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100 Best Jobs In Singapore (2009)

2009-08-11T23:17:00.002+08:00

I just click through a few website as per my normal routine, and i came across this article, 100 Best jobs in Singapore 2009. So i decided to cut and paste it here.

I wonder why Personal Banker earn so much, i'm one and i wonder why am i not earning the amount shown here. It's either i cant make it, or its not the truth. Personally i think they are referring Personal banker to Private Banker, then it will make more sense. With the financial crisis that happen right through 2008, i wonder why personal banker / private banker command such a high income. Nonetheless are you guys in the right job now?!?!?

This is the 2009 edition of my annual list(s) of the best 100 jobs in terms of pay

The lists are compiled based on data from the MOM Report on Wages in Singapore 2008.

As with previous years, the numbers reported in the MOM survey excludes performance bonuses, profit sharing and stock options. Even though it’s called a “survey”, actual CPF data is used.

To generate the first list, I look at the third-quartile monthly gross wages of the selected jobs in all industries. Explanation: if you’re at the third-quartile, or 75th-percentile, your pay is higher than 75% of the people.

Here’s the top 100 best-paying jobs across all industries (see also second list below, which is specific to the finance industry):

Specialised surgeon - $27,977
Managing director - $26,444
Personal banker - $20,238
Commodities futures broker - $19,098
General manager - $18,068
Foreign exchange dealer and broker - $17,383
Company director - $16,025
Finance sales associate professional - $15,833
Fund manager - $12,634
Risk management manager - $12,200
Treasury manager - $12,000
Financial futures dealer and broker - $11,667
Legal service manager - $11,531
Advocate and solicitor - $11,147
Business management consultant - $11,000
Operations manager (Finance) - $10,471
Legal officer - $10,417
Computer operations and network manager - $10,238
Training manager - $10,100
Corporate planning manager - $9,850
Computer and information systems manager - $9,800
Business development manager - $9,770
Research and development manager - $9,627
Engineering manager - $9,268
Sea traffic controller - $9,088
Marketing manager - $8,917
Lawyer (except advocate and solicitor) - $8,800
Budgeting and financial accounting manager - $8,727
Customer service manager - $8,635
Personnel / Human resource manager - $8,500
Technical manager - $8,500
Quality assurance manager - $8,480
Procurement manager - $8,400
Naval architect - $8,300
University lecturer - $8,282
Creative director (Advertising) - $8,050
Sales manager - $8,050
Chemical engineer (Petroleum) - $7,991
Chemical engineer (Petrochemicals) - $7,939
Manufacturing plant and production manager - $7,934
Instrumentation engineer - $7,831
Logistics manager - $7,745
Structural engineer - $7,295
Network systems and data communication analyst - $7,293
Advertising and public relations manager - $7,282
Premises maintenance manager - $7,260
Information technology security specialist - $7,110
Chinese physician - $7,043
Aeronautical engineer - $7,022
Shipping manager - $7,000
Business analyst - $6,997
Medical scientist - $6,875
Librarian - $6,842
Property / Estate manager - $6,780
Financial analyst - $6,667
Operations manager (Commerce) - $6,660
Editor (Radio, television and video) - $6,515
Credit analyst - $6,475
Database administrator - $6,417
Computer engineer - $6,407
Marine superintendent engineer - $6,387
Transport operations manager - $6,377
Administration manager - $6,350
Building and construction project manager - $6,200
Flight operations officer - $6,157
Sales representative (Technical) - $6,100
General physician - $6,085
Information technology auditor - $6,048
Securities dealer and broker - $6,000
Market research analyst - $5,834
Clearing and forwarding agent - $5,800
Power generation and distribution engineer - $5,790
Chemical engineer - $5,708
Industrial health, safety and environment engineer - $5,700
Automotive engineer - $5,670
Chemical engineering technician (Petroleum) - $5,647
Operations research analyst - $5,611
Chemical engineering technician (Petrochemicals) - $5,609
Chief / executive cook - $5,600
Warehousing manager - $5,550
Building architect - $5,500
Systems designer and analyst - $5,500
Application programmer - $5,495
Pharmacologist - $5,475
Speech therapist - $5,407
Semi-conductor engineer - $5,360
Stationary plant supervisor and general foreman - $5,353
Treasury officer - $5,350
Ship-master - $5,301
Software engineer - $5,281
Industrial machinery and tools engineer - $5,250
Sales representative - $5,237
Hotel service manager - $5,170
Production engineer - $5,165
Network and computer systems administrator - $5,159
Telecommunications engineer - $5,100
Advertising copywriter - $5,000
Civil engineer - $5,000
Environment health inspector - $5,000
Soil mechanic and piling engineer - $4,980

25 Random Things

2009-02-23T22:58:00.009+08:00

25 Random things about myself was made famous by Facebook users, was tag but didnt attempt to list out in facebook, recently saw an editor list out about 25 things that you need to know about google new website features. I was thinking why not i do something similiar along the line.

Been reallie busy with work, life. Valentine Day come and pass by in a flash. I havent been blogging much and havent spend enough quality time with dearie. Life has been so mundane but deep down in my heart i still love her so much. She once ask me why do i love you? i told her i dont have the actual reason, i just grow to love her more each and everyday.

On our 51st month today, I decided to just list down 25 random things about what i love about her.

1) She created a blog about us during our initial courtship days which just melted my heart away!
2) I love the way she say I'm her first priority in life!
3) I feel so me when i'm with her - no pretend no fake, just me and the real me
4) I would like to thank her for putting up with my nonsense at times!
5) I love the way she sounded so anxious and so willingly take care of me when i'm sick.
6) I love the way she say she loves and misses me! =)
7) I love the food she cook for me - breakfast, lunch, dinner
8) I love the way she just surprise me when she cook a meal just for the both of us when i least expect her to do so.
9) I love the way she would sacrifice or compromise even though she would prefer not to do it if she got a choice.
10) I love the times when we do sports together
11) I love the way she would go the extra mile to spend more time with me
12) I love the way we cuddled together on bed. =)
13) They say the most beautiful thing that ever happen to a couple with their eyes close is kiss. Yes i love the way we kiss! =)
14) I love the effort she take to come over my house and stay and yes i love the moment when i wake up and she is the first person i see by my side.
15) My fingers fit so nicely in between the gap of her fingers, my arms rest so nicely on her shoulder, and my hand wrap nicely on her waist, yes, i feel so comfortable going out with her.
16) I love the way she will dress up for me when we go out - yes i do notice those small little difference ranging for earrings, manicure, eyeliner, etc...
17) I love the way she stroke my face when i'm at angry at certain things (not her of course)
18) I love the way she would console and cheer me up when i'm feeling down or angry
19) I love the way we could understand each other, appreciate each other presence even when we are just holding hand or cuddle together without the need of talking.
20) I love the way we could look into each other eyes, and then smile or laugh when everybody around us look so puzzled.
21) I love the way she crack her brain to buy me present - she will go through great length to do it.
22) I love the way she would find the nicest wraper, box and wrap my present ever so nicely to the point where i dont feel like opening the present for fear of damaging it.
23) I love the way she could spend so much money on the present till to a point where i think its abit ridiculous.
24) I love the cross stich that she done for me! (that was just one of the many gifts that i love)
25) If you think 25 things is alot, she list down a hundred of things about what she loves me about me on one of our anniversay and yes, she just take my breath away.

Did a video montage for her on our 4th Anniversary. Will only post part 1 here =) Take it away....

Quote of the Day

2009-02-20T11:16:00.001+08:00

I recieve an office email titled "Quote of the Day"

It put a smile on my face cause i realise its quite funny to a certain extend. =)

Funny Joke

2008-11-13T17:34:00.002+08:00

A boring day, but i recieve an email today and i thought it was real funny (abit crude though) . Nonetheless here it is......

_____________________________________________________________________________________

The Inheritance!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When Joe found out he was going to inherit a fortune when his sickly father died, he decided he needed a woman to enjoy it with.. So one evening he went to a singles bar where he spotted the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. Her natural beauty took his breath away.

'I may look like just an ordinary man,' he said as he walked up to her, 'but in just a week or two, my father will die, and I'll inherit 20 million dollars.'

Impressed, the woman went home with him that evening. Three days later, she became his stepmother.

Moral: Women are so much smarter than men.
_____________________________________________________________________________________

That's the email and I believe the author of this email must be a woman without a doubt! But i dont believe we ever come across such a silly man, its good fun and joke for a good laugh but the reality is it will never happen in real life, so to the author ..... dream on!

An Idiot Scratch My Car!

2008-10-30T22:41:00.003+08:00

Its the second time and its very very bad this time round! I'm not too sure whether will it do me any good if i would to curse the fellow who scratch my car!

I'm not happy, not happy at all and i wish the fellow who scratch my car should go and see a psychologist. What's wrong with him/her. Bloody idiot! Asshole!

No Monday Blue

2008-10-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

Its Monday today, dont have the usual monday blue cos it's public holiday. Dearie got to work thus spend my time at home as usual, where else?!?

As i grew older, personal time become more cherish, spare time become more and more like a privilege. I'm a homely person, it's just feel so good to do nothing. Life has been on a rush, it just good to divert that busy schedule / pattern once in a while.

I would love to do nothing for a long period of time, but life cant be wasted like this. Too many wishes, too many goals, too many wants for me to fulfill. I'm thinking hard on what can i do to elevate my financial status and well-being.

I'm thankful of my current status, and like many other individual on earth, i hope it could get better. =)

Tml is tuesday, and back to working life, another step / another less day toward achieving personal goals =0)

Photos for Laugh!

2008-10-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

I was just cleaning up my email inbox when i found these photos in an email circulated back in 2004!

Thought it was funny enough to just upload for everyone to see.

Japanese Engrish! hahahah

Driving and ERP

2008-06-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

I have been driving for quite sometimes (back in 2007). There are a few reason why i drive.

Reason :

1)Faster travelling time (most of the time)
2)Do not need to squezee with the crowds (esp rush hours !)
3)Less waiting time (back to reason no.1)
4)More comfortable
5)Lazy

Yup, lazy is one of the main reason. Lazy to wait, lazy to squezee, lazy to walk to mrt station, change mrt line, walk to bus stop.
Basically having a car is more convenient, but it does comes with a price.

It use to be quite ok to drive, but nowadays it getting more and more expensive. Take for eg. Petrol. Its one big killer. I still remember the good old days that full tank cost me $50, now full tank dont even cost me $100, it cost me much more!

A per litre cost more than a bottle of coke (a litre), although i dont drink coke, i prefer water, but i guess petrol fee is qetting a bit ridiculous out there.

Ok, petrol is one issue, now come the ERP. What wrong with the government. I mean why do they seriously need to extend the timing and worse of all, increase the timing for sat.

I just watch the news.

One of our favourite MP says that "It's not the purpose of the government to make the people suffer more. It doesn't make sense that our government wants the people to suffer under high inflation. The purpose of ERP increases is not to increase revenue for the government. The one and only purpose of ERP increases is to manage traffic congestion in Singapore. If there is no traffic congestion, there will be no ERP increases."

Tell me about it, does this sentence really do make sense. There are many more ways to reduce traffic congestion and not simply by increasing ERP charges and setting up more ERP gantries. Even implementing ERP at certain timing where all of us know for some places there are no so call traffic congestion.

I guess we Singapore are not a vocal lot, we just suffer in "silence", we always say "ayiah boh pian lah, no choice lah what can we do" anyway i'm one of the culprit. I just wonder what will happen if we can be just as vocal as the Malaysia or even Thailand.

Will our lives be better??, or will our country economy remain the same if we can be more vocals like what Malaysian or Thais ppl.

To be frank, if a highly paid professional can just think of increasing ERP charges and add more ERP gantries to control the traffic. If that's the only measure to control traffic then i guess, other country esp Thailand, can consider this option, then they would not be having jams every morning!

Times flies........ and of cos i'm old

2007-10-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

This post is just something out of the blue. Today i have a little bit more time for myself, and i decided to be my old Kpo self. Go tru friendster, realise that alot of my friends, relatives has move on very fast in their life. Some went on for Star Idol contest, DJ contest. One of my friend is even a current DJ host. Few got married and already given birth.

As i look back, i was planning to get married at the age of 25 and guess what, i'm 26 and not even married, and not marrying soon too. My friend who dont even have the slightest intention of getting married, most of them are happily married now and some even have kids!

As i grew older, more responsibilty to shoulder on and the word "money" become to have more instrinsic value in my life. You beginning to realise school wasnt that shitty, in fact I grew to love the good old days of school. You got nothing but hell lots of times, you play, joke, trying to be funny, and the only thing you worry is Exam. Now, everyday is abt work, juggling between work and relationship. You beginning to realise 24 hours a days is not enough, we should have 48 hours!

And as the old life pattern follows, you study, get a good cert, move on find a decent job, and a decent partner, get married, have a child, start up and family, and see through the same process for your kids, and there u go, u reach old age, getting ready to die, and then say bye bye to this world.

I'm somewhere in the middle of that life pattern right now. Time reallie flies, its been ages since i met up with my old classmates, not that i dont want, is just that we simply dont have enuff time. Things changes from our study life, we work hard for our career, move on so quickly that you think your school exam were just ytd.

4 more years to the big 3 for me. Its not scary anymore, life has been quite mundane. Thankfully i have a partner to share my life with. Happy that everything is fine for me. And as usual, before long, before i realise it, i will be moving on to the next phase of my life journey and needless to say me and my partner will move on in tandam.

On a side note, i cant wait to see our little creation of Kelvin Junior and Joanne junior. I bet they will look damm gorgeous. But that have to wait of cos. =)

The Rich and Their extravagent lifestyle

2007-09-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

Today as i pick up a copy of Straits Times, i came across this Special Edition "The Men's Club" - The Superrich @ Play and Work. I suggest you guys should just pick up that copy and have a look at how disgusting those rich ppl are.

In Case, you guys didnt lay your hand on that copy, i just abstract an article (with courtesy of The Straits Times)

Word for word (just to afirmed you that i didnt add salt and pepper to the post)

- A WEALTHY retired businessman went on a shopping spree at Tiffany & Co to show appreciation for the care his family provided him when he was hospitalised recently.
He showered the women in his life with diamonds. Says Ms Hew Yee Min, managing director at Tiffany & Co. "It was also an emotional moment for his wife and three daughters as he picked up several pieces of diamond jewellery for them to remember him by, in case anything happens to him"
That's one palpable reason for men to splurge on their women. At Louis Vuitton, its spokesperson Aileen Png says that typically, a man spends about $3,500 on bags, shoes, clothes and accessories for his loved ones in her shop. At Hermes, the bill can balloon to $300,000, as was the case of a man who bought a Birkin bag in crocodile hide and diamonds for his partner.
The super rich dont shop like ordinary mortals. Mr Christopher Kilaniotis, managing director for Cartier Singapore, Malaysia and Indonesia, recalls having to open his boutique at midnight for a regular customer who wanted to buy two watches for his wife who had just given birth.
At Sincere Watch, which markets top-end Frank Muller watches, its brand manager Angela Lor recites the case of a couple who wanted the 12 numerials on the watch dial to be replaced with letters from their names set in diamonds. The watchmaker was pleased to help, at a cool $400,000 to do the jobs.
Louis Vuitton's Ms Png says the dicerning men buy seasonal or limited edition bags and accessries for their women. For others, bejeweled watches and handbags are just as good.
Tiffany & Co had a special sale with its 24-carat rough diamond last year. The deal : customer visits the mine to see the diamond, chooses a cut with a diamond cutter in Antwerp, and decides on the setting with the jewelery designer. When all's done, the masterpeice is celebrated over breakfast at Tiffany's in New York.
As Tiffany & Co had only one diamond of this size, the deal was for one customer only, at a price of US$1 million (S$1.5million). It was snapped up in no time. -

See? disguesting isnt it.

If you think its the max, wait till you read this below....

- Dr Bernard Cheong has more than 100 watches, the most expensive being a rare Harry Winston Opus V that costs $250,000. He also added a $230,000 MB&F Horological Machine No (HM1) to his list. In any case, Dr Bernard Cheong is the owner of Lifeline Medical Group and property development companies. A bold statement was made by him. "I am not wealthy. I am just trying to find a hobby with meaning. The watches i have are inexpensive" -

What the hell! A person who could buy watches at exhorbitant prices say he is not rich! Then i have to ask him what do i then have to call myself?
The final draw is when he says his watches are not expensive! That Harry winston Opus V could easily buy a 4-room HDB flat now lah! Not expensive? My ass !

Someone wake up his ideas pls!

I walk from Eunos Mrt back to my Home!

2007-09-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

Yea, you read it right, I walk home all the way from Eunos Mrt Station back to my home, and i took ard 20mins to reach home.

And Guess what, when i reach the bus station where i alway alight, the bus that i should take to go home did not even arrive. (to be exact, i cant even see any approaching)

Today, the traffic is killing, if i were to wait for my bus, i'm not sure what time will i reach home. The traffic at my house area is terrible, a mere 5-10min bus journey could take up to 30mins depending on the traffic condition. Yea, i'm not bluffing, it is that bad. Its CRAZY!

Luckily today weather is still fine, otherwise i will be soaked in my own perspiration.

So.... I save time and money and finally i have some exercise after a while =)

My 26th Birthday!

2007-09-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

10th of Sep is always a special day for me, because its my Birthday!!!

This is also a special day for the Cartier family too, they choose to unveil their newly renovated boutique at Takashimaya on this special day! Talk about auspicious date, mine is definately one! =) *big grinz

Put that aside, its reallie a joyous occassion for me less of course that i was sick on my bday. Birthday is always a day that i will look forward to, for many years, i always sink into a mild depression or PMS you called it a few days leading to my birthday. It's weird or there is some weird philosphy theory behind it, but that's like how it had been for me over the years. This year, that feeling was not that strong, it did have, i guess. But i think it did go away pretty fast, and i'm was pretty happy and relax till my bday.

My bday was on Monday, so it was pretty much a long weekend for me. Dear was sweet, she has always been sweet, i guess that's the most understatement i ever made =) Weekend was good because she was with me, like any other normal weekend, her presense just make weekend better and making monday ever so miserable (because we work the next day you see). This week was even better, because its my Birthday, and we can for once say that we looking forward to Monday and We LOVE MONDAY!hahahah.

Talking about birthday, and you will know that it actually means 1 year older. I pretty fine when i was in my teens, that means i'm closer to being consider as matured! (at least that was the thought / remark that i had then) but when u past the legal age of 21 years old and when u just 4 years before u hit the BIG 3, things dont seems to be the same! I guess different stage of life, u think differently!

I think i made the statement last year, quarter of my life is gone, and what have i achieve!? In fact, it should be more than a quarter, i dont think i ever live till 100 years old. I guess sometimes it good to reallie make time to reflect on one self and finding back the meaning to one's life. I guess i do lots of reflection recently, and i kinda conclude God has been kind to me, and i thank god for that. I'm not a religious person, if u think i am that is. Its just that over the years, many things happen, and i come to realize that everything happen for a reason, and it did make me a better person physically and spiritually.

After 26 years of life on earth, i feel that i'm pretty blessed in terms of my state of health, financial, love life, family bonding, etc.... Though it can be better still in terms of some aspect of my life, but i guess one cant be too selfish to demand the best for everything. Treasue what you have is what i always preach myself, and i'm thankful i'm still in a better position than many, but still not the best position i could be in. One must have dreams and at the same time be contented or treasured what one had at that moment.

I'm pretty happy that after being so busy for so many months, my family life is still in check, there still a great sense of bonding when we do reallie sit down and chat our hearts out.

My love life is blossoming, we been through different aspect / stages of our life, though not yet to our next phase of life, but still we have been there for each other and i guess we matured as a person and our love for each other just grew stronger each and every day.

My health state did went through a few scares, but i guess i still considered pretty healthy to some. =)

My financial situation has been good, though like i say it can be better, but i would say i'm in a better position than i was said 5 years ago, when i was going through a rough patch of cos. But i have bigger dreams to achieve and attain. I dont come from a well-to-do family, in fact someone below average, so the hunger for financial success is strong.

Money is not the most essential things in life some might say, but in this society right now, it is big enough to be the root of all evils. I been through times where money has cause strains in my relationship with my love ones. You cant argue the fact on the importance money played in the modern part of our society. Sad, but its the awful truth of life.

So i'm thankful as it is right now, then all i have been good for me.

My birthday was an eventful one starting for the midnight till the end of Monday. Dear has always been very thoughtful, and she just make my day ever so happening and meaningful. Shall not go through in details because the details should just keep right in heart and was not meant to be shared with anyone else =)

Joy is what i can share =)

Anyway She bought me a Mont Blanc Pen! it was like so ex that i got to think twice, thrice or maybe many more times before i would even get one for myself. Sometimes its not the price of the gift, its the thought and the value of the gift that matters, and to me she just went beyond what i think she would be capable of doing. Its not like she earn tones of money, but she exceptional, she's my Superwoman!

My parents gift was cool, i got myself a limited edition Seiko stopwatch as a bday gift, how cool is that!

My sis, she got me something extra-ordinary, she got me boxer shorts! It's a real weird gift from her though. Hahah...

Maybe i will post some pics soon.

Not forgeting birthday wishes from my colleagues and friends, they are a wonderful lot too, its always bring smile to my face to know they do take an effort to wish me! =)

Lastly, its a real enjoyable bday for me. A real special day, where it will always have a special place in my heart, as well as in my memory lane.......................... =)

Report out

2007-07-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

My Report was out last week, everything turn out well. Doc say i'm pretty healthy, which is a very good news for me of cos.

I also recover from my flu bug. So yeap.

Healthy and fit at the moment. =)

I guess staying away from work is good for me. Feel much more relax after absent from work for a week.

GREAT!

Life is so fragile

2007-07-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

When i was young, i always think i was different, different as in i'm stronger than normal kids, just like superman or some action hero in cartoons. I always have that kind of mentality that i'm just like superman, until i fell sick. Then i realise i'm just like any other normal kids. Once a while, i will have that kind of feeling till i got sick again.

Although i no longer think that i'm superman, i still think that i'm quite healthy. But this mindset is starting to change. Because when i was young, i can run and play right after i recover from sickness, but right now i no longer have that same level of drive / energy. And i find that i take longer than last time before i can fully recover. Therefore i realise that 1) i getting old, 2) i'm not as healthy

Reason being very simple, i dont excerise that regulary anymore. I use to excerise everyday because i was a swimmer / athlete. Nowadys due to work commitment, and lazy of course, cant really find time to excercise. To be frank, i have been quite paranoid about my health status recently.

Recently, saw on newspaper, that a young triathelete collapse right after a SEA GAMES trial and within hours he pass away. Prior to that he got no known heart problem or whatever. Sports circle is not big, so basically there are friends that i know know him. Then today, my student's friend pass away as well, apparently he was diagnose with brain tumor all of a sudden, and he is only 18 years old!

Its really kind of scary that people so young can just pass away, one day they live life as per normal, then next day they are gone. Its very scary, and it make me ponder that life is really very fragile, you can be very healthy now, but u never know what would happen next. I have heard too many times, too many stories that people all of a sudden are diagnose of certain illness and not longer after pass away.

There are times when i got really sick, then paranoid begin to sink in, i begin to worry will i leave the world if i sleep. Yes, its rather negative, but that the state of mind i'm in sometimes. I was thinking to myself, i still have a lot of unfinish stuff to do, its a pity if i just leave like that, and to think that i will leave all the people close to my heart, its very heart wrenching.

Recently, i find that i can just faint on the spot, dont know why, then sometimes before i sleep, i find that my body feel very different. I dont know whether is it because i am very exhausted because of work, stress or whether do i really have health problem. I just went doc this morning, because i was feeling unwell and go take MC and at the same time, i went to do a blood test for Liver test. There's a few times, where my hand become very red, it was really very red, and dearie's dad say that it might be due to liver problem. Then he begin to tell story. Of cos, dearie begin worried and ask me to go for blood test. Me too of cos, already being paraniod become very worried too. I hope the result will be fine. I hope i'm still healthy. I begin to treasure my state of health as i grow older. I begin to understand why people prefer to die rather than to live life very sickly. The thought of it, really make it feel very painful.

Right now, i always thank god that i can wake up from my bed the next morning. I know i sounded abit extreme, but things can just happen like this, like what was reported on the newspaper, so never take things for granted.

Life is short, and we just live once. Nobody know where we came from and nobody knows where we will go after death. Yes, there are story about ghost, but there are no real proof as of yet. Nonetheless as i grow older, i treasure each and every sec of my life, and like i say, i thank god for able to wake up healthy from my bed the next morning.

I just hope everything would be fine for my blood test. =)

Six month into 2007

2007-06-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

Times flies, i havent blog for like 4 months, and yes, i'm having a hard time keeping my blog alive.

This time, i have a valid reason, i reallie dont have too much time because if you know my schedule, you would wonder why do i'm always that busy. Nonetheless i remind myself always with the goals i set the beginning of this year. Yes! I'm busy working hard for my goals, for my new year resolution.

And yes after 6 months into Year 2007, I'm very proud to say that i'm on course to achieve my new resolution, that's to earn $100,000

Its a wonderful feeling to know that i'm on course, but that comes with a price. What prices you might wonder. Very simple, once i earn $100,000 means that my income tax will increase tremendously as compare to last year. It's at least $4000 of tax. Now i really feel the pinch on income tax, but that the price you have to pay if you earn more. That's why by reading financial books, it will helps you understand taxation better and you will try to use the legal loopholes to reduce tax.

Anyway i'm happy that my investment is also reaping good profits.

Will update you more in my next blog entry. but for now, i must say YES! I'm going to reach my $100,000 ! =)

Why do we Invest!?

2007-02-05T18:52:00.000+08:00

Time flies isnt it... 30+ days has gone for the year of 2007. Its already the month of Feb. I did state the reason why we should invest. Now i shall briefly run through how again why one should invest. If you have decided to do so, you better read and think about it again.

In order to be rich, we need to invest! Maybe i should put it this way, in order for your money to work harder for you, you should invest. But many will say investing is risky. I have to agree with those people, just like I agree with those people who made the remark of saying driving a car is risky.

Driving a car can be risky when
1) If you fall asleep while driving,
2) If you drive without hands (searching for things, using handphone, etc),
3) If you are not sober (after drinking session)
4) No knowledge of driving a car

But is driving a car really that risky. In fact it's not, it really depend on the individual who is driving the car. So if an individual do not have the knowledge to drive a car, it would be better off for him to hire a chauffer (if he rich enough) otherwise taking public transport is a wise choice.

So investing is the same, you must have the knowledge. If you dont have, it will be better off if you engage a professional to help you do it. Then you will reduce your risk.

By putting money in the bank, is it risky? In fact the answer is YES!

I believe many of you will argue with me that HOW COULD THIS BE. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE!

Let me just say kindly calm down and listen to me.
Firstly, by putting your money in the bank could be risky because the bank might collapse, close down. Yes, it is rather unlikely, but there is still a slight possiblility. Anyway It did happen a few times in different countries before, so dont strike out this possiblility. For your information banks are all private limited.

Secondly is How much do you earn by putting your money in the account. Not much right isnt it. It will only earn you about 0.125% per annum(for most saving account)and maybe slightly more if the bank has any promotion and / or putting a larger amount of cash in a fixed deposit. If you going to have all your money in your saving account, you are giving yourself a big injustice. Yes, it give you alot of liquidity, because as and when you need the money, you can use it. However do you know of such a thing call inflation? Inflation in singapore is averaging about 3% per annum based on the past inflation rate data for 40 years. Its very high isnt it. However in the recent 2 - 3 years, it is only on an average of 0.5%- 1.5% per annum.

So.... What is inflation ? for the benefit of those who dont understand the meaning, it is a rise in the general level of prices, as measured against some baseline of purchasing power. That means that the value of your money will depreciate over time / over the years. Can you recall that a bowl of noodles cost you $1 during 10-20 years ago. But right now, it easily cost you $2.50 to $3.50 a bowl. That's Inflation!

By putting money in the bank saving account, you are not helping yourself, you are losing out. Inflation is eating up your money. Your hard-earned money loses its value over time. What is $1 today, might not be $1 tml or next year. It is of lesser value. Do you think it is Right? Do you think it is FAIR!? I definately dont think so!

It doesnt make sense that your hard earned money is no longer worth that much. Its your blood and sweat, how can anybody just cut the value of your money just like this. But to be frank, that's the reality of life.

So now, does it make sense to you that by putting your money in the bank is risky? So what can you do so that your money dont lose value but appreciate. The only way is...... to have proper investment strategy.

But how do one invest ??? and investing is still risky despite knowing that investing is beneficial. Knowledge and Information is important. If you know something, you can make a informed decision, a better decision. And like i have mention, engage a professional to manage your investment portfolio would be beneficial to you.

"Since Investing is good, i should invest everything, so that my money would not loses it value. " one might asked.

Although we hate the idea of our hard money would lose value over time, but we still need liquidity afterall, therefore it is very important to strike a good balance between having cash and investing. In fact, by investing a portion of your money, it can potentially earn a better interest, and the interest earned could offset the inflation and gain in value as well.

So think about it. I will cover on the next topic on how one could invest, despit many claiming that they have hardly any money left in their saving account every month. I will also show you some of my portfolio that i am investing.

It doesnt make sense if i dont know nuts about investing and yet i keep writing about investing. Just like it doesnt make sense to listen to a teacher, when the teacher do not understand the topic he/she is teaching.

So stay tune, and get ready to INVEST!

A Brand New Year - 2007

2007-01-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

*Welcome Year 2007 with open arms!

It's a brand new year, thus a brand new dreams and goals for this coming year.

Its been a great start to this new year so far. STI broke 3000 and recorded historical high. My Parent both strike 4D!, Talk abt being lucky, my mom strike twice!

So far, its already the second week of Year 2007.

I had a lazy sunday with dear, and we were both amazed at the rate time flies. Anyway that's aside, i would want to do a recap on Dec 2006 pretty soon. A month filled with lots of celebrations. (It's the famous festive period for both me and dearie)

Well my New Year resolution would be, to earn my first $100,000!

I will do it, just watch me!

Have a good year and best of luck to your own resolution yeah!

Happy 2007!

Happy New Year 2007 !

2006-12-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

Its been a festive season week, and today is the last working day for the many. Its marks the start of a long weekend. Am i happy? YES! Finally i can get some decent rest, lazing around, celebrate the festive season with my loved ones.

Welcome Year 2007 !

3 Days to Christmas!

2006-12-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

So fast! Its going to be the end of year 2006 very soon. But before that, Christmas will arrive first.

3 More days! That's how soon it is. Anyway its going to a long weekend! Wooohoooo......

Well just recently i came across this advert, and the moment i saw i know i have to share with you guys. Enjoy it..... This is the perfect christmas present for you guys.... SEXY... EROTICA .... LAUGHTER! hahah...

Take it away.....

How do you become a millionaire?

2006-12-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

The millionaire dollar qns " How do I become a millionaire?"

Now lets list down the no. of ways to become a millionaire.

1) Inherit a million dollars from your passed away parents
2) Win a million dollars from Casino
3) Participate and win the variety show " Who Wants to Be a Millionaire "
4) Queue and pray wholeheartedly that you will strike lottery for a million dollar
5) Buy lots of Singapore Sweeps tickets
6) Work hard to earn a million dollar
7) Try to spot and pick up money on the floor (hoping its a million dollar)
8) Invest your money.

So from this list of 8, which are the likelyhood of us normal people becoming a millionaire?

For pt no. 1, Congratulations! No hard work needed, you are just born lucky! *Claps* How many of us belong to this type of family? If you belong to this type, you probably wouldnt even be bothered to read my blogs as you will be busy party away and driving your porsche, ferrari and picking up hot chicks and having a wonderful time at night.

For pt no. 2, Tell me who can be so lucky!?! Unless you are god of gambler, otherwise if you dont lose until you got no pants to wear you are damm lucky lioaz. If people can win mountains of money from casino, why are there more and more casino coming up in the world!? Why would Singapore suddendly wanna build not one but two casino at one time. Why .. Why.. Why! Are Casino santa clause? Who are the real winner? The Casino or the gambler? Think about it man!

For pt no. 3. How many participant walks away with the top prize " a million dollar " from the show? Yes there's a few. only one handful in the whole wide world. Will you be the one? In fact one of the winner in US is now in jail because he has been in cahoots with the host so that he can win the top prize. You and me know it is so so very difficult. Lets quote places close to our heart, no one in singapore ever wins that game anyway. The qns are so difficult that, is either you know it all or you are so damm lucky that you can answer all the question correctly by guessing (at the latter stage of the game) A million dollar prize money!?! You needs lots of luck!

For pt no. 4, anybody reading this win a million dollar by betting on 4D? I guess whatever you have put in, if you are lucky enough you could win in back at a later stage or at least recoup some of your losses. Of cos there are these minority who just born lucky, they can just keep striking 4D every week. But can their winnings amount amounts up to a million dollar. Its a hard qns because although they do strike 4D every week, but the amount might be less than what the person has placed for their total bet for the week. What bout Toto? Anyway who walk away with a million dollar prize here? Hardly man, in fact, i dont think so. When the prize money snow ball to a few million, and if there are winners for that particular prize. Its normally divided by a lot of winners. So at the end of the day, one person get a million dollar? No way!

For pt no. 5, You have a chance to win $2 million dollars. But seriously, have you came across a person who religiously buy singapore sweeps for at least 20 to 30 years or even more. If yes, then did he/she manage to win that ultimate prize? At least ppl i know didnt, maybe your circle of friends are just luckier. Just maybe ah.....

For pt no. 6, Unless you are a CEO of a company who can get paid millions of dollars a year. Or even a well-known doctor or lawyer by profession. There are also other profession as well, but you and me know that they belong to the elite group, the high income earners. Ask yourself, how many of you guys know of somebody close to you that earns more than $10,000 a month. Majority of us falls into the category of less than $10,000 a month on waged income. With the current income and the current expenditure you have, you get your net saving (good if you still have saving). You do a simple maths, how many years can you save before you reach that million dollar mark? For eg. if you can save a $1,000 every month. You need to save like this for at least 84 years before you reach a saving of $1 million dollar. 84 years ! can you save for so long? hey wait, are you able to save $1,000 every month anyway? Think about it.

For pt no. 7. If you can pick up so much monies then i think you are super duber lucky. Whatelse can i say.

For pt no. 8. Is it possible?? Of course, there every possiblity if you know how to invest. Investment means you take calculated risk in order to generate the returns you required. You heard of people becoming rich through investing dont you. Invest through property, stocks, blah blah blah blah.... But you also heard that people become bankrupt through investing. I would like to point out the fact that, if you invest wrongly, you bound to be at the wrong side of things. People who invest for the sake of investing are not called investing, but rather it is call speculating. And that is no difference from placing bet in casino. You need to be aware of certain situation before you invest, you need to understand before you invest. That's why i said earlier that "investment means you take calculated risk in order to generate the returns you require." Just like when you go for your sch exam. If you dont understand the subject and if you dont study prior to the exam. Do you not think you will fail the exam? It the same for investing. Know the investment instrument, and you will know wat to do with it basically. And all you have to do next is to have "time"
If you look at the top 50 richest people here in singapore, you will notice something that they all have in common beside owning their own company or sitting in very high position of a company.

They INVEST!

So what are the chances for you to be a millionaire from this list of 8?

The choice is yours but the answer is clear for all to see. If you are still confuse, use probablility method to measure each of the listed 8 to see which one give you the highest chances of becoming rich, becoming a millionaire!

Think about it !

I'm Back with a purpose ...

2006-12-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

Its being 4 months since i last blog. I know i have been neglecting my blog. I have been
1) lazy
2) lack of time
3) too tired to blog

Ok yesh, i might be giving excuses, but well that what life is all about isnt it. Trying to find a good reason to bail you out of trouble.

Anyway i decided that i should blog not just about my personal life, but also some of my investment tips and ideas.

I guess blogging is a good platform for me to share some of my investment strategy and ideas to my friends or like-minded people.

For those who might not know, i have been in the finance industry for quite a while. I dare not say that i had seen enough. Everyday is a learning experience for me, i have been gainning valuable experience as the no. of days past. Being in the finance industry, allows me to be more aware of alot of things.

Wanna be a millionaire? Is it that hard to become one?

I strongly believe everybody is capable of becoming one. It take prudent approach of one when they invest their money. It's not just about being lucky, being a millionaire is not about queueing to buy toto, buying singapore sweeps, or gambling away in casino or even participating "who wants to be a millionaire" show. I'm not saying we dont need luck. We definately need luck and we also need good investment discipline and strategies.

I will share with you guys soon, meanwhile i'm in the midst of updating my entries on braces. (for those who dont know, i have been on braces for close to half a year already)

So till then, stay tune. =)

Back to blogging

2006-08-01T15:11:00.000+08:00

Its a long time since i last blog. Took a long hiatus from the blogging world. To be frank, i never even visit my own site for a long while. Till that day when my gf told me that my blog is no longer visible. I decided then, its time for me to check it out and do some "blog- keeping". So after many months of complaining from her, it has finally paid off, bcos i'm blogging again. Hahaha..

Its nice to know that some of my friends would still pop by my website once a while to see if there's any update. Many were asking, " Hey your blog no more ah" or question similar to that nature. Well i guess i would blog more often nowadays. However, Dont bank on me too much cos i'm a busy man. Yeap, that's the truth.

The month of Aug would be a pretty busy month for me , follow by Sep, where i will be going to UK. Not for holiday though, but for competition. I guess probably its going to be my last compeition if not probably the last few. I'm aint getting any younger, the fact is that i need to work and train, and that is aint easy. To be truthfull, i hardly have enough time for myself, let alone trainning. So i guess somehow or rather you can see my picture. Furthermore, i need to earn money. I seen ppl the same age as me, getting higher salary. It doesnt feel good man seriously. I seriously thinking of changing job pretty soon rather than staying in my current job. I need a higher pay, a higher challenge rather than staying put with my current job where i dont see myself going anywhere. The only reason why i'm staying put is that i can at least do some weekdays coaching. (Please dont ask me why i could)

Recently alot of concern, issues has crank up my brain recently. Will try to digest abit before i decide to blog about it.

Nonetheless all is good for me so far, and yeaps stay tune.

A long break from blogging.....

2006-02-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

Its nice to pen some thoughts in my public diary again. Its been one long time since i last write anything.

Plenty of thoughts but not enough time. Ok, excuses some might say, but well its reallie not easy to sit for an hour to pen down any long journals of my thoughts or whats happening in my life.

I guess those who use to read my blog might have migrated or given up hopes of me blogging again and to me, i think that's great. Dont want my blog to be so public anyway. (read by ppl that i have no associates or detest)

Recently so many blog owner got criticise, got themselves in trouble because of their own blog entires, and i think that just not the way things should be.

Nonetheless will update my recent trips and some pics too.

So stay tuned to Selfestem

=)

2005-12-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

neo print

Merry X'mas!

2005-12-24T10:30:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas everyone!!!

Enjoy the wonderful long weekend =)

Its been a real long time since i update

2005-12-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Taking a look at when was my last entry, it was 25th oct 2005, that means i havent been blogging close to 2 months! terrible!

Alot of things happen, was busy as usual, went to HK in nov, the trip was pretty ok, didnt reallie have any memorable things to cap it all. Nonetheless will revisit HK again. Well the things i bought in Shen Zhen, cant work properly! argh! My 2GB memory card is spoilt! my 4GB flash drive seems to have problem, worse is that i bought another 2 more of the 4GB flash drive. It's so sickening to know that its not in working condition anymore, i dont think i will ever buy any electronic product there. I was still contempleting whether to get an mp3 player when i was over there, luckily i didnt, if not i would have loss even more!

In the month of Dec, i can say that its a month of celebration, i'm not just refering to christmas day, i'm talking bout the no. of things me and my dear gonna celebrate. Yup =)
Oh well still have to thank her for all her understanding, tolerence, love all these period.

I'm gonna have a competition in Feb 06 next year. I dont have a problem with that, but the competition period clashes with 14 feb, valentine day! Now thats a real big problem. Not that i reallie do care abit about it, i mean com'om everyday can be a valentine day, 14 feb its reallie just another advertising gimmick! Companies earn big bucks during that day. I mean i treasure my dearie each and everyday. I appreciate her alot for the things she had done and i do celebrate our anniversaries. I mean on days such as anniversaries, it is reallie special because it reallie just involve the both partner and its a special day because you know how much it meant for both of u. Oh well, as much as we know of this 14 feb gimmick, we as human still falls for it due to influence, blah blah blah, for wadever reason you can think of.

Though gals can say that aiyah 14 feb is just another advertising gimmick, but we all knows gals, their heart just doesnt goes along with their mouth. They doesnt reallie mean what they say sometimes and so yes, guys still need to buy chocolates, flowers, dinners on 14 feb. and yes, i'm now caught in a dilemma.

I told myself that year 2006 would probably be the last year that i'm gonna compete, firstly because my work is piling up and i dont think i can have the time to train for competition in the future. Secondly i would reallie wanna move forward with my career in the future, wait till things are more stablise, then maybe i will start thinking abt sports again, com'om i'm a guy, i need to get my career path settle as soon as possible. Thirdly i'm not young anymore, i need more time to train to condition my body and i cant also afford to keep taking time off and distract my career advancement. So basically i think 06 would probably be the last year i gonna compete before i give myself a break before maybe competiting in the future. Year 2006 would also be lifesaving world rescue (which is equivalent to olympics level) in feb and Commenwealth lifesaving games (which is equivalent to commenwealth games level) in aug/sep. These are the two level i have yet to compete before, and i'm looking to compete in the highest level first before i can put a mini full stop in my sports life before i can concentrate on my career. It would be a wonderful end to my sporting life if i choose not to compete again in future because i know i would have no regrets in the lifesaving sports as i have seen what i wanted to see, and compete what i wanted to compete in the highest level. Its an experience not many can have it. I do not wish to have any regrets just like in my previous sports, Swimming and fin-swimming.

i'm not single now, and i'm in a relationship and i know how much feb 14 does means to a gal and i also do know what is the competition that gonna take place in feb means to me as well, both means just as much to me. For the competition it is something of an olympic level, tell me how many can compete in the olympics and how many can experience from this. To some, it maybe a once in a lifetime thingy. I will be having a selection trial soon, to me, being selected would not be too tough, as i'm one of the better one in that sports, however right now i'm kinda caught in a dilemma. Not just because of 14 feb , but of cos the no. of days that me and dear gonna be apart. I know what she went tru everytime she send me off at the airport and the unbearable feeling of letting me go and the anticipating feeling of waiting for me to come back. All these make me think of whether i do reallie wanna go forward competiting and fulfilling my own personal lifesaving sporting career.

While i'm in a dilemma, someone that closest to my heart wish that i wont get selected for this coming feb trip. To me, i was like ouch! it hurts! it does reallie hurt. To hear that from someone else is already not a pleasant thing let alone it was from someone close to your heart.

I always hear this proverb, "Behind a successful man, there's always a noble woman" This sentence cant go very wrong. I can put everything down and accompany her all day all night, but it is possible? Who is to feed us, who is to earn money, who is to get the things we want in life. To not work hard, and earn loads of money, is it possible?

I know she is sad that i'm going off again, and leaving her behind to wait patiently for my return. I know how it feels to miss someone. I also know how it feels to not be able to celebrate feb 14 with someone you love. i know i know i knows it all. I dont feel good at all too. I miss her just as much whenever i'm away. However that sentence came out from someone i love, someone so close to my heart was something that make me very very sad. I feel like crying, i'm not a crying boy fyi, but i just feel real sad to hear what i heard. i'm speechless... i'm tired... its late, and i'm going to sleep.........

2005-10-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

Went to my uncle wake ytd, pretty heart-wrenching to see my grandma sitting at one corner. She look so frail and melancholy. Talk to her for a while, it saddens me to see her in her phyiscal shape right now and at times she sounded senile. Who wouldnt be, for she had already gone through real bad times when she lost her husband when the kids are still young, and had lost her youngest son 10 years ago prior to losing her second son now.

My dad's mom (my grandmother) become thin and sickly and acting like a small kid before she pass away. I hate to see elders becoming like this. It scares and sadden me because i cant imagine my parent might one day become like them and for me myself would become exactly like one next time. Why do we have to go tru this? To me it just didnt make sense. Where did we come from and where will we go after we die. If there's life after death, wouldnt it be better that we die when we are healthy as compare to being thin and sickly and senile because when we are dead, we will still be "living" healthy in the other world as compare to otherwise.

I seriously dont understand why people would commit sucide over small matters. If life is a one time love affair with the earth, isnt it so damm precious to throw it away. Its real sad to know that whatever you have work so hard all your life for, you might not get to enjoy it because if you die too early, then that's too bad for u.

Where will we be after death? Will us be forever gone? "Sleeping" for millions of years and losing touch with all our love ones. Why cant we be ard to witness the revoluation of the earth. I would jump into joy if i manage to meet a ghost, spirit of whatever you call it. If we are suppose to be one of them when we are dead, why are we afraid of them, if we will be one when we are dead, doesnt it mean that there will be life after death, wouldnt it be wonderful just to witness whatever gonna happen to this earth and our love ones daily lives.

I'm dead jealous about the prospect of human races able to go for Space holiday, to be able to travel to Mars, Jupiter, just like how all our long ancestors are dead jealous now about us able to travel by planes to different parts of the world for holiday.

Am i able to live that long to see that happening, maybe by then i would have lost my eyesight, hearing, and become too senile to see the world or maybe i would have long been extinct in this world.

I wish i could live life again. There are so many things that i would love to do if i'm able to turn back time.

2005-10-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

Finally had a decent rest over the weekend. Feels good to take a break, feeling more re-charge now. =)

Recieve a sad news. My uncle (mom's side) pass away at the age of 40 leaving his wife and three children all studying pri sch. That's reallie very sad. Only know that he was at the hospital ard 3pm and then ard 5 plus, he left the world. Haiz... life is so fragile, unpredictable, and its so so so short.

To me, i feel that Death is not something that is scary, it is scary only because you left behind all your love ones, as well as the things you have work so hard for it all your life. Can u imagine you work so hard for certain things and you cant enjoy the fruits of your labour. That's sucks! Haiz... is there life after death, maybe my uncle can find out now.

What's Life? i cant figure it out, and i guess i wouldnt be able to figure it out soon. It just remind me that i should treasure my loves one always.

Busy busy busy

2005-10-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blog, and i freaking busy nowadays, especially recently.... I guess i said it umpteen times, and it seems to be an usual opening statement to my blog. Sad but true... hiaz... oh well came back from my KL biz trip, and upon touching Singapore soil on Saturday afternoon, went back to unpack my stuffs and off i go for my coaching session. The next day (sunday) i had a roadshow to work, then follow by another three roadshow (mon,tue,wed). I'm going bonkas man! I havent been resting well recently, its work and work and still work. Feeling kinda drainning now. Just as i thought my roadshow nightmare was over, i was inform i got another roadshow to attend on fri! argh! this is madness!
So many outstanding stuffs, so little time, that's terrible!

Have quite a few pics to post but simply no time to do it. That's bad, i hope i can do it soon. Nonetheless i'm getting less patience recently, lack of rest is the main cause i think, ok u might think its excuses, but its up to u to think, shant argue about it. I was having roadshow ytd, The humidity of the place doesnt help my grumpy mood. ok let me get some background information of this roadshow, basically its a co-thingy between FAS and our bank. It was reported in newspaper if u guys did come across it, so yup basically the main aim is to promote our local soccer, Singapore Cup final and promote our bank which is the title sponsor for local football. We have games in this roadshow and one of the game attract huge crowds, that is the kick-a-ball-in-the-hole game. Every hole represent a prize, so if u manage to kick a ball into a hole representing the 20" LCD TV, you walk away with one! (I manage to kick in though but well i'm the bank staffs, not entitled man! BAD!) Everyone has three chances to kick into the hole they want, if you cant put the ball in you still walk away with Singapore Cup tickets and Hari Raya green packet. In other words, you will definately win and walk away with something as long as you participate.

Though we state that one game for one person, i still see ppl trying for many times and they still dare to tell you that its only their first try. We can recognise faces man dumbo!
Kicking a ball can be hard for most of the girls so we actually allows ladies to throw the ball rather than kicking it. I got one guy who came over and ask me this "Oh If a man wear a skirt than he will be able to throw the ball lah?" I was getting agitate by the humidity, crowds and here comes a so call "intelligent" guy popping this kind of stupid qns to me. We already state very clearly that only girls, ladies are allow to throw the ball instead. Doesnt this simple english not good enough to make some sense in his brain. I mean ONLY GIRLS AND LADIES! A man who wear a skirt is still a man, he doesnt become a girl or a lady by wearing a skirt. OH man! is he an idiot or just wanna crank up a corny joke. That's real stupid! I answer him very bluntly and then he ask my other colleague why am i so agrressive with the way i answer. Oh well too bad for him, if he thinks he is trying to be funnie asking this kind of qns, then i'll will answer him in a sarcastic way, that's me, too bad for him.

I also got a lady asking me how to throw, is it using hands!? I was like huh? you mean you can throw with your legs or head. Of cos you throw with your hands. Tell me abt it man, anyone here heard or see anyone that say i'm gonna throw a ball using my leg? i mean you kick a ball with your legs, you throw a ball with your hands, and you head a ball with your head. Isnt it obvious enough when we say throw means you throw with your hands. Oh gosh, ok maybe i'm just impatient, but hey when you got this ppl asking you weird qns when you not feeling that good, you will get this kind of reaction.

I got another guy asking me if he fill up his particular and he dont wanna play the game (kick-a-ball-in-a-hole game) can he get the tickets, then i say ok, can. I then pass him 2 tickets and then he tell me urm.. wait just let me kick the ball first. I was like huh! wat! U told me that u dont wanna play game and now u say u wanna kick the ball first. Isnt the game all abt kicking ball??? ridiculously weird ppl!

Got so many weird, funny ppl ard in Singapore, i guess i shall stop here before it seems like i'm trying to have personal attack on them and then when they come acoss my blog, they threaten to take legal action on me.
Its kinda weird when a personal blog can backfire on you. oh well, my blogs is for me to reminisce of my past, my friends to read it, if other non-invited ppl came across and read it then so be it lah, why get it so complicated by the governance of media act or public entertainment act.

I think soon i shall impose a password for my blog. Freedom of speech in Singapore, think again man!

4 A's in a relationship

2005-10-10T15:30:00.000+08:00

Attended a colleague's wedding on Saturday. It was held in Hilton hotel, high tea reception (church wedding). The food was nice, the main event was better. My colleague look so much prettier that day than any other normal working day. Though she is tired due to all the ceremonies, she still looks good with the make-up and in her gown. No wonder ppl always says a gal always look the prettiest on her wedding day. It makes me ponder how dearie would look like when she dresses in gown. Hmmm.... *ponder ponder ponder...

I feel very happy for my colleague, i mean yes its a happy occasion, but its also means a whole new lease of life awaiting. Its always nice to see both loving couple exchanging vows and preparing to live up to all those fairy tales stories. I wish her a happy and blissful marriage! =)

I beginning to think of what i should do during my big day, where will it be held at things like that, ytd when i meet my dearie, i wanted to settle down, but at the back of my mind i know that i'm not financially stable, though we love each other so much, i still feel we should still give each other more times, i have yet to finalise whether should i "chiong" for my career or just have a balance lifestyle, there's still so many outstanding things i have yet to decide and accomplish, Other than that, she's not even classified as adult in the eyes of government(She's not even 21 !) so I guess i should wait until both of us are more prepared. =)

*Good choice i guess, thumbs up ;)

Anyway during the ceremony, the pastor brings out the ingredient for Love, more for a marriage life. I thought it is very relevant and important for any relationship and not just for marriage couple, and i gonna type what i felt for each of the ingredient the pastor mention, and i hope by sharing it now, maybe could help whatever ppl whom are reading this.

ACCEPTANCE
In a relationship, we must learn to accept one another, only then we can go further. Most of the times, we are worlds apart, or should i just simply say we are different, Maybe that's the reason why ppl always say opposite attract, but whatever the case, it is important to accept one another flaws and come out with a compromise.
There are no two identical person in this world, even the character of a twins are different, so learn to accept one another.

APPRECIATION
In a relationship, we should learn to appreciate one another. We should never take for granted of the things our spouse or our partner do for us. A simple "thank you" could even help a long way. As the word implies, Appreciate means "To raise in value or price, especially over time." Therefore the more you appreciate your spouse or your partner, the more important your other spouse or partner would feel over time, nobody would want to feel unimportant in a relationship, so by appreciating, it would help both parties.

AFFECTION
We have to show affection in our relationship, correct me if i am wrong for up to this point in time i still do not know of any couple could survive a relationship without physical touch, as in not even the least of holding hand or kissing. We human beings are all affection creatures. We love to be caress, "sayang', cuddle, hug etc. Nonetheless the more the frequency of affection we show to our spouse, the more they feel loved.

ATTENTION
We've come to the last part of the 4 A's, that is attention. Anyone here hate attention??? No one? of cos, In fact all of us, from young to old loves attention. Sometimes, young kids do certain things to attract their parents attention. How often have you heard your child, your newphew, your close friend's child says " Hey dad (mummy), look at me, i know how to do this, i know how to do that." How many times have we heard, read on newspaper that most juvenile cases are as a result of lack of attention from the parents to their children. Likewise, in a relationship, we are always craving for attention from our partners. A simply sentence like "You look so beautiful in the dress today" or "You look so smart in that suit" reallie makes the day for anybody.
Girls love their partner who pay attention to the little details of their appearance. anybody disagree? i guess almost all bfs or husband in the world agrees with me. Likewise for guys, we also do craves for attention from our gf, because we are just simply human!

So much for the 4 A's. I'm not trying to sounds like a relationship guru or whatsoever, but more like a sharing session. It's also give me a good time to reflect on my own relationship. I guess anybody who understand these 4 A's will reallie score well in their own relationship.

Lastly, Do it not because it is being practise and thus have to follow, but rather do it because you love your partner. For me, I do all the 4 A's because i love my Joanne. =)

2005-10-07T10:20:00.000+08:00

Woke Up with puffy eyes, heavy head............ argh! I badly need a rest..... E'nuff said.............

2005-10-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

It's a busy day in the morning, was busy opening new accounts, and boss was impressed at the no. of account i help the bank open today. Hmmm... pretty good, must maintain good impression, my variable bonus depends on him! Hahahah....
Anyway was so busy till during lunch time, i got a call to ask to go back office to attend to a customer, haiz.... just cant have lunch in peace man.

After Lunch time was much better, able to switch to relax mood. Didnt fix any appointment and i also not intending to make any calls or fix any appt, just wanna R & R. =)

Oh well, my english speaking skills was kinda crap today, just cant seems to talk properly, half way tru the conversation, chinese or singlish would just pop out. Sentence structure everything was crap too. I mean i'm not that kind that would overly obsessed with the way i speak, but i hate it when i cant seems to express myself clearly with well-structure sentence. I hate myself sometimes, my mind always dont function well if i dont have a proper rest, or when i'm too tired. I think i better train up the side of my brain that control my speech. I want to be eloquent man!

Just recieve news in the late afternoon that i would be off for a business trip next week, not bad for a newbie like me, able to get to go overseas in such a short period in the company. Kinda excited! who's not man if its anyone first oversea business trip. Its gonna be a 3 days 2 night thingy, working + Shopping! I love going overseas for FREE!

Gonna have a in-house trainning tml and sat, hiaz... boring boring boring....

I sound like a deejay????

2005-10-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

Its been a long while since i last post anything in my blog, but i believe most of you will start not to believe me what i'm gonna write, cos for me i dont belief that either when i first heard from someone.

I have a meeting with one of my female customer today in the afternoon, mid way during our conversation, she told me i can become a deejay because my voice was soothing and nice to hear. Oh my did i heard wrongly? Why did she all of a sudden say such things, did she get turn on by my voice or wat? Didnt know i got such a powerful voice.... hahaha... oh well that's the first someone ever say such thing, it makes me ponder ...... maybe .. just maybe i should one day become a deejay???

* Thank you for listening to XXX fm, its been great to have you listner tuning in to my show, up next is blah blah blah song, i'm signing off here, have a nice day and enjoy the music...............the Melody of the song comes in.....

Happy Birthday to me!

2005-09-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

I cant wait to pen down my thoughts today. As i'm typing in my office, i cant help but to keep smiling when i start to recall the things that happen over the weekend.

I think its gonna be a real long entry....

For those who dont know, it was my bday on Sat. My 24th year in this world. I was in terrible mood few days before my bday. I do not know what's the reason. I was feeling so very down on the eve of my bday. I'm not least excited over my bday, i'm not sure whether is it because due to work stress or what. i was downright moody, even my colleague was like eh.. why u so sianz ah.. yr bday coming leh. I was like er... dont know leh... feeling low, feeling moody, then i say maybe i PMS! =p

Things change when darling came over to my house. I started to feel better. Hmm... maybe i just miss her too much as i havent been seeing her for quite sometimes as she was preparing for her exam. Oh well before going in details what happen after my darling came to my house, let me write something that happen before she came.

Back in office. Things was pretty normal, was quite busy in the morning on fri as i need to attend a roadshow. Anyway was pretty surprise when my close colleague just hand me a bday pressie. It was a Raoul cufflink, didnt expect anything cause i didnt bought anything for him for his bday. Was feeling so guilty. Anyway still very much appreciated by his gesture. Always wanted to get something from Raoul, their shirts are nice, and their cufflinks not too bad either. Well i'm lucky enough to get a Raoul cufflinks from him. Many thanks man! =)

As i was saying, i was feeling kinda moody. I should be feeling damm excited but i wasnt, dont know what got in my mind. Meet customer and go through documents as usual. Then i receieve a call from my another colleague. Asking me whether i'm free and do i have a meeting later or something. Sensing that a imminent meeting was on the card, i just replied that i will be meeting a customer ard 6pm, hoping it would just clashes with the so called 'meeting' as i do not intend to stay back after office hour. I hate to stay back after office hour as it always make me feel sick! Hang up the phone with her and get back to work, not long after, she call my department colleague saying that our boss wanna talk to us, ask both of us to go up to his office and look for him. I was like omg... not another long meeting or some lecture from him. I was like already feeling so down and the thoughts of the meeting with my boss was not making me feel any better.
So off we went, then when i reach the office, i was greeted with a bday cake, and my colleague just say hahaha... blah u one! *oh what a surprise! didnt expect them to celebrate for me as i wasnt a permanent staff yet. Nonetheless was happy that they bought me a bday cake, never have a corporate bday celebration, so this was my virgin experience! hahaha.... ok, anyway after that, it still didnt reallie lift up my mood, i told u guys i dont know what affected me, i just feel low at that pt in time. Anyway if you thought my surprise stop here then you pretty wrong. It was the beginning of the many surprise i gonna get late in the night.

So after knock off, walk to the train station and begin my journey home. Was kinda hoping that my mood will become better when i meet my darling later. Well i was right as i really did feel better when i see her. So i think her presence reallie help! =) i wonder whether is she the potion for my mini depression. hahaha...

She told me beforehand that she wouldnt be staying overnight on fri, but she will doing so on sat. Was kinda feeling sad but well was thinking at least one day is better than nothing. Anyway back at home, we just chit chat, and do our normal stuffs and as usual i always enjoy her company.

Then when the clock struck twelve midnight, she say its kinda late and said she has to go home. Of cos i was sad as all along i was hoping for her to stay over. Nonetheless i know her own curfew back home so i didnt say much and get ready to send her home. Little did i know she has things all planned out.

Suddendly she just call me to come into the room, not sensing anything wrong despite noticing that light was not on in my room, i just walk in. I was so surprise when i was greeted by a small cake that have a lighted-candle on it, and then the soothing tune of happy birthday song sang by my darling. I was touched, really lost for words at that moment. It was such a surprise and i just love that moment. After that she feed me with the small piece of bday cake. I was expecting to send her home after finishing the cake, and then she told me she is staying tonight. I was like wahahahah.. yippe yeah she's staying ! and then i scream hor! you bluffed me! and exclaim that she's gonna get it from me! hahahah... nonetheless i'm just so overwhelmed by the surprise. after that she handed me my bday present, it was a snoopy boxer, which has snoopy picture in front and the words "I'M THE KING OF THE HILL!" behind. It was a lovely boxer! very nice!

On Saturday, which is my bday, we just laze ard in my house and then i went coaching late in the afternoon. When i come back, i was being told that my sister present is hidden in my room. I manage to find it and also find another present from my darling. I was pretty surprise because i thought my snoopy boxer was the only present from her, little did i know she got another present for me. I was very happy and touched. It's not the quantity or the cost of the present, but rather the thought of it. I believe she spend a huge fortune on my bday and the things is that she is very broke now. I wonder where she get the money to buy the present despite being so poor and broke. i'm happy, touched and at the same time guilty by all the things she has done and spend for my bday .

I couldnt thank her enough, she made my day, she made my big day such a memorable one to remember. After the cutting cake session late in the night, i open my presents from my parents, my sis and my darling. Almost every single year i will spend my bday with my family, call me a family man, whatever you like, my family, parents is the most important thing in my life. Darling dont be jealous by the statement ok, because i have regard you as part of my family. =)

Guess what i receive for my bday. You guys wouldnt believe, i recieve cufflinks from my parents! my darling also give me an imported cufflinks and if you guys read earlier my colleague also give me a cufflinks. Hahhaha... all of a sudden, my cufflinks collection expanded by so much! =) Ok, if you think it is alright, 2 weeks before my bdays, i just imported two more sets of cufflinks! all of a sudden i am flooded with cufflinks! hahahahah

It was a memorable bday for me, i could not thank my darling enough for all the things she done for my bday. To top it off, she sang this song "FOREVER LOVE" to me. What a lovely song, the lyrics was especially sweet when she sings it. I think i'm gonna get diabetics soon. =p

I think its getting too long, and i need to get back to work. Have upload the song and will post the pics soon. =)

*Gleaming with joy now =) lalalalaaala........

Sickly..

2005-08-31T10:55:00.000+08:00

Have been sick for the past 1 week. Was feeling so terrible last week, and the best part was i have a competition on last Sunday. I was hoping i can rest and recover in time for my competition, but it didnt turn out that way. Was still sick, however still choose to go for competition. I know its not that good for the health, but well, the team needs me and i'm the backbone of the team, so i have to go. Didnt manage to do real well (as expected), however did well enough to collects a few medals and win the overall Mens champion category.

Dear was reallie sweet, came over and see me and bought essense of chicken for me. Mind you she buy it when she herself couldnt even afford a proper meal herself, she has to skim and save, that's how poor she is now.

Tml is 1st of sep.... few more days, in fact 10 more days before i gonna celebrate my bday! wahhhahahha... Happy happy!

This year feeling is different from last year. And for my closer friend out there, you will know exactly what happen, Thanks tingz for being there during that period of time =) Anyway i'm all well and fine, and i'm so excited to celebrate my bday this year with somebody special. No prizes for guessing who's the person =p

Gonna be a real busy day in office again.

*off to work, boss lurking...... hahahahhaha

Mom's Bday

2005-08-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to my beloved Mom!

I decided to go back and take a look at what did i post last year on my mom's bday. And then I realise that my blog is actually 1 year and 7 days old! keke~ That's pretty fast leh!

Last year didnt reallie spend much on my mom because i'm a poor lad. This year, though i'm still a poor lad, i'm in a much better financial position as compare to last year. I always willingly to spend money on my parents provided i got the money lah. Because to me, my parents means the whole world to me, without them it would jolly well means without me, and i know how much they went tru just to bring me up. I always thought to myself, if one day i have the financial capability, i will definately have them relax and enjoy their retirement days. Life is short and i only have one parent, i just want to provide as much as i can possible.

I treat my mom plus family, dear and my small aunt to Yuki Yaki. It was great to see all of us enjoying the fun of making ice-cream. With my sis, giggling throughout the whole thing! hahahaha... Had an assumptious meal and ice-cream making. Bought a cake and dear bought pressie for my mom as well.
Spend quite a big amount on my mom this year but i guess she deserve it. Thanks for her loving care all this years. She can scream, shout , nag at me, but i still love who she is. =)

I realise my "ang mo" today a bit weird, pardon me for my sentece structure ah... got no time to edit or think properly. Been real busy with all the stuffs, hardly having a breathe. Hopefully things will be better next week!

anyway i got my Gucci specs lioaz.... Looks pretty good on me.... ok that's not self-praise, at least that the comments from alot of people.

Will post some pictures soon, for now.... gtg off and finish some of my stuffs...

*poof*

Quick Updates

2005-08-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

Just got back home after coaching. Life has been busy recently, so much so that dear has been complainning abt it! Sorry dear, thanks for your understanding =)

Work is starting to pile up recently. There's pro and cons to it. Of course the pro outweight the cons.... Busy means that i got more cases, more cases means more commission! hahaha.... beside commission, it also reflect well that i'm working hard, if not my boss would start to question why he hired me in the first place.

Oh well, will be having test on Monday! Just when i thought i wouldnt need to take test after i completed my degree, now my bank ask me to go and take this Anti-Money Laundering test, my gosh! i need to study through this 50 pages of notes! Boring shit man!

Well, now trying hard to earn as much money as possible, thus i have been busy working and coaching. Guess, somehow i have to reallie manage my time reallie well, cause i dont wish to neglect my dear too much. Repeating my past mistake will be foolish, so i'm a better Kelvin from now on =)

Recently, half of my face is splashing across newspaper, bus stop stands, taxi stands.... Its because i am the model for my bank lastest product, Trio account (its a current account). For those who reallie interested in growing your money in the bank. Please put in a bank account that gives you high interest rate. For my bank, we givin very high interest and on top of that free cheque book. There are also many other fantastic offer from my bank, ranging from loans to investment, so if u guys need anything, just feel free to give me a call man! i will be gladly at yr service! keke~

Ytd, went to make a specs for myself. Couldnt reallie "tahan" wearing contacts lens the whole day so decided to make a new specs. Been wearing contact lens all this while, cause my current spec kinda cannot make it lioaz. Dear accompanied me to the place and we finally decided to get a Gucci frameless specs. Guess i should look pretty professional when i wear that to work, ahhaahhaha
Its gonna be two weeks later before i could get my Gucci spec, hmmm... cant wait for it to be ready man!

Upload this new song today, Hen Xiang Ni. Its for my precious dear, hope she knows that i'm missing her right now.

Ok, need to go and study, read through my notes, dont wanna fail the test on Monday man!

2005-08-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

Saw a few shots of Sunday President Star Charity show. Again, as like many charity show, we get to witness many unfortunate souls living in this world. We are aware that there are far too many less fortunate people around us. If we only live life once, then wouldnt it be so very unfair.

I wonder why some people get to enjoy such a good life, such good fortune, while some live life so shabbily. Some spend so much money that others dont even get to earn that amount of money in a lifetime. Some have so much food to eat to keep them full while some dont even have the strength to fend off houseflies "nesting" on their body.

If it's like what those christian people says, god are trying to test you to live up to the difficulties that you face while you living on earth. The test of individual strength and character. Then i wonder why some people deserve to go through such a horrid time where they cant even have strength to fend off houseflies "nesting" on their body and why some people deserve to go through such a rich and famous lifestyle, where they can get whatever things they want because they have money!

This is life in Planet Earth, and i'm luckily enough that i'm living life far more comfortable than alot of people, but seriously what did we do previously that choosen us to be born in certain environment, certain families.

I guess i shouldnt be thinking so much and i should just say what others has been famously saying. " THIS IS LIFE "

Some thought on the show 'The Island"

2005-07-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i update my blog regularly, so since i'm a little bit more free, i shall pen down some of my thoughts.

Watch "The Island" ytd with dear, for those who havent catch it, i shall try to summarize the whole show.
Basically it talks about Human clones. Clones whose only purpose is to provide "spare parts" for their original human counterparts (Sponsor). All clones lives in a place where strict regime have to be followed. They are told, "brain-wash" that they are saves from death, they are brought over to where they are staying to aviod containmination of the Planet Earth. By staying at where they are staying and by following what they have been instructed and follow their strict regime, they will not be containminated. Any containmination will lead to quarantine. All clones have the mentality of a small kid and would be taught intelluctually up to the age of 15 years old. They have one purpose of living in that place, and that one purpose is to go to "The Island" - reportedly the last uncontaminated spot on Planet Earth through a "fair" lottery system every day/week.
All clones believes their main purpose of existence is to hope they can strike the lottery so as to go to the dream Island-last uncontaminated spot on Planet Earth. Only one clone name Lincoln Six-Echo soon discovers that everything about this whole experience is a lie.

I'm pretty disturb by the whole plot of the story here. Maybe i think too much, isnt this exactly what we are exactly craving for, ok maybe for most people out there. That is almost all of us would want to go to Heaven when we die. Most of us were hoping to strike "lottery" to go to heaven. Most resort to believe in Jesus Christ, because many claims or should i say he himself claim he's the only path to god, to heaven. Wait a min, before i carry on any further here, i would like to make a stand that I'm not trying to critize christianity or any other religion.

I always believe that a religion are there because it preaches good things, asking us to do the right thing and not the wrong thing. Buddhist religion came from Buddha, and almost all religion were pass down by a person. Even christianity were pass down by Jesus Christ. Have anyone wonder all religion preach the same thing and from a person pt of view????

Most christian believe the only way to god, to heaven is through Jesus, because he died for our sins. Most christian believes blindly to the religion and most of them condem other religion. They always think that they are the only real one and they are superior against all other religion.

Please i'm not going into details of things like does anyone knows exactly how old is earth, i believe planet earth is thousand or even million years old before the birth of dinosaurs era, and to think that we human races are million years after them. Then where is the existence of god!? I'm not saying there is no god, but i'm curious, and i question whethere does god reallie exist, and whether the so called heaven and hell does really exist? and question why are there so many blind faith christian. Whatever reasons they(christian) come out, they would always state because the bible say this, because the bible say that.

What makes them so sure that whatever the bible say is the truth? and let me pose this question, who created language? why do we call cat a cat, and why cant we call cat a dog or some other names. i hope at this junction, you readers are still with me. I seriously wonder what make christian soooo sure that whatever the bible says is the truth. Most christian wasnt around when the bible was wrote. Like we wasnt around when language was first created. Does speaking different languages means we are different? does speaking english make you more superior that if you speak chinese or other language? The answer is we are still human beings even though we speaks different language, we are still not superior than anyone if we speaks different language. So, why are some of those christian belives that their religion is the best and superior than any other religion?

I believe almost all religion says that if we do good things we would be granted a passage to heaven. The main purpose of living is to do good things and then we will go to heaven. Isnt this what the whole movie "the island" is trying to say? We are trying to be as clean as possible "not containminated" so that we can win lottery to go heaven (a paradise) - "the island" (last wonderful place on earth). Those never do good things are containminated and will be quarantine --> (go to hell instead of heaven)

Most christian are brain-wash by the fact of the bible and most christian believes they are the superior than any other religion. They believes that they are not contaminated and they would therefore stand a chance of going to heaven by believing in christianity. All believer of other religions are contaminated in the sense, and would therefore be quarantine or in another words not be allow to go to heaven. They will have to believe in christianity (decontaminated themselves) so as to have a chance of strike lottery (go heaven).

To those blind faith christian, pls dont blindly believe in your faith and keep insisting your religion is the most superior and the only way to god/heaven. Please give respect to other religion where they also preach us human beings to do good things.

Basically i believe all religions give us a piece of mind, and teaches us to do good things.

If everybody go to heaven, then where is heaven? and wouldnt heaven be overcrowded?
If like what most christianity people always say if u believe in jesus and if we pray for you under jesus then you can actually go to heaven. My question is please pray to those dead ants, mosquitoes, crockroaches, etc so that they too will then be able to go to heaven, they are afterall living things too.

I'm not trying to ridicule christianity, but i hope most christian could respect other religion.

well, I hate to believe that when we die, we will leave this world forever, leaving this world for good, leaving behind all those wonderful things that we have work so hard to achieve during our stay in earth. I'm scared at the thought of death. I think there are too many things to do and so little time left. But please do realise that we are no different to ants, mosquitoes, animals, birds, trees, because you have to understand that we are all part of the Nature in this Planet Earth.

Well i believe i'm having a intellectual of fifteen years in terms of understanding Planet Earth, and maybe, just maybe, the curiosity of this whole issue in Planet earth making me act like Lincoln Six-Echo.

word for thought

2005-07-27T13:40:00.000+08:00

Its been a real long time since i last update. I guess to my readers it's pretty unfair that whenever you guys come in, you will go off feeling bored as there are no new entry. Apologies for that.

Anyway have been real busy, so much things to do, feeling so bad that i havent reallie have time for my dearie as well, and i thank her for her understanding. Anyway since its lunch time now, i think i should type something. It's just something that i realise today and have been a culprit of many times.

Word for thought.

Meaning of "Gift"
-Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation.
-The act, right, or power of giving.
-A talent, endowment, aptitude, or inclination.

If gifts are given free, then why are we still hearing people says "free gifts"
"come and collect your free gifts"?????

Something to let you ponder for the day. =)

2005-07-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

What a relaxing sunday today! *Smilez =)

It just bring back memories of me being able to laze around at home and do whatever i wanna do and not feeling so uptight abt time. Well, its always good to keep some time to myself. I think everybody need that extra time for their own personal space. I finally able to go back to my "cave" and i feel so much relax right now and i'm all ready to go to work tml. =)

Alot of things happen recently. Guess i shall try to summarise everything.
My parents are back! Yup. They had a tiring but enjoyable trip. Guess being singaporean, our defination of holiday are pretty different from the ang mo. For us singaporean or should i say asian, when we go for holiday, we tend to tired ourselves by going ard shopping for good stuffs, rushing here and there to visit famous places. At the end of the whole trip, we would feel more tired than relax and we had to take an extra day as a result just so we can relax and recharge for work.

For the ang mo, most of them would actually sit by the pool side or some places to relax. Pick up a book to read while sun-tanning, that's basically their basic agenda during holiday. You seldom see or should i say will never see an asian siting by a pool side reading a book during his/her holiday. That's prolly why ang mo feel more recharge whenever they went for a holiday while we asian feel even more tired after every holiday. =p

Anyway my dad bought alot of stuffs back, from souvernirs to some very interesting things from China. He also bought beijing roasted duck back!!! hahaha... Anyway i receive a advance birthday gift from him. A mont blanc briefcase. Ohhh ... i love it so much... it so nice! It so nice till i cant bare to use it.

Mont Blanc Briefcase

Well.. the second day after my parents came back, my dad suddendly become very sick. It reallie scare the shit out of me. I cant remember when was the last time i see him so sick before. It make me ponder on alot alot of things. My creative mind become to think of alot of negative scenerios, i'm not a pessimistic person but i'm just so worried abt everything related to my family. To think when i reach home, he was alright and then all of a sudden, he suddendly become so sick. Luckily it was nothing fatal, can you imagine if something happen, i think i can just break down.

I read and hear alot of this kind of cases where family members just pass away all of a sudden, and their immediate family was so shock to do anything/react. What i feel upon hearing all this cases was feeling sad for them and that's abt it. But when i face with such a close situation tt day, i was totally dumbfounded, i keep praying that my dad would recover. I would definately break down, i'm just not prepared to handle all the pressure, all the responsibility if anything happen to my dad. Luckily for me, my dad is fine. I'm so thankful he recovered. In that instance, i also realise that life is so so so so fragile. You can never forsee what's gonna happen in that next minute.

Let's not think abt this matter for the time being. I'm not prepared and i guess i'm never prepared. I love my family, my parents so much, i cant make myself think of the day they gonna leave me. i'm a coward regarding this. i'm just so very afraid..........

i think i better move away from this topic before i couldnt control myself.

Anyway let's saviour whatever positive moments in our life. Life just too short.
Well dear bought a guess watch for me. The watch that i have been eyeing at every since last year. Dont know what sparks her to buy that watch for me despite not earning. Its like almost her one month allowance.

Guess watch

Hmm... guess that's the power of love bah... hahahaha...... Anyway i love the watch and i love her even more. Though i think it's pretty silly for her to spend so much money, and she gonna lead a frugal life after that but i reallie touched and appreciate by her effort.

She has been a great gf, not because she bought that expensive watch for me, but for all the things that she has done over the months. She has been very caring, understanding, enduring all these months. I guess i'm so blessed to have her around. I dont know what i did to deserve such a wonderful person, but i thank god that she's mine. =)
Aint know exactly what our future lies, but i hope i'm able to walk this journey together with her for a long long time. =)

Us

*All photos are taken by courtesy of my SE k750i

New phone - k750i

2005-06-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

I got myself another latest gadget! =) That's SE k750i. The phone come with auto-focus lens (2mega pixel), function just like any normal digital camera. Good stuffs! Radio, mp3, bluetooth, infra-red, and lots more.....It's small and pack with alot of wonderful function. =)

Compare to my old nokia 7710 (pda phone), it like david vs goliath, hahahah .. Anyway i have just sold my phone. I loss quite a fair bit, but its like expected because Pda phone are normally harder to sell away. Moreover i bought it when its first launch, definately will incurr losses if i sell it now. Nonetheless my current phone is so good and small as compare to my "big elephant" where i find it so bulky when i put in my pants small pocket or when i'm holding it.

Anyway gonna send my parents off at the airport later. They going to CHINA!!! Ok, prolly u guys think it's no big deal, but to me even though i'm almost finish travelling ard asia region, i have yet been to China. so....... yup.. one fine day, i make sure i'll go there!
Feel so excited for them. I mean they work so hard all their lives, it's always good to take a little time off and enjoy themselves overseas. =)

*ok.. gonna play with my phone now.... *snap snap snap... keke

2005-06-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

Life been pretty normal for me compare to most of the Singaporeans.

Woke up ard 7 plus, reach office at 9am, and then stay till 6.30pm before rushing off to Temasek Polytechnic to coach the swim team / lifesaving team. Only theoritically end work at about close to 9pm. Oh man! i work 12 hours!!! That's gonna happen for like thrice a week, which leave me only 4 free days in a week (two weekdays free), but i have vocal classes on thursday, saturday which we oredi started recording for the album. I'm one big culprit who havent been reallie go down. Guess will wait for them to write me a piece of my solo piece before i reallie go down more often. *guilty guilty

Guess that's pretty much working life.... hardly have enough time for ppl ard me. I used to have alot of time, but now i have to try to find time. How ironic is tt. I wonder what lies ahead for me and my dearie, since we only left basically tuesday, sat and sunday for us to meet up. I mean i can meet her up on any normal day in the week but i have to make sure i wont be tired or look tired the next day as i need to meet clients. Oh well... tt's life ah.... and i guess that would pretty much carry on for years.

Suddendly it set me thinking what am i doing in life, what i reallie wanna do, what i reallie wanna be, what i reallie see in life? what kind of life would i wanna be living, thousands of qns just awaiting for my brains to solve. oh well i guess, its gonna be sometime before i would really figure it out, or would i ever gonna figure it out -_-???

Anyway celebrate Father's day on Saturday instead of Sunday , so as to avoid being slash by those horrendous prices charge by those companies. But then i guess somehow it didnt make any difference. For the first time in my life, i brought my family out for dinner. For the first time in 23 years, my dad's lovely son gonna treat him a wonderful feast. I guess he was happy, very happy in fact. He couldnt hide his delight, the look in his eyes told me he's gleaming with joy, his eyes just betrayed him. He was proud but happy at the same time. Come to think again, who dont wish that their son could gave parents money, treat them dinner, give money to them to go on holiday. While many wish, few actually got it. So for my dad to finally able to enjoy that feast was something he waited for 23 years i guess. And finally, i feel that i did something as a son.
Everyone was happy, i'm happy as well. $200 bucks was all it takes to cap a memorable first father's day celebration dinner for my family.

I think somehow, i have to curb my spending.... Ok, i boughts clothes ytd and today, and some other stuffs needed for my work. I calculated, i have spend ard $450 so far in just three short days. Its like averaging $150 a day. That's more like what i earn for a day! and to think i have more things to buy. I need a spectacle badly, i need a watch, a guess watch of cos (something that i have eye for like dont know since when) anyway its look good on my formal clothes, ok , at least that what i think.

I think somehow i have to stop myself from getting suck in into the rat race. As i notice that once i earn more - more residual income, i tend to spend more, i tend not to think so much abt money. That's kinda bad, i need to learn from mistakes, i need to learn to save money for the rainy days. I mean being an ex insurance agent, i'm aware of the high rising medical cost and hospital cost. I need to get prepare for all this. Yes, i might need it yet, but as a only son in the family, i need to support my family in the event anything happen to my parents. I'm so afraid, very afraid, the need to earn more money and to get protected seems very much in my priority list now. It's no longer fun to grow older, its like there so many burden, responsibilities to take care. Its that what we call life??

Hmm..... guess i need to sleep now, sounding so pessimistic at the moment. That's like so unlike me yea....

The moment i wake up tml, i should feel must better, more fresh, and i'm just so excited to go to work!

*Do ignore the last part, typing while i was closing my eyes..... utter rubbish!

Working life....

2005-06-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

Recieve a call ytd, seems like Citib*** reallie wants me to work for them! wahhahah.. feel so priviledge and honours, they even wanted to wait for me for 1 month... Oh well never feel so wanted in my life before! it sure feels good man! keke~ Too bad i choose to accept another job offer. =) Well probably will move to Citib*** in near future bah. =)

Today nearly fall asleep during a trainnin session in my company. Back in my poly days, I never able to concentrate properly during my 2 hr tutorial, attended lectures only fortnightly or even less. During my degree course, it was kinda worse, and it was no surprise that today i was fidgeting like mad on my chair trying to stay awake and alert for that bloody 6-7 hrs of trainning (meeting). Welcome to the corporate world!!! I wonder will i have to get use to this kind of thing. I look so stone, even the manager sitting next to me was aware of tt! hahahaa.... oh well i think those managers cant take it also, and they kinda pity me when they saw my stonney look. =p

Overall working life's in my coy not too bad la, probably its still pretty much in the honeymoon stage bah, when everything settle down, everything and everybody will start to show their true colors?!??!!?!?....

Anyway I got my notebook! woooo.... solid man.. no need to buy..... wanted to buy a notebook ever since dont know when, and now i do not need to pay a single cent for it! its all provided! Steady pomp pi pi man! Guess that's one of the benefit of working for my company! Coolz~

Guess there still many other perks ard, will slowly find out and utilise it. Right now i'm gonna try to plan my MC leaves and my annual leaves........ hahahahahah~
i'm a calculative employee......*grinz

Dear is coming back tml..... finally something for me to look forward to tml!!!! Yeah.... I bet you wouldnt wanna see my happy face now! ahahahahahaha

*Dear , I'm Waiting for you......

I'm waiting for you...

2005-06-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

2 more days to go!!!

I'm so happy to hear her voice despite knowing she is nowhere near me, but its rather comforting to know she's fine and enjoying herself. I dont wanna her to spend too much money on phonecalls, i would prefer her to use the money to buy nice things over at HK for herself, but then again, i miss her and i miss her voice. I know i'm contradicting myself. Oh well... guess i'm always like tt.... =p

i'm waiting for her to come back. 2 more days.... Gambatte yo!!! ;)

Feeling weird

2005-06-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

On my way home after my coaching. On the radio in my car, feeling weird throughout the whole journey home. Feel like a small part of my heart is being chip off. Wait, i'm not having some heart problem or whatsoever, it's just that i'm missing someone and that someone is my darling of cos.

I guess my life revolve ard her bah, i spend most of my time with her other than my work of cos, and suddendly she's not ard, my time schedule just feel not so right. Oh well guess she has slowly become part of my life, a very important part that is. I guess sometimes u need this little bit of seperate period to aware u not taking yr partner for granted.

Guess absent make the heart goes fonder, oh wait a min..... tt apply only if that's short period of time, cause if absent for too long a time say years or so...... it will more likely make the heart goes dull / feelingless rather than feeling fonder.

Whether u agree or disagree, that's just a personal opinion. =)

Dear Going HONG KONG

2005-06-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

My dearie went to Hong Kong ytd, So happy for her, because it;s her first time leaving for that place. Hope she will enjoy herself while i'm here missing her.

Wanted to go over there with her, but spend quite a big sum when i was away in australia and also need to work so its just not the right time! hiaz.....

Its gonna be another 5 more days before i will see her =)
I torture her with 2 weeks of waiting when i was in australia, now she's giving me back the same treatment but i'm luckier because it's shorter duration! keke~ *grinz

Oh well its coaching again later and Inter-con swim meet tml. My whole sunday is burn again.......

*counting down the days.... =)

Welcome to Madagascar

2005-06-09T10:28:00.000+08:00

I like to move it, move it
He like to move it, move it
She like to move it, move it
You like to ................. MOVE IT!

Welcome to Madagascar =)

Finally catch that show after so long =p Oh well, e show pretty funny but i think Roborts still much a better show than this.

Gonna be a Personal Banker @ a bank real soon, guys if u need any financial services, personal loan, housing loan, investment give me a buzz yeah....

Before i forget, i got an article on Team Singapore website, its already up since like 2 weeks ago, view it before its taken out from the database yea....

Click Here

ENJOY! =)

Arafura Games 2005

2005-06-03T10:00:00.000+08:00

I'm Back! Yup that's like a quite long ago.... =p
Paiseh lah.... Been busy getting stuffs done, spending time with my loves one and trying to get back to normal life again. (ok and of course abit lazy! hee~)

Well, it seems like i'm not very use to my normal life again after a two weeks break, hahaha.... i mean sometimes u enjoy yr holiday so much that you dont even wanna start work again... =p
Just love being carefree and dont bother about money issues... =)

Ok let my recap what's going on for my 12 days trip to Darwin, Australia.

Day 1 and 2

Parted with family and dear @ airport, saw how reluctant dear was when she's letting go my hand, she nearly teared though, oh well i reminded her that she's not suppose to tear easily, anyway her dear dear is gonna do his country proud!!! hahahah =)

Took Qantas plane, the taking off wasnt that smooth, abit afraid that something might happen, CHOI!!! but luckily nothing happen in the end, heng ah!! Finally reach Darwin airport ard 2 plus in the morning. ( australia time about 3 plus going 4, the time difference is abt 1 1/2 hr ). In the airport, there were airport staffs patroling with their trained dogs, the dogs will sniff us and our luggage for suspected meat or drugs!??! yup, the dogs pretty well train cos they never stick out their tongue and lick u, they just use their nose to sniff around. Custom check kinda long cos the australian quite particular about bringing poultry food in or issit any kinda food in!?!? Well finally done with everything and took a group bus to the hotel which were then 5 plus 6 (australian time). I was feeling tired and sleepy and the worse part is we cant check in till like 2pm in the afternoon. It was pure torture waiting ard and cant rest because there simply no place for us to sleep! I was feeling totally exhaust by like 7 plus 8 in the morning. The week before i fly i didnt get to rest well, sleeping like 4-5 hr everyday and did have a trainning session on my own before i go to the airport and then i didnt even get to sleep because of that night flight and that stupid check in time!. gosh! it feels terrible. I nearly collapse when i was walking ard the supermart buying food.
Yup that's how tired i was! After lunch, checking in, spend the rest of the day sleeping in my bed. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz...........
Woke up and had dinner which was prepared by my team mates. Yummy, after that went back to bed again! hahahaha.... i was literally a pig on that day. =p Eat and sleep.
Cant blame me, i was too tired to do anything and need to recuperate before my competition starts!

Day 3

It was the opening ceremony for the Arafura games, not too bad, quite grand, the crowds are great, the atmosphere was good, i feel pump up for the games! yeah!!! =)

Day 4, 5, 6

Spend the rest of those days, go to beach and pool to familiarise the competition place. Meet my competitors, made new friends, their hospitality was great. Did some walking ard the area of our residential. Have fun making breakfast, lunch (if got time), dinner at the hostel there (anyway its a backpackers inn, place). Did have some fun there however the bed sucks! cos it remind me of my army, navy life. However some are the beds are worse than the one i get in my NS life, cos some of those bed were badly out of shape. (sunken bed, can even feel the spring when we lie on the bed) One thing is good at that place is that there is a pool! a very small scale swimming pool, but is good enough for me though! i love water cos i'm a water creature! =)

Day 7

Competition day! It the start of a three day competition, beach competition was first. Didnt reallie do well, anyway beach events are not my cup of tea, anyway my fellow team mates didnt fare to well either, we will like kinda badly trash!?!?!? yup ... that;s the cruel fact though.... well we were determine to make something happen the next day at the pool, in fact i was Determined to make an impression in the pool competition the next day! However i was so shackled by the events i took part in beach. For the first time i feel like my arms are cramping! gosh it never happen to me before. I know i'm in bad shape now, never did i feel so tired before, i need to get rid of those lactic acid in my body. After returning from the competition, i went straight to the hotel pool to warm down. Yup, trying my best to warm down properly so that i can burn off as much lactic acid as possible and trying to loosen up the muscle so as to be more fresh the next day. I was determine to do well and claim a stand for tml competition.

Day 8

Pool competition in the morning! Beach competition again in the evening. Woke up and determine to do my best at the pool. Prepared and ready to go then. Did a personal best (PB)for the first event, miss out the bronze medal by 0.3s, that sucks! Though i did a PB, i know i can do a better time than i clock. Oh well if only we had pool competition as the start of the three day competition. I was feeling not too good before the pool races.
The next event is comin up, i feel like giving up because i was kinda tired and anyway it wasnt the event that i like to swim. However surprisingly during the swim, i found myself leading the pack, and i decided to use a little bit strength instead of slacking and for the last 50m i find myself in medal contention. This shock me and i decided to start to speed up and when i saw my teammates jumping up and down asking me to go faster, i realise i reallie in for a contention for medal chances, i reallie go as fast as i can. Luckily for me i came in third! beating some of the guys by a few microseconds! Phew~ Thanks to my teammates and if only i chiong at the very start of the race, prolly i can get better placing!?!? hahahah... oh well.... that's the first bronze medal for Singapore lifesaving for this arafura games and i'm glad i'm got it. *grinz =)

The team manager were relieve after i got the first medal for our sports, cos at least he got something to write in the report and for me, i'm happy for myself and i will try to get another again for tml pool competition.

Once the pool competition finished, we head back to hotel(hostel) to rest a while before heading to the beach competition which was held at mindil beach. This beach is famous for its night market, which only operates on thurs and sunday night. After the beach competition we went to the night market to walk abit. Just briefly scan tru cos the next day early morning we had our last day of competition which is pool competition.

Day 9

The last day of competition!!! Had some great fun, Was kinda in a more relaxed mood because of my bronze medal ytd, however was looking forward to adding more medals for today competition. Finally manage to claim another bronze medal and surprisingly a gold medal for the last event of the day. =) During the gold medal presentation, finally able to sing our national anthem at the podium as our national anthem was being played. Its been a long time since i last sing national anthem, its almost like 6 years!!! ahhahaa.... to sing at the podium there was great! a proud moment definately! =)

At night, we had a treat from our team manager and coach at a chinese restuarant! yummy! finally some "luxury" food for our stomach, Then its free and easy. Some of us then went over to a Gay and lesbian club to look look see see. Sometimes i hate to go clubbing, cos as usual it is very smoky, and its like not very healthy for my lungs and my eyes teared as a result of those horrendous smoke at tt place. Saw some interesting things and of cos feeling kinda gross when i saw two man kissing and caressing each other. Yukes! pukes!

Day 10

Finally no more competition, it's shopping time!!! hahahaha~ went around to tour around the place and do some shopping. Evening time went for the closing ceremony of the arafura games. The closing was kinda different, is more like a celebration kinda thingy, cos got stage performance and 5 mins plus of fireworks! Didnt stay till the end cos our team went straight to the casino which was just next to the closing ceremony place.
The entrance to the casino is free and as usual is smoky inside due to some smokers smoking heavily in that place. Saw lots of ppl with different expression, some is either stress that they losing or are so excited that they winning quite a fair bit.

Went to play jackpot there, at first i was losing quite badly, more than $10 plus then like some season gambler, i was hopping around those different jackpot machine. That's the theory of some gambler stating that when u win money in that certain jackpot machine, it is time for u to go away or another machine because the jackpot machine is tuned in such a way it will build a hugh money bank before it gives out winning again. Hmmm... so based on this theory, i was reallie hopping around searching for unoccupied jackpot tat didnt give out winning before it was left unoccupied. Not long after, I managed to recoup my loss and earn $1 in profit! ahhaah. That's enough for me, cos i dont wanna lose money .... $1 still a profit yeah... =) Anyway its like kinda late so we decided to go back to our hotel. Took a cab back to our hotel(hostel), Australia cab meter jump faster than compared to our singapore cab, and its more expensive as well. So i think i'm not gonna complained about our Singapore Taxi charges! hahahahah......

Day 11

Went walking around again, and its like kinda the last day of shopping, cos the next day there wont be any time to travel and shop. Boughts souvenirs and foods, yup food, cos some of those food flavours (chocolates) we cant find in singapore =)
At night we went to chill out in a nearby pub.

Day 12

It's home sweet home!!! Did some reallie last min shopping nearby our hotel(hostel) then off we go to the airport. I cant wait to go home, because i just miss my bed too much!!! hahahaha... Didnt reallie sleep too comfortably for 12 days because of those bunk beds!
The taking off and landing was much better this time round compared to the day we left for australia, i guess its all depend on the pilot flying skills or was it the plane!??!?!?!

Finally saw my family and my darling at the airport! It was great to see them again. Show them my medals and took some photos there. Finally i'm home!
That night i reallie sleep so soundly, Mmmmmmmmmmmmm.......... Wat a wonderful Bed i have!!! =)

2005-05-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm back after so long..... to all my friends who keep checking my site despite not updating any, so paiseh yah... just too busy with all the stuffs going on. I wont be around in town for the next 2 weeks, as i will be flying off tonight to Australia for competition. =p

Will update more when i'm back or if i have a chance to access internet over there.....

Take care all my friends...

And to my love, I WILL MISS YOU.......

Happy 52nd Birthday DAD !

2005-05-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

Dad's Bday

Happy Birthday Dad, You're mine no. 1

2005-04-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

Went out with dearie last night to shop for dad's bdae present. Wasnt reallie sure what to buy, was thinking just shop around and gather some ideas on what to buy..... Before long, i know wat i wanted to buy and just pay for it. Spend almost $200 alotgether on my dad's bdae, he better appreciate it! hahahaha!

Saw the guess bad/wallet that dear wanted me to see. Well it looks reallie very nice, and it look very nice on her too..... Price still alright, however dear and me budget tight so we were there think and think and think! I think even the salesgirl wonder why we loiter ard the bag for soooo long! =p
Take a look at how much i spend this month, it's nothing but scary! In fact i overspend what i earn! Guilty guilty ! Big expenses such as a new phone, online web hosting, dad's bday present, payment of the aus trip i'm going in May. I reallie hope i can find tones of notes lying on the ground for me to pick or i manage to plant a money tree! Somehow kinda regret in buying my nokia 7710, Firstly if not then i might be able to buy the Guess bag for dearie for it reallie looks so nice. Secondly is i just receive my handphone bill for this month, and guess what, my phone bill is so high all thanks to the GPRS!!! Due to it's the latest gadget, trying to explore the function, surfing webpage using my nokia 7710 and as a result the bill become so freaking expensive!!! I can just faint! Not going to surf using my handphone anymore, cos it doesnt make sense, the money that singtel charges is not worth it at all.....

Packing my comp table and my room, came across certain notes that i've joted down while reading books a few months ago.

Just some on our life issues

"Death is the great equalizer, the one big thing that can finally make strangers shed a tear for one another" --> Somehow i find it very true, think abt it, think abt events such as Sept 11, Princess Diana Deathe, Wang Na's case, Tsunami last year....

"Tapes, photographs and videos, are a desperate attempt to steal something from death's suitcase."

How true can this sentence go..... ok... not going to be reflective on life again.....

Well before i sign off, hope the whole world is filled with love, there's too much politics, jealousy, too much of other stuffs that might start a war anytime (China-taiwan issues, China-Japan) USA-iraq war which i find it ridiculously stupid, something sneaky going on between Bush and Hussein which created a war between this two nation, and now iraq people are the unfortunate ones suffering the consequences of post war. Even children, people in Vietnam, Cambodia are still suffering after so long after war!

so

- LOVE EACH OTHER OR PERISH - Auden-

New Layout on the BLOG!

2005-04-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

Got a new outlook for my blog, ok yes.. though it's already up for a few days. Well finally upload a song that wont have those irritating pop up. And i think it would benefit those readers visiting my side to choose whether to listen or not to the song i uploaded.

Today was good, coaching was easy and the kids bring smile to my face today =)
Dad's bday is coming and i have yet bought anything yet..... stress.......

Well upload a song just for dearie..... a wonderful song to a wonderful gal =)
I mean every single sentence in this lyrics.... =)

YOU MAKE ME FEEL BRAND NEW

My love
I'll never find the words, my love
To tell you how I feel, my love
Mere words could not explain
Precious love
You held my life within your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again

Only you
Cared when I needed a friend
Believed in me through thick and thin
This song is for you
Filled with gratitude and love

God bless you
You make me feel brand new
For God blessed me with you
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song 'cause you
Make me feel brand new

My love
Whenever I was insecure
You built me up and made me sure
You gave my pride back to me
Precious friend
With you I'll always have a friend
You're someone who I can depend
To walk a path that never ends

Without you
My life has no meaning or rhyme
Like notes to a song out of time
How can I repay
You for having faith in me

2005-04-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

Before i go to bed, i think i should do some blogging. Oh well, this week wasnt that busy. Finally able to sit down and have some thought abt wat i want in life. I'm going to be 24, and seriously i still dont know wat i want in life. Mid-life crisis??? nonono... i just havent finalise the things i wanna do. Well hope i get an ans soon. Currently working on my website.... need to get all those info done, Thanks tingz and edison for helping... =)

Well my dad b'dae is coming and i dont know what things to get for him. Seriously, i always have a hard time cracking my brain during this time of the month every year... haiz.... can somebody give me some ideas.... oh well my big aunt decided to throw a bday party for my dad. Throw a party at the age of 50 plus!??!?! Yeah u heard it right, i guess that's pretty much siblings love bah, anyway it doesnt bother me, i thought it was a good thing to throw a party for my dad, anyway how many times can we celebrate our birthday in a lifetime.... i think it's gonna be one kind of big event, my overseas relatives would come and all my dad siblings will be there to celebrate a memorable b'dae for him this year. Hiaz... i havent get the cake and present! STRESS!!!

The month of May will be a busy month for me. Still contemplating whether to go to Australia in May, however was kinda force to go... so boh bianz... will go there for half a month to represent Singapore in the Arafura Games 2005. After i come back, have to head to China for some mission. Oh well..... almost a month not in Singapore, and it just as good as no income for a month...... Stress.... i need to service my loans!!! Can somebody give me 4 golden number for this coming sat and sun 4D!??!?!?!

Ok its 2am, need to go and sleep, promise dearie to sleep early tonight, guess i really didnt do it anyway yah..... hahah.... better do it now before she get angry....=p

* OFF to bed...... ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............

2005-04-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be another one week update. Been real busy with works this week, hardly have time for other stuffs....... oh well just came across this new product adidas is launching, i thought it is pretty innovative. Take a look and have yr own verdict

http://www.adidas.com/campaigns/adidas_1/content/index.asp?strCountry_adidascom=com&strBrand_adidascom=performance

Saturday came too soon for me, it was a week after that dramatic meeting with that gay, i wasnt comfortable going to the pool, cos if i happen to see him there and he start to give me grinz or show any funny faces or worse come and approach me again, i tell you i dont know wat i would react, prolly i might just give him a punch. Nonetheless luckily for me, he was no where to be found. Thank goodness.

Saturday was good for my dad cos he strike lottery! ahahha... So happy for him, i dont think i got any chances of striking lottery soon cos i dont bet on 4D or toto. Always wish i could win something, maybe something from this NKF lucky draws. Hahahah... oh well... somehow it's pretty destined to whether you able to strike lottery or not. Shall not be too bothered abt it.

I got a letter from my school, MDIS. Before hand, my classmate was telling me that they have recieved their final project results, though its a well-known fact that we would not fail our final project unless we didnt reallie bothered to do it properly that kind. However i do have fear opening up the result slip posted to me. There's always the "What If" kinda thingy. I breathe a sigh of relieve when i saw my marks. I got a Grade B for my final project, and this marks the end of my degree course. I've finally graduated !!! Now awaiting my transcript, honours classification and my convocation. I told my dad about my result, and immediately he's beaming with joy. I bet he is thinking that finally he managed to raise a son that complete a degree course. I know this is nothing as there's plenty of ppl ard are degree holders, however i suppose its every parent dream to have their very own kids to graduate with at least a degree. Nonetheless i sensed that he cant wait for my convocation and taking a family potrait with my "Harry Porter suit" =)

I upset dearie ytd night. It was my fault that i created such a situation for her. Sometimes in life, we have to deal with our past. I know i have no more excuses to make but i sincerely hope that by still having photos ard doesnt mean anything. Cause i dont feel anything by looking at the pics or i dont have any special meaning keepin the pics. Luckily we cleared up our airs and everything's fine.
Things changes very fast, it was only last year that i'm with my ex, right now i'm with my current gf. Time heals, a person whom is so special last year has grown so distance away from me. No longer do i feel for her as i had last year. Understand very clearly why we broke off, and i realise we are better off apart. Anyway i guess it's a sooner or later kind of thing for us, and luckily we broke of last year. Ever since that fateful incidence happen, things has never been the same again. we were trying very hard and i'm glad we are apart now. It hurts alot then, and i wonder would i ever get into any other relationship because i am afraid to have another deja-vu kinda thingy. Things change when i meet an ordinary gal who is so extra-ordinary in her own ways. Slowly she become somebody so special that i thought there wont be any special person ard after my ex. Somehow i believe everything happen for a reason and everything has got a silver lining to it no matter how bad it is or how bad it may seems. For me, i'm so glad that i able to communicate so much better with my dearie now. I thank her for all the things that she had done and reallie sympathise with her if she had to endure any of my devilish behaviour.

To my dearie now.

- Thank you for being so understanding all these months.
- Thank you for appreciating all the things that i've done.
- Thank you for all the efforts you put in the relationship.
- Thank you for being a pillar of support/strength whenever i needed you.
- Thank you for being such a wonderful dear

A special person like you deserve more than these three letter word that i gonna say
" I LOVE YOU "

- If you ask me do i love you this much.......... BABY, I DO ......-

Gelare Outing

2005-04-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

Dear decided to come and stay over my house, here we are experiencing our domestic partnership for a few days! =p Overall it was FUN! hahaha~ well at least i enjoy every single bits, though the days pass by too quickly.

Went to play Badminton with dearie on Thurs, and guess what, i lost! hahaha... is either she's good, or i'm bad..... =p well had a nice workout, but dear got ache all over her right arm.... i think i make her work overdrive... hahah...

Fri night went out to walk walk at East Coast, went to eat waffle ice-cream at Gelare, walk along the beach, play with the sands! hahah... feel so shiok with the cool breeze blowing... =)

Below is those pics that i took, pics didnt turn out that great as the place was not brightly lit.

Gelare ! Yummy !

Went coaching today, nothing unusual until i finish bathing.... a middle age indian guy come approach me in the toilet..... the conversation was as follow....

Indian Man : Hi, my name is _______ (cant remember) *reach his hand out

Me : *thinking nothing wrong reach out and shock his hand and say ohh.. hi, my name is Kelvin

Indian Man : (Still Grabbing my hand) Ohh u swim very good, u can swim how many laps.

Me : ohh still can lah, thanks .. *smile

Indian Man : You free??? wanna go out have maken or enjoy???

Me : (Take my hand away after shakin for so long) Oh .. sorry.. not free... need to go out..

Indian Man : ohh... when u free ? we go out lah... go out eat and enjoy?

Me : (Puzzled?) ohh ... no... me also kinda busy... dont know when i got free time to meet up....... busy! (*forcing a smile)

Indian Man : ohh busy, nvm... when u more free? after work or something ... we go out talk, maken, and enjoy????

Me : (feeling abit weird now) er... sorry ... busy .... cannot ...

Indian Man : Busy ah... working shift works???

Me : yah , yesh..... (forcing a smile back)

Indian Man : Oh okie... nvm.... *walks aways...

I breathe a sigh of relieve, i was like..... wat the hell, what does he want! keep asking me to go out and eat and enjoy??
Before i get an answer tru some thinking, he came back and talk to me again

Indian Man : oh.. why dont i give u a call to see when u free so that we can go out ? to meet and enjoy?

Me : (feels very uneasy) Ohh no... it's ok ... i'll be here to coach every week, no need call .... (smile back)

Indian man walks aways and I quickly change up but before i leave.... he came over again! Damm!

Indian Man : Hey nice meeting you, (reach his hand out and want to shake my hand )

Me : (trying to be nice and friendly) ohh .. (smile and shake his hand)

Indian Man : I like you ! do u like me!?!? (use his index finger to tickle my palm!)

Me : (WTF !!! DAMM IT HE'S A GAY!) (Quickly took my hand away) Oh no! no no.... (face turn in disgust!)

Indian Man : Grinning..... we go out eat and enjoy !?!?

Me : NO, Thanks!

Indian Man : says bye and walk away

F*** ! Bloody gay! i feel so sick..... i'm so disgusted! now i know why he keep saying go out and enjoy! ohh man, i feel like puking! Anyway i went to the basin and quickly wash my hand with soaps! Yes ! abit extreme but i just wanted to wash my hand clean! I'm just so disgusted by the whole incident!

Went out of the toilet after washing my hand and told dearie abt it, dear was shock , so was my sis.... goodness me.. cant believe that man can be so daring!
Girls came and approach me before and now came this indian man! ohh gosh! i can attract both sexes at the swimming complex!

Am i that attractive!?!? I think i do.... hahahahahaha (ok, self-praise yeah) ; )
anyway a notes to all the gays in Singapore....Buzz off cos i'm a STRAIGHT!!!!

Dear back at home now..... i'm gonna sleep without her lying beside me..... I miss her ....

Qing Ming festival

2005-04-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

Came back from my Qing Ming Mission in Batam, Understand more about my family hierachy, way up to my great grand father. =) Need to travel to another island to pay respect to my great grand father, whose tombstone are far far away in an island 1 and a half hour ride from batam. Went to another island nearby which is call Morhor. A place where my dad use to live when he was young. Had some fun photo-shooting myself.

Here are those "entertaining" photos, all taken using my Nokia 7710..... Do not try to perform those following act, parental guidiance needed.

The so-call speed boat for our transportation. That's my sis.... Peace out

More than just one puff

Delight from an "Addictive Smoker"

I'm the G cup man!~ (So heavy)!!!

NKF 26 hrs swim!

2005-04-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

Well quite busy this past few days. Wednesday was my busiest! Went for coaching then straight away rush for the NKF 26 hrs swim. It's a charity swim, just hope to do something for those Kidney patient. They reallie a group of ppl who went tru so much hardship. If life is just a one time thingy, a one time affair with the earth, then it's kinda unfair that some have to went tru soooo much hardship while some enjoy the biggest of a fortune to spend, play for the rest of their lives! Is this what we call the beauty of life???? Oh well after a few hours then rush back home and off i go for another two coaching session till late at night! phew! Super long day!

Manage to catch a glimse of me on TV, cause they were showing the news about the NKF swim. Oh well i think i look fat! hahahaha..... think i should excercise more! =p

Going back to Batam for Qing Ming festival this weekend. And so... i'm gonna miss my bed...... =(

~My Nokia 7710~

2005-03-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm gleeing with delight now!!! If you still dont know why, it's because i got myself a latest gadget !!! Yipee... one down in my wish list! hahahaah~

Well got it for quite cheap, though being kinda cheated by the mobile seller who last min slap me with a 5% GST! Argh! i think he wanna up his earning a little since i do not wanna purchase any extra accessories, scheming ppl! Nonetheless still manage to get it at about $100 cheaper than what Starhub and M1 is offering.(Singtel have yet come out with that phone) So overall still consider a good deal.

*Playing with my Nokia 7710 now =) *grinz

2005-03-28T13:30:00.000+08:00

It's another weekly update.

Last Thursday was my sis birthday, and it's also a day i lost my voice! ohh darn! Well have real fun celebrating my sis birthday, and i bet it was kinda a memorable one for her. Thanks dear for buying soooooooo many medicine for my sore throat trying ways to regain my lovable voice. Oh well , manage to regain before my coaching on Sat, i didnt even raise my voice at the kids during my lesson on sat, hahaha! i was too concious that i might lose my voice again since i just recovered.

Went to look around for Nokia 7710!! Ahh.... it's $988 with two years contract and $1118 without contract, Still trying my best to get hold of that phone with the cheapest amount! Will continue to shop around. =)

Nothing much happen during the weekend, though i believe most of my frns will enjoy the long weekend, while i was busy with my trials.... nonetheless fare quite ok in the trials, so shouldnt be much of a problem to go Aus in May and compete, I think i have to start trainning harder from now..... =p

It's another monday, another start of a new week, plenty of things have to do. Numbers of things are rolling over the weeks and it's breathing down my neck... bleahz =p

*off to do my stuffs

2005-03-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

Got a big time shock when i came across something in googles search. Permed hair was the search word, and after i click.... TA-DA! Dear pic was there!!! ahhahah! Below is the URL

http://images.google.com.sg/images?q=permed+hair&hl=en&btnG=Google+Search

Dearie with her permed hair(got it from google search)

Got so facinated that i tried typing my name in the googles search engine, and my photo was there too! hahahaha
I think both of us should charge google.com.sg for royalties yeah..... my goodness they use our photos without us knowing!!! HAhaha...

Anyway Dear also appear in this month seventeen magazine, she did appear in previous issue but seems like the editorial just cant get enough of her. Hahaha! Is she turning into some celebrity!?!??!?! Oh well, to those guys that are wowing at her .... cut that stares and those whistle, BUZZ OFF! Coz she's MINE!!! Hahhaha....

*Kelv is in a jovial mood today! hehe~ *winks*

2005-03-18T15:00:00.000+08:00

Was out till very late ytd. Went to Yuki Yaki for steamboat and teppanyaki buffett, and of cos their famous DIY ice-cream and then follow by K-boxing till 3am! *yawn

Anyway for the first time, i "cooked" my own ice-cream! waaahhhahahha.... It was great FUN! Below is just some of the pictures i took, hope i dont look like ice-cream seller... bleahz =p

Enjoyed myself pretty much ytd with good food and MY ICE-CREAM ! ;p as well as the wonderful session @ Kbox. Nonetheless the result of going out late is to feel tired the next day! *yawn..... i'm going trainning later somemore..... *Slap forehead .....

Making ice-cream @ Yuki Yaki

2005-03-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

I have a wonderful weekend. =) *grinz

Ok, Me and dearie decided to have a 3 days 2 night stay in my house. The reason is budget constraint. It's better to spend on other better and more meaningful stuffs/things rather than accomodation. Hmm.... sounds like a good bargain to stay at home for free..... =p

It's always feel great to have your love one beside you right before u sleep and immediately when u open your eyes the next day. Though the in-between events could be somehow not very appetizing. Fighting for the side of the bed to sleep, snatching of bolster and blanket in the middle of the night! Well all these were all solved once we cuddle each other. =) *shant elobrate further before friends reading this will get goosebump..... hahah.... ok i'm exaggerating.

Let's take a recap on what happen over the weekend... hmm......

Sat
Was involved with the event jointly organised by Team Singapore and Singapore Tourism Board. Meet some athletes from different sports. It was great to know that Team Singapore is growing stronger every now and then. Went to tried out GMAX (www.gmax.com.sg) Yeah... u heard it right GMAX. That one located at Clarke Quay. Wasnt too facinated to try it because i'm worried once i'm up in the sky , my spirit will just stay there and never come down that kind. Ok, abit exaggerating again. Well finally gather enough courage to try out that GMAX, afterall it is free (Paid by Team Singapore) Was pretty amazed at how much they charge, $30 per pax! That's expensive thrill! I would rather spend on some romatic dinner or something equivalent to that. Anyway this ultimate bungey is a 3 sitter, i chose the side of that seat, the inspection for the whole "machine" was very slow but detailed. I guess this is highly dangerous, that's why they have to be so careful if not newspaper headline will splash across Singapore the next day if anything mishaped happen. Oh well, i was found sitting in that machine faster than i thought. My heartbeat race faster as every seconds tickle away. The operator sure know how to tease their customers. I wasnt too scare or stiff however i'm not feeling that comfortable as well sitting in that machine anticipating the immenient launching of me and my 2 other friends up in the air, 60kim above the ground in just 2secs!
That little machine was titled backwards and we were told to relax and lay our head on that seat head cushions. My heartbeat was reallie pumping now that the feeling of myself up in the air was becoming a fast reality as every seconds races pass. There is no backing out now and soon smoke was pump out, was it suppose to be a distraction or what i do not know for the very next moment i was zooming like a space rocket up in the Singapore sky! The going up was shiok! however i wouldnt say exactly the same thing when i'm going down. It was free fall!!! I didnt even feel that i had a seat beneath me when the machine just drop and turn me 360 degree. I was screaming with delight!!! Overall it was FUN! real FUN! the feeling of moving "freely" in the air was great! Though i find that every thing happen very fast and within seconds we are ready to descend to the ground. I thought to myself woooo... it wasnt as scary as i thought afterall and i was really feeling very shiok! however for that quick thrill, the price is reallie too high. I wouldnt reallie wanna try again until i have enough spare cash to splurge around. =p Anyway the ride was capture in a VCD, me and my other 2 friends facial expression were hilarious to the core! We perfectly show a series of emotion before and after the ride! hahahahaha.....

G-Max was real fun and then its my swimming coaching time. I always enjoy coaching, you know sometimes those kids can reallie perks up your day, however it wasnt meant to be it for this week, i was rather agitated by them this week. One week they can be so adorable angel so fancinating and the next week they can be devilish demon. Well, i endure it through though...... and had a short session with dearie. Glad that she imporved her swimming skill under such a talented coach. Erh-hemm... abit the thick skin now! hahahah...

After that we went to watch the movie ROBOTS with dearie and my sis. It was my sis first time watching movie after soo long! and what a movie to watch! It was so funny that i could hardly have time catching what the character trying to say because i was so busy laughing away at those words and actions! Definately Two thumbs up for the movie!!! another four more thumbs from dearie and sis =p

After that went to eat tuo hua. Been there a couple of time and everytime there will always be full of people qeueing up. Not that the services is inefficient, it is just that too many people wanna taste their famous tuo hua. Makes me wonder how much money they make each night..... if you wondering which stall it is.... the stall is call Rochor Beancurd. I think most food fanatic would know exactly where it is located. If you dont know and wanna try it. Then ask me ok.... =)

Outing on 12/03/2005

SUN
Just realise it's been a long entry as this point in time, shall try to keep it as short as possible....
Didnt do much on Sunday, had a late night sleep cos was playing with dearie then wake up early the next day for trainning. Was kinda shag out, so spend the rest of the day sleeping, talking, chatting, watching show on tv, basically just hang ard in the house.

MON
Had already plan what we gonna do on Monday morning, therefore, woke up early in the morning to get prepared. Went KBOX late in the morning for their Lunch special package. I was having sore throat cos havent been resting too much recently and i think it just caught me at a bad time. Nevertheless it didnt stop me from going KBOX to sing, because dearie yearn for so long to sing with me, just dont wanna dissapoint her ... =p
Was having some fun singing and of cos snapping some photos away! Dearie was so engrossed in singing the "PINK" song...... my goodness, everything so pinkish in the lyrics.... i couldnt imagine having a pink sky, pink sea.... i think i would just faint if i actually see it happening!

Went to shop around for sis pressie, bought a few stuffs here and there. I got myself a new book! I'm just like a small child facinated by a new toy! bleahz =p

I was so delighted that dearie managed to borrow the books i want from TP library! She such a sweetie, sooo thoughtful! I just love the way she love me! =) I feel like a pampared kid! hahahahaha

Had my coaching lesson in TP, it was their small little time trial, and was delighted at the way some of my swimmers perform! They did so well, and i'm just feel as happy as them.

Having a busy week again, and i hope it's gonna be another fruitful week! =)

*Off i go to watch the 9pm channel 8 show! =)

2005-03-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

Damm those officer standing at the edge smiling whenever any vehicle pass through the bus lane during those bus lane operating hours!

$130 fine and 4 demerit point are awaiting me.... damm! I'm a poor guy cant they just see it, argh! I pray to god, NO summon pls!!!

2005-03-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's another week gone, and i havent been blogging.... haha~ seems like i dont have a habit of blogging anymore, nonetheless too much stuffs are going on at the moment and i hardly find enough time to do all my stuffs. =p

Had an eventful and busy week and it could only get busier the coming weeks. =) Didnt have too much a time to sit down in front of comp and update my daily ranting or events cause i spend the remainding time i have with my dearie.... She must be feeling lucky that i'm trying my best to squeeze out whatever time i left to be with her... okie okie.. self praise is no praise... =p

Was at Changi Beach last sunday and this sunday..... woooo... last week was a real close encounter with all those jellyfish floating (swimming?!?!) in our Changi Beach water. Awww...I touch, kick, brush across a few while i was swimming in the sea. Yucks! Gross.... didnt reallie swim in peace, cause at the back of my mind, i'm so worried to get biten by those jellyfish.... Eeeee..... Just fyi, i was trainning at the beach, it was part of the trainning to swim in the sea, so here i was, struggling to swim in the sea and then those jellyfish didnt wanna miss any part of my trainning session. Argh....
This week was a much better one, no jellyfish but with waves.... yup u heard it right, seldom we have a chance to see big waves along singapore beach. Today was a great one. I was having those feeling of my Japan Trip, where i was competiting over there. Wooww... i was surfing in Singapore beach water today, yeah.... though it was not as big a wave compared to the Japan beach, at least it was something..... and i was like screaming with delight when i was riding on the waves. Hahahah... Shiok!!!

Been busy with some of my planning.... will try to get sorted out within a week or two.... it's been dragging for far too long, i need it fast and quick! shant disclose what it is, until the time is right, i will annouce to the whole wide world.. hahaha =)

Had a wonderful night with dearie..... spend the whole night with her despite having many uncomplete stuffs at the back of my mind. Just thought i shld spend some quality time with her and nobody else. We were both lying side by side on my bed with my bedroom door totally shut, and only the moonlight rays creeping in my dark comfy room. it just feel like we move into another planet where there's only two of us. =) We talk about everything under the sun, ok no sun it was just ceiling above us. We basically just talk and was enjoying each other company. I thought it was nice..... sometimes couples get so busy with their own stuffs that they forget to really sit down and have their own world of privacy and small chat. It was just coincident that we had this chance and we were both enjoying each other company. Well i thought the sight of stars rather than my ceiling would be more of a romantic ambience. hahaha.....Hmm.... prolly we should have an outing at the beach, where cool sea breeze would be blowing across our face and the many shiny stars and moonlight shinning upon us. =)

I came across one of this interesting word this week, and it came to my attention twice, i thought prolly i should just write it down. It is a chinese word call "She De" [ You She (Loss) Cai You De (Gain) ] It mean you only start to Gain when you expereince the loss of something. I thought it is rather meaningful and very true! Well for those still cant understanding, go start figuring it out for yourself. For me i understand the meaning and already benefited from this sentence.

Just some words for thought. =)

2005-02-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since i last blog. Well alot of things has been going tru my mind lately. Been reflecting, thinking about lots of stuffs.... i realise i'm no longer the same before.... ok probably still have some traits of the old. Nonetheless feel that i've grown much more mature these days. Ever since tt fateful thing happen, i think i change quite a fair bit and i mean change for the better.

Firstly, i visit library more often these days, so much so that i begining to ponder whether will it be my hang out place soon. This could never happen many months back, seriously to tell you guys the truth, i dont reallie like to read books, i would prefer to watch movies, shows rather than reading books. Alot of things happen and now i seems like i cant get enough of self-improvement books! These days I've been walking into bookshop and library to scan for books to upgrade myself ever so often.

A change in me definately, and i believe it is definately a change for the better. =) Secondly, i beginning to think more in term of EQ. i started to put myself in other person shoes more often than not. Grown mature or probably i'm ready for the next stage of life. Nowadays i find that 24hr is not enough! Not enough for me to think what i wanna think, do what i wanna do.... simply not enough time. Ppl always say i got time on my side, and i starting to believe so..... however i would have prefer to be much younger. I beginning to realise what all those elders means when they say i got youth or time on my side. I realise they say it with a word of wisdom, Never in my life, i feel the urge of charging myself up for the business world. Though ppl have been saying i have the youth to fight in the business world, I still feel that i should have started sooo much earlier. Many plans came to my mind recently, so much so that even when i'm about to sleep, ideas and thought still wouldnt wanna leave my mind for me to have a good night rest. Simply too much stuffs to ponder about. I feel that i should try and do whatever i wanna do in the business world and grab whatever opportunities that is within my reach, if everything fails, and become bankrupt or whatever, at least i still have some time left to pull myself up. To make long story short, i'm going to be my own boss instead of working for ppl. I believe in working hard for myself rather than for ppl.

Knowledge is never ending and i think i'm far lacking behind in terms of life knowledge.... i'm reallie playing catch up now by reading books and motivational CDs. If all these sounds weird to you , nvm... it's ok... probably somewhere down to road, you will feel what i feel right now. It's painful to work for someone seriously. Shant elaborate on that, if you are smart enough you will understand what i mean.

Today, i look into my dad's eye, for the first time i feel that i fail as a son. I feel soo sour inside me.... Ppl always say human eyes dont tell lies, and i believe it is somewhat true. What i saw was not a reflection of myself in his eyes, what i actually feel/see (if you use heart to see) is a wonderful dad who has aged soooo much in recent years, it just reaffirm me that i would be real devasted if he is no longer ard in this world. He has been a pillar of strenght/support for me, though he can be unreasonable at times, anyway which dad dont. He had work sooo hard all his life for the family, he's been tru tough times ever since he was young, He made all those sacrifices for me and the family for god knows how much. He bite his teeth and carry on working so that he can get our lifes in shape, and even at this tender age of his, he still work sooo hard for money! I feel so bad and ashamed that he still have to work soo hard for money. I thought it should be time for my parents to rest and me taking the full loads for them. I think health is a very much important issues for them. They needed sooo much rest and enjoy the remaining days of their lives. I believe life is very very short, 23 years of gone and i believe i havent have any real impact or done anything to the family. We living in a highly fast moving society that i believe many familys fails to have financial security.
I see ppl living in big houses, big cars, a comfortable lifestyle..... i look it all in envy, it's a dream of many, and of cos it is also one of my many dreams too, can i achieve that, of cos you have to work hard if not it will be call dreaming rather than dreams.
I wanna obtain financial security and rewards my parents for working their socks off for the family. I believe it is the least i could do to make their lifes sooo much more happier and meaningful.

It pains me to see that my parents still work sooo hard every single day for the family. The more i see them working hard and cant help, the more i feel that i'm nothing but a useless bum. I need to work hard and do something for them, i think my parents definately deserve a break after working sooo hard for soooo many years. They definately deserve to go for a six month holiday or even a year holiday break, probably to see the world.

The longer i become financial stable, the longer they have to work hard and sooo much lesser time for them to enjoy themselves. Cause everybody has a life span, happy or not, my parents will leave the world sooner or later. I love my parents sooo much that i wouldnt wanna leave them, but can i make us live forever? The answer is definately no, for those individuals who are now working soo hard to fulfill their own dreams, buying new sports car or branded goods, pls remember that you wouldnt be who you are if you are without your parents. They have work soo hard, ask yourself do you want them to continue to work hard till the last day of their lives? Ever wonder why your parents work soo hard for the family, and don't u think your parents deserve something???? I firmly believe my parents deserve something from me!

So all i have to do now is to work hard and secured financial security/stability!
Today entry is rather emotional and reflective.... i thought i could just pen down some of my many thoughts that has been going tru my minds recently.

2005-02-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

Been quite busy recently... that's the reason why i hardly update my blog. I feel good to be busy, it means i'm productive and urm making money! hahahaha ~ Jokes aside... i mean most of the time when u r busy it means u r working hard to earn money ... ok at least it applys to working class ppl like me.... so busy means money and thats good! =p

I'm still a poor guy, very much in debt, i'm having bank overdraft now.... all thanks to my degree loans, now i have to slog sooo hard to pay back the money..... hiaz... Nevermind, i can see light at the end of the tunnel pretty soon.... urm prob another 1 and a half yr of repayment left to go.... (pretty long tunnel yeah isnt it) =p

Well Didnt do anything special or extra-ordinary on Valentine Day. I mean is there a need??? Me and dearie are already one SPECIAL couple.... hahahah.... ok, i'm just crapping, pls ignore.....
Well due to my finance status, didnt reallie plan one major major surprise for her, it just another simple day that we spend together. Didnt wanna get suck in by those horrendous commercialise gimmicks on this so call "special day" for Couples. The prices of some gifts just goes out of hand during this period and sometimes i wonder if it really a special day for us couple or special day for companies to make money out of it.

Today went down to Bedok reservoir to help out in TP open house. Ohh well since it's TP open house, many secondary schools have been invitied to TP for a tour and students from numerous schools came down to participate in our water adventure event and of course it's was held at bedok reservior. For the first time i swim in a reservoir =) and just to inform you guys if you happen to taste saltiness in your house tap water.... you know what's the reason ah! hahahaha~ just kidding.... i didnt pee just fyi and anyway i believe PUB will do a good job in purifying the water.
Anyway you wouldnt believe what i saw! so much algae was found in the reservoir .... ohh gross! real gross..... *pukes...
Anyway today weather not bad, was having fun doing some board surfing till i have to rescue one victim that had fallen into the water. No worries, i'm a qualified lifesaver, so here i go to the rescue!.... eh-hemm of cos not some superhero lah.... just save the victim thats all.... hahahaha... =p

The Open house will end tml, if you guys wanna see me in action..... ok i mean come and take a look in TP and of course the water advanture event, you can always pop by yeah..... =)

Here are some of the photos that we took on Valentine day .... enjoy and pls dont break out laughing if you see the fatter side of me!
Take it away.............

Dont you think we are a special couple

Kelv : Urm.... well.... i think i'm more special ! heehee

Jo : Yah right?!?! who say so? Box you! * Bish !!! I'm more special lor ! .... humph! =p

Happy Valentine Day 2005

2005-02-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

It been a fruitful CNY so far for me! And if u guys were wondering how come i never reply sms or blog for the past few days, it is because i was away, i was out of town =) Anyway meet up with relatives and friends during this festive season, it is always good to catch up after sooo long over a year or so. Did gamble a bit there and then and was pretty lucky to won some money =) Well it was just for the fun of it, not trying to earn some big bucks during those gambling sessions. Well did recieve quite a fair bit of ang pow monies and of cos it will be crediting to my bank account soon! hoooray!!! hahahahah =)

I realise something over the weeks and it just speed up the whole process during this CNY period, and that is i have grown fatter!!! Yup i guess over the weeks i put on so much weight that my face become sooo much rounder and pls let's not talk about the size of my tummy now yeah. I guess i have to control my diet before i become unrecognisable by my friends.... keke~

Aint sure whether can i collect some more ang pow or not, however i need money, lots of money and erm.. who dont right.... bleahz
Went to temple today to pray "tai sui" cos it's my year just in case u guys forgotten. Ohhh well... didnt know and dont really bother, just follow tru the motion, ppl say wat and i just follow.... i am tt chin chai, anyway i'm a free-thinker, therefore anything also can. Well dear say better be safe than sorry, ask me just go and pray, and of cos i did with the company of my family.

So today is Valentine day! and i feel so guilty as i have not done anything yet... yup i think i gonna get it big time..... i'm a big time procastinator lah! and of cos i always think tt something nicer will pop up along the way, always thinking there will be nicer gifts to buy for dearie, well sooo much sooo that now i got none... hahahah....
Anyway sometimes it is not the gifts or whatever stuffs that is important, what's more important is the heart. And i so thankful that i found her and of cos it will be our first valentine day together =) It a day for a special couple like us to be out there spending time on a special day like this =)

Dedicated this song below to her...... Angels brought me here by Guy Sebastian.
Somehow it been a amazing journey and i so thankful to have found her... and did angels brought me to her? ok wait... shall i say did angel brought her to me because i'm just as special! hahahah..... ok i shall cut the crap and pls enjoy the lyrics.....=p

Angels Brought Me Here - Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

2005-02-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back after being MIA for quite long again............=p
It just 4 more days before CNY!!! Basically it just another "ANG POW" collection time... heehee *grinz

Did some spring cleaning today.... wooo... so tired.... *yawns... CNY is all about spring cleaning, buying new year goodies, buy new clothes, decoration of the house and of cos the most important for the kids, and that is the collection of "ang pow"
I'm not exactly facinated about the immenient of CNY, prolly i grown out of it..... I dont have the same excitement that i used to have when i was a small kid, prolly i beginning to see more than just ang pow time =) Lots of things has been going through my mind recently..... think i have grown mature over certain things.... =)

Anyway CNY coming, we should be in high spirits to greet the new year!!! So let's us just celebrate yeah..... To all my friends Happy advance Chinese New Year.... (just in case i dont blog next few days) =p

And yeah one more thing to add.... i finally got my tag board fix and so guys u can start tagging me again.... =)

2005-01-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i last post anything. Nowadays been busy with some of my personal stuffs and kinda lazy to blog also.

Well just came back from a short trip, was indulging myself with lots of shopping..... yea u heard it right... shopping.... somehow or rather i love to shop while i'm overseas..... prolly i got the shopaholic syndrome when i'm overseas! hahahahah
Bought a few stuffs..... "On Sales" sign was everywhere and it just make my heart pump real fast! hahaha..... went to a mambo shop, where they having 50% sale! wooohoo..... bought one berms from there...... definately a great catch! Still bought some clothes, shoes here and there from other places..... i feel so shiok and at the same time BROKE!
Yup, that's the after effect of shopping...... =(

Was happy to see dearie today, show her the stuffs that i bought for her as well as for myself..... it was great to see her smiling when she sees her present, hope she reallie like it! =)
And She surprise me with her "Snoopy night lamp" gift! woohoo.... sooo cute! Did i tell u guys i love snoopy..... yeah i know i'm a guy.... but i just love snoopy..... so cute!!!

Ok gonna fix my snoopy night lamp now........ *poof*

2005-01-16T15:45:00.000+08:00

I'm down with running nose, argh! terrible man! The skin around my nose is peeling off as a result of massive rubbing, even the tenderness of the tissue couldnt prevent it from happening and this just shows how bad my running nose is! Now, i just have to stick those tissues up my nose to stop my mucus from flowing out.
Chinese New Year is around the corner, I decided to start to clean up and pack my room early this year! It's time to get rid of all those old, useless things! Started packing, cleaning my room since ytd..... I have to take a break now cos my nose is irritating the hell out of me. =p

I have been racking up my past these few days and cleaning up my room didnt do any help to that situation, ohh well, i couldnt help but feels abit nostalgic...... Saw how madly in love we were then and just within month everything changes and it just goes to show we shouldnt take anything from granted. I made mistakes before and i wouldnt wanna made the same mistakes again, if not everything will be back to square one again isnt it. My past would not be a stumble block for my future bcos i'm pretty firm in certain things, and once i made up my mind, nothing seems to be able to change it. And i have told myself there is nothing i would regret if i look back. Yup, no regrets, i did what i have to do then, no regrets whatsoever! Right now i only have my future slowly unfolding right in front of me, and i'm enjoying every single minute with dearie now. My past would not be an obstacle, rather it will serve as a reminder for me not to take anyone / anything for granted.

Clearing / Keeping the things of old means i'm ready for the new year! I'm ready for new stuffs to enter into my room! Though i'm half way tru cleaning my room, it seems my room is lots freshier and i'm beaming with delight at how neat my room looks now! Cool!

To the one who has just enter my life and create a new lease of life in me
What a way to kick start Year 2005 with her in my life now, may each day unfold every magical moments in our relationship

This song is specially for you dear!

My Everything - 98 Degree

The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me

Chorus

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give and won't let go
I hope you'll always know

Chorus

Bridge
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete
For all time
For all time

2005-01-14T09:28:00.000+08:00

He who think he knows alot actually knows only the superficial of things, and it would only do him good if he can keep his comments to himself before he realise that he will be force to eat his own words later on in his life.
Well he will never know the real truth anyway, because unless both parties decided to reveal, he will never in his life found out the bloody truth. If only he knows then he would have use a hammer to knock on his head for his so call naive and one dimensional thinking.

I wouldnt reallie blame him because he aint know her well enough, for me... i didnt even know she was like that until things happen, and the things she did prior and after the break up make me feel so ............ oh well... shant elaborate further.

Relationship is a sticky and complicated issue and since he doesnt know everything, it would be wise to keep his bloody comment to himself before i have the last laugh for his stupidity and the effect of karma!

SHUT DA FUCK UP!

2005-01-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

I always got a feeling that someone unauthorise has been reading/following my blog, i guess i've somehow confirm this thought of mine. Oh well, not that i mind a single bit because it was suppose to be open / public anyway. A blog is a place where u able to pour out yr feelings and thoughts and there's nothing to hide out there.

Did i actually talk bad about somebody else behind their back? did i? have i ? my goodness, what i have written in my blog is nothing but the truth.

Seems like she out to make me a culprit of the whole relationship thingy. Well it takes two hand to clap and it take both parties to maintain a relationship. I admit that i belong to the "bo-chap" kind, i realise all those mistakes that i did, i'm not those type that goes around pointing fingers at others and say "hey, its yr fault and it's not mine".
I always the kind that when things happen or things is happening, i would sit down and reflect upon myself, what is going wrong, what actually happen, was it the fault of my own or something else.
I'm a thinker not someone who would push the blame to others. Even the recent car accident that i had, i did straight away admit that i was wrong, i was wrong to drive fast on rainning day, did i point a finger and say look, "the bend was too sharp, how can they make the bend sooo sharp, it sooo dangerous for road users" or "it must be that slippery road, cant they just do something bout that road" or even "the car is lousy, i should have drive a better and newer car"
Nothing of these sort, i know where i stand, if i know i'm in the wrong, then i'm in the wrong! There no two way about that and i wouldnt even point a finger at anyone else except myself.

What went wrong with my previous relationship, hell lots of reason, was it totally my fault!?!? A BIG NO!
And mind you that's an answer that i did went tru with some serious thinking!
As i said earlier, i always sit down and think it tru, when i broke the news to my parents, i didnt even point a finger at her! I didnt even say anything bad about her! All i did say was, i was wrong in this, that, and there, i shouldnt have done this, that and there. I didnt even utter a single wrong thing that she had did to me to my parents. All it was is just me, and me , and still me full stop!
Even when i tell my friends when they ask, it still the same, and when my closer frns probe more then i began to tell them more about the current situation about us then. I'm not going to say out all the juicy details now because i dont see a need for it anyway.

Alot of my frns did questions about the things i do for her, i wasnt moved by them because i know what i want, and to those who knows more abt what actually happen on the current situation then did label her as a bitch as a matter of fact. Not me, never did i say or label herself as a bitch even though she herself did kinda admit that.
I did all i can, things that i wouldnt even think i'm capable of doing, things i wouldnt know i can actually allowing it to happen to me, and things that i could even be able to tolerate to such a dramatic extend. In fact, to sum it up, i went to the limit, or should i say over the limit.

Revenge wasnt on my mind then when things happen, unlike some guys out there might have done, i didnt want it and i didnt do it because it wouldnt help the situation anyway and to the matter of fact that she was afterall the person i used to love most.

Did i ever say bad things behind her back? Nope, it was the truth and nothing but the truth. Never scold foul language at her for all the things that she did to me, never hit her, never blame her even when she go to such an extend. My goodness and now she seems like she wanna make me the biggest culprit of the whole damm thing? and making me sound like a damm sore loser?
Does feeling dissapointed and sick of the whole dramatic incident make u such a guilty person! i dont wanna make myself an angel out of this whole thingy because i know i'm not, and i must admit i did wrong things in the past before, however i dont like the feeling of being blame for something that i didnt do.

Oh well, i guess it's enough, dont wanna think too much anyway. It's funnie thinking such a person like her could actually become like that.... oh well..... enough, i reallie think i should stop.
I should look forward to my future rather than about my past. Anyway I'm thankful to god that i have found such a lovely person now, hope that i wouldnt need to experience this whole damm sour incident again. It just make me feel YUCKS! PUKES!

To my dearie now.....
This is for you..........

Because of you - 98 degree

* You're my sunshine after the rain, You're the cure against my fear and my pain

2005-01-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

Know how dearie feeling currently...... insecure feeling that is... well who is to blame her for her three close frn, close click all broke off with their relationship. Totally understand wat she is going through right now. Share the same sentiments with her abt relationship.

Looking at my past, how fragile can a relationship goes, it can be so solid but the next moment it can be so weak. Never thought a love like this could turn out sooo sour. oh well tatoos of my name, joint account for buying house, etc all did surface before but i just dont buy those ideas because i always look at things at a different angle and always consider the "what if" Never did i thought of leaving her though we did quarrel a few times and things just got over heated, Many thought we gonna make it, afterall we been together for very long and were actually thinking of the next phase of our lives, nonetheless the "what if" did materalise anyway. Thank god, i keep rejecting the idea of her tatoo-ing my name on herself and of cos the money issue regarding about saving together to buy a house, I saw with my very own eyes how many couples fallen out because of money issues, and this to me is ridiculous. Luckily i make the right step and i didnt suffer any after-effect from all those things.
I made the choice of letting go, i thought loving someone doesnt mean that you need to have him or her. Oh well only not too long ago that i come to realise what she had done to me, i realise she doesnt deserve e love that i use to give her. It just make me sick! Never thought someone like her would change to become someone else. I hope she dont suffer the consequences of her action. I dont hate her for the things she did to me, i'm just plain dissapointed and it make me real disgusted and prolly it's a karma thingy for me because i did wrong things before. Anyway it just make me puke lah...... Everything happen for a reason. It's a cause and effect thingy, Action would follow by a reaction, and that reaction would follow by an action, and it just keep going round and round.

Good riddance to her cause i'm happy with my current one. Now, i feel like i'm reborn, and i looking forward with my current relationship. Sometimes in life, there always such things call "silver lining". There a saying "Don't Cry because it ends, Smiles because it happen" Deep meaning, lots of different angle to look at it. If you dont learn to let go you will never able to recieve.

I'm quite skeