

Just finish watching "ye man qing jia" (My Mighty in-law) on channel 8. What a funny show!!! I getting hook on that show! Vincent Ng was super funnie in that show.... Almost all the character in the show are damm funnie too.... Two thumbs up man!!!

Well today episode is abt Rui-en and Vincent... hmm.... the way Rui-en tell Vincent on the things she like abt him.. oh my god.... thats like sound sooo damm familiar ! hahahahah
Well it was reallie sweet of her! i mean bascially when u like someone... u reallie like almost every single thing abt tt person lor... basically there is no reason why u like him/her but you know abt what/which things u like abt him/her and if u list it down, it gonna reflect almost pratically everything about him/her. =) grinz
Well just now tt part was reallly kinda bring back memories ... hiaz... sometimes it is just sooo hard to find someone u like and tt someone like u in return too..... =p

okok... shall stop feeling nostalgic and head back to my notes.... i'm soo worried that ppl might mistaken that i'm in a relationship with my notes now since i'm soo damm close with it.... its always me and my notes..... i'm freaking out soon....

Somebody saves me...................

*i'm uttering rubbish ... pardon me pls..... *poof*

Finally i decided to upload one of my all time fav song...... This is also a song where my nick came from..... "selfestem" .... I'm in a punk-rock mood now..... so here Selfesteem by offspring .. take it away.... =)


*Kelv sing... ahhemm.... la la lala la la la la lala.....

Selfesteem - Offspring

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert

Now I know I'm being used
That's ok because I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self-esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so

When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care, Right?

Now I'll relate this a little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem

Recieved a letter from the Navy asking me to go back for a seminar in full uniform! Argh! It's coming.... i can sense it coming..... my reservist... my national service liability ....argh! Well wat a waste of time! A full day listening to all those craps that i couldnt find at least a bit interesting! I bet they are preparing me for all those reservist shit! Leave me alone man... Not that i'm dont love the country or what, but i just think it's gonna take away the fun of being a common people (civilians) and i think i could have use the time to do something better, more meaningful things. And to think that i receive this piece of news just in the midst of my exam.... i wonder whether do they really have to give me their very own "morale boosting" treatment in such a timely fashion.

My dad just call me and told me he pass his taxi vocational license! Holy! Congrates Dad! You deserve it! He sounded sooo estatic over the phone that if there is a $100 dollar note lying on the floor, he'll probably miss it......
I bet he is beaming with joy now! He reallie deserve it for i witness the amount of effort he put in before the exam..... The way he studied and prepared for his exam makes me feel so guily over the way i'm currently preparing for my exam now! *ouch!
You can see the amount of desire he wants to get hold of that piece of license from the look of his eyes, the way he behaves..... If u staying under the same roof with him, i can gurantee you can feel it the same way as i do. Now that he passed the exam and getting the license soon, he deserve every single bit of that small piece of card that got the word "Taxi vocational license and his name on it."

Congrates to you, Dad! I love you!

Back to my own life, hahaha.. nothing much..... same shit, different day! Kinda half way tru my revision for my tml paper... pray hard that watever i've tried to study and memorise would come out in tml paper..... =)

I'm heading nowhere now except back to my notes ..... *poof*

Done with my First paper! Phew ! One down and 4 more to go... sweat sweat ....
Should have do better for my first paper... hiaz ... wasted man... I need to Hit 75 marks but i guess i could onli gather a marks that is close to that... booooo man.....

Oh well was down coaching and end up swam quite a bit.... feeling abit tired... and since i onli gathered 5hrs of sleep today, i guess it didnt reallie help ah... okie... i think i need to head back to my notes..... bed? notes? bed? notes? .... ok both i think


*poof*

Another piece of nonsense to destress me... oh well... This kind of survey or quiz or watever names u have for it, their main purpose is to destress a person yeah... so the answer or the result for it are sometimes true, sometimes it is somewhat true, sometimes it is not so true, sometimes it is not very true, sometimes it is not true, sometimes it is totally untrue

Hahahaha.... you are the judge to whether if it is the truth......

so many words of "true" ........... *faints

You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows. You probably never leave home without your cell phone! You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you. You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer. Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.

What Planet Are You From?

It's Monday!!! holy sh*t! Tml the start of my first degree exam... -_-"
*Praying hard

Oh well still got time to do this boh lioaz survey ... ok... take it away

You Are the Loyalist

6 You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal. People find you easy to love and care for. You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises. You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.

What number are you?

I made jo angry a long while ago... oh well wasnt mean to... anyway clear up the air oredi... she noe my intention wasnt to attitude her but something else... guess i get it all so wrong yea....
I hope i'm to her is not an attitude boi ... but a good attitude boi =) *big grinz

I get soo bothered over the fact till i couldnt reallie study... i mean i didnt mean something i didnt mean it.... ok wat am i saying.... i didnt meant to attitude her... and u know if somebody wrong u .. u wldnt feel alright rite... so that's exactly what i'm feeling.... Oh well.... i wouldnt give a damm if tt somebody doesnt mean anything to me lor.... okie... enuff said.

Ok shall head back to my notes.... i need to be good boi remember... hahhaha.... =)

Today is already Friday, just 4 days before the start of my Exam!! Yesh 4 days!! argh!! how fast is that! Gosh! I'm still slowly cultivating to be a hardworking student.... i still cant get into the mood of studying, prolly i'm somehow distracted over certain things.... oh well i'm gonna keep my focus.... =)
i did it once a few months before when things happen, i will do it again... no doubts abt that! =)

Nothing much happen today, just me and my notes and of cos my beloved bed *grinz =) oh well enough of destressing in my blog... gonna head back to my 'lovely' notes....

*Gambatte yo!!!!! Study Study Study!!! =)

Was out with Jo ytd, basically just shop and shop and shop...... Didnt really have an agenda but just wanna get some fresh air... and she was a great gal to hang out with except those poking, pinching, punching, all those P's u can think of =p

Treat her one thai ice tea and guess wat, i drop my very own ice tea and it spill over my berms... oh.. how clumsy can i get... Well my berms and slippers get jealous over the fact tt i treat Jo ice tea i guess, so much so they want a share of my ice tea... argh!

Woke up this morning with blue black on my arms... i guess no need me to say... u guys shld know who the culprit is ah.....

Read a few notes... but still not studying enuff i guess.... i will head back to my notes once i finish Sg idol....

I will study! I doesnt have much choice yea..... =p

Feel so good after a much needed rest. =) It been a long time since i last slept sooo long! ohh... feel so shiok!

My parents are finally back from their holiday! Feel so relieve to see them back.... I miss them! =)

Ytd went out with Jo, before reaching her house, there was quite a big downpour, guess heaven want me to drive carefully and safely ah... ok .. which i did. During the journey, i took out my phone to let her see at her request... ohh bad move, once she got her hand on my phone tt's it... she keep snapping away... i was sooo afraid that my camera lens will just crack lor! =p Reach the destination, the place was bloody crowded... okok.. i mean the carpark is bloody crowded... i have to queue up to enter into the carpark lor.... sometimes i just hate to drive... cos where to park your car can reallie give u a big big headache.....

Watch the show, The forgotton, hmm.. not a bad show. It will keep you suspend on yr seats till the very last moment of the show. The story line was not bad but i think it's kinda dumb and the ending abit too abrupt.... they make the alien soooo powerful.. in that case, they can anytime rule our world wat.... why in the first place waste their time in doing some nonsense experience... oh well... there are a few shudden shock in the show, one of it is the part where a car just suddendly bang into the main actor/actress car....okok...about the movie, i shall be generous, shall give it 3 out of 5 popcorns.

I notice something abt Jo, went ard shopping a little with her... she will just pick up any white or pink stuffs... hahahah... say her a little, i will get poke, slapp on my stomach and shoulders.... Talking abt violent gal... she is definately one .. =p

Right now checking all my bruises and injuries from ytd ... *check check check

Going to have my lunchee now and head back to my notes... i have been in holiday mood for the past 2days, havent touch my notes and feeling so guilty now.... okok....... Notes... i'm coming for you now.....

Selemat Hari Raya!!!

My parents and sis are enjoying themselves over at Batam island, leaving me alone to face the four wall of our house. Oh well, I wasnt feeling too comfortable about being left alone (reason being mention earlier or those who know me will know the reason) before they left, hmm.. how wrong ah... i'm now pretty comfortable... so shiok to have the whole house to myself!!! Great! =) I think i'm real fine!!!

The good thing about having the whole house to myself is that basically i can do whatever i want... blast the music.... sing out loud... do watever nonsense i wanna do.. hahaha.... of cos i do have some control over myself and not becoming some wild animal being let loose tt kind.
The bad thing is ... i need to source for food.... ok eating outside will solve the problem, but i cant do it if let say my family are away for a week or so, with my huge appetite it gonna drain me financially, guess it shld be time to pick up some cookery skills yea...

Was out coaching ytd... was parking my car at my coaching venue then i realise that there is an event going on... took a closer look then i realise it is the event that i was suppose to attend ... i was suppose to watch princess and wx performance... i cant make it bcos i need to fetch my sis from the competition venue and then send my family off for their holiday... yea.. "their" holiday... =p Oh well didnt know it was soo near my coaching place... basically just across a small road that's all... hahaha.. how coincident rite! Haiz... it was sooo near yet sooo far lor.... didnt manage to meet her anyway. =(

I was very surprise to see princess name appearing when my phone ring.... totally didnt expect it... talking abt making my day... she sure did. Though it just a super short conversation at least i know she's doing fine that kind. It been a long time since i last hear her voice and to know that she was having sore throat for close to a week doesnt help too yea... it was a relief to hear her voice.. at least she still sounded ok.. but she do sounded real tired after her performance... guess she was feeling exhausted and her sickness just make her feel even worse.
Take care princess~ =)

Sleep at 2am again and woke up early in the morning... manage to collect notes from adel, been copying and reading some of the notes.... suddendly i find myself soooo studious like tt... hahaha.... oh well....the exam dates are too near to be true, so i gotto start somehow , somewhere....

Prolly gonna catch a movie later..... I need to go out and get some fresh air and of cos at the same time fill up my stomache....

* Food Food where r u ........................... ???

*yawns.... oh well... wat a way to start blogging yeah. =p
Been sleeping late recently, it is so ever often nowadays that i couldnt remember when was the last time i sleep before 2am in the morning. The worst part is i always wake up ard the same time, so which means if i keep sleeping later and later, i would not have enuff rest....i'm accumulating tiredness... oh well.. tt's my own bloody problem right..... *yawns .. feel so tired now.

Later in the afternoon, my lovely sis gonna have her swim competition, after tt she and my parents will be out of town.......... well i'm left alone again..... i need a breather.. i need a holiday... my notes is killing me... okok.. havent been studying, but the thought of reading my notes is killing me, and i just come to realise that i'm in deep shit now as there is not much time left for my revision. Argh!!! frustration !!

I wanna go out have fun, but the notes is pulling me back! I got the luxury of having the whole house to myself, however i think i gonna bore myself down this time round!!! Last time whenever i got the whole house to myself, i would go yea ! cos my gf then would come over and stay and we will be like having our small little house living in our small little world... oh well.. it just bring back memories yea.... thought it was a small steps for our future living togetherness, and we did have a rollin good time, however things happen and things change... and this time round i gonna have to face the four walls all by myself !!!

Enuff of this past nonsense craps... dont wanna get drain thinking abt all those past.... I need my brain space for some other more useful purpose.... i need extra compartment for my notes... argh!!! Notes, exams!!! it killing me!!!

Ok... i think i'm feeling better now.... it's nice to vent my frustration on something... and venting on my blog means good at least i wont go ard venting it on my friends or those ppl that are close to me.

Gotto head back to my notes again..... if i have a punching bag at home.... i feel like punching it now... i need to sweat out all my frustration, i want to scream.... oh shit! what happen to me today...... i'm feeling sooo soooo soo damm frustrated at the moment... it's been a long time since i last feel this way.... it is soooo sudden.. i guess i having PMS.... i wanna scream !!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................................

Happy Deepavali Everyone ........

Oh well tout i could make full use of today to study... how wrong was i, wake up in the morning and got a terrible headache... ouch! Took a short nap in the afternoon before proceed for my swimming coaching.

well luckily i'm feeling better now...... hope i got the mood and my brain is able to function well to study later...

Gonna have my dinner now before i start my slow revision again......


* Can somebody teach me how to have a super powerful memory!!! I need it for my revision!!!

Wake up early today, Head down to TP to join my guys for their morning jogging session..... ahahha.... i feel like a Poly student!!!! Old body with a young heart yeah... hahahahahahh

Oh well..... was great to see the team jelling so well .... i'm very happy.... finally i see team cohesiveness, team supportiveness....ok... in short -team work!- well i'm just plain happy that they are doing things as a team instead of individuals. =)

Having fun playing table-tennis... and i come to a conclusion that i really suck at it! lolx
I think my badminton skill is anytime better man... hahaha...

Oh well, have dinner with mel and jo... so paiseh... cos i didnt know where to eat.... ayiah me hor this person... no preference for food one... as long as got place to eat then i can eat there liaoz... i'm not kidding... basically i'm just a trained rubbish eater....

oh well ... enuff of my nonsense... gonna head back to my notes... i cant even finish one chapter for 2 days... Can somebody pls tell me how efficient am I ! gosh!

So fast it's Tuesday lioaz!!! ahh.... jiu ming ah..... my exam dates are drawing nearer and nearer as time passes by...... *biting nails lioaz =p

Spend my day with my TP swim team ppl, had some fun with them and will be joining them again tml for the morning jogs and some team bonding games after that. =)
Well my TP swimmers are a bunch of great loving ppl...... make me miss my good old days as being a poly student... omg... y do i have to sound sooooo old... =p

Well gonna go and study now... =)

Finally i got hold of a new handphone... and that one is under my wishlist! muahhhahahahah.....

Ok.... enough of my nonsense for the day... me shall go source for my notes..... I need to study!

Monday finally arrives, I'm suppose to start studying today, well currently i'm stuck in my office, doing some of my paperworks.... *yawns...

Early in the morning, come to realise that one of my frn just broke off... hiaz.... tt's sad ... understand all those emotional struggle one person has to go tru, those emotional heartache, emotional dilemma... hiaz... tell me abt it man... i was at that stage not too long ago......Well Time will heal and someone better will come along.... i'm the best testimonial for it! =) *big grinz*

Going to head down for a course at Toa Payoh later and once back home i will start my revision tonight! yeah tonight! Did i just say tonight! ok... i will try..... =p

Just know that i have to fill up my stomach now..... i'm hungry....

*Food... food... where r u ..........................

IT's Family day again!!! heh~ Well was out doing some market shopping with my parents..... They buy sooo many stuffs... maciam like no need money like tt.... wah pianz.... hahahahah

My sis keep bugging me to bring her watch Shark Tale.... well we suppose to catch it on Sat, er.... ok, nvm ... nonetheless will bring her this coming week....... since i promise her i will stand by my promise... =)

Well basically another lazy Sunday... oh well... i just love it this way...... I hope i can stop time....... i cant Nua enough man!!! Tom is monday liaoz... and i reallie gonna study if not reallie no time...... argh!

* I need power.. i need magic power..... i wanna freeze time!
* Casting a spell "minimoniminimo.... Freeze the time!!!! ..................my spell no effect, time still ticking away.... -_-"

Had a late night chat with Jo, didnt know she can reallie talk, or should i say both of us can reallie talk.... if not for me to say it kinda late i think we could have talk throughout the night... yes .. i mean reallie throughout the night......

When was the last time i chatted so long with a gal or a person??....hmmmm.... very very long ago man! At least got 4years! i'm aint kidding... it's reallie very long... i didnt know that i'm capable to talk for soooo long on the phone again..... Well guess both of us reallie can communicate and talk rubbish man! wahahahah...Didnt know she such a sweet lady until ytd.... oh well.... cant stand it that she keep saying herself Holy and innocent... omg! I wanna puke... can someone pls give me a plastic bag.

Nothing much happen today, suppose to catch Shark Tale with princess but she never confirm so guess she busy or wadsoever... nonetheless hope she has an enjoyable day.

Head down to the pool for coaching in the afternoon, the sun was horrendous! However the pool water is aint tt hot/warm....After an hr or so... no more sun and it was so windy... and ohh... the water start to get freezing cold.... wooooo..... cold cold...

Finish coaching, went back to have my dinner and then head down to my cousin chalet..... nothing much there... feel kinda bored... ate some food... and i cant wait to go home! hahahaha... i'm a homely man just in case some of u dont know.... =p

Well tom is sunday!! wooohoo.... and i havent touch my notes yet... bleahz =p super guilty!! okok... i will start this coming monday! i promise!!!

* Notes Notes where r u .........

Dark clouds forming and i'm heading down to TP for coaching later..... Well hope it's not going to rain........ Weather has been like tt for the past 2 weeks or so.... make me sooo tempted to take a nap since the weather is so cool and nice =)

Will be popping champagne later at TP, it was a promise i made to my TP swim team swimmers last week that if tt ChrisyPoo is gonna be out of Sg idol for tt week, i will have a champagne celebration! Didnt know my champagne magic reallie works!!!! lolx..... well since he is out, i shall fulfill my promise. =)

Shall I pick up my notes and read!?!?! *scratch head! =p

I'm Back ~ Back after MIA from my blog for 3 days......... Well alot of stuffs happen but i'm just lazy or just simply no mood to pen down my thoughts, prolly too many things occupying my mind now. Guess what ! I havent even start my revision yet, can somebody just scream at me pls!!! Gosh!

Was at Tampiness CC playing badminton, i couldnt remember when was the last time i actually played badminton. Playing badminton of cos need badminton racket.... so i went to take out my badminton racket, and guess what, my badminton rackets was covered with dust!!! lolx... this shows how long i never touch my badminton racket lioaz.

Started playing at 7 plus, first hour of the game, my badminton skill was super duber rusty!!! hahahaha..... Finally able to pick up the pace and play to my ability during the later part of the game. We finish playing at 10pm, well 3hours of badminton! Solid! Wooooo.. so long never excercise and it feels so good to perspire! lolx... To my surprise, wasnt feeling too tired, in fact i think i could go on and play somemore..... 12midnight i dont think i have any problems abt tt! =)

This morning wake up early and head down to Katong Swimming Complex to teach those kids from Geylang Methodist Primary..... a huge group and a noisy one definately! I was screaming most of the time to control them and giving instruction to them...... I'm losing my voice now.... *cough........... i need some chinese herbs drink or *cooling* drink......

Well my day has been good so far.... and i still dont have any moods to bring myself to read all those scary notes of mine! Well i think i have to force myself...... anybody wanna scream at me!?!?! Please feel free yeah.......

Well aint sure whether i will blog often for this month because i reallie gonna have a very scary month! BOOKS ! BOOKS! and more BOOKS! Argh...... it's driving me insane.....

Wat a lovely sunday! I think i beginnig to love my sunday!!! hahahaha... I have been lazing ard and spending time with my parents for the past few weeks/months?. Woooohoooo.. i just love my sunday this way! keke`~

Was online the whole afternoon... web caming with my friends... hahah.. damm fun!enjoying soooo much!! It a gd way of de-stressing after working so hard during weekdays. =) Well took a nap before leaving for my nephew bday party. Was dreaming of princess, ahahhaha... yeah... she again right... ohh well.. i just cant get her out of my mind. Anyway was having some fun time with her in the dream and then suddendly i woke up .. i was like... chey! only dreaming... hiaz... if only we are what i'm dreaming... ahha... anyway she not even in town now lor........

Well... wonder how is she now... hope she is doing fine... and hope she knows how to take care of herself....... Take care yeah..... =)

Two more days before she is back...... oh well.... does it make any difference even though she is back....... hahaha... i hardly think so.... cause i believe she dont miss me the way i miss her.... oh well... nonetheless still hope she's enjoying herself and taking care of herself as well.

Tomolo is monday! Gonna work again... prob just for this week and that's it... not going to work till december cause as i have said November is my exam month!!! Argh!!! It is here lioaz!!! I'm going mad pretty soon.

*Can someone pls help me??? Dont give me luck, just give me the qns and the ans for the exam yeah!?!?!?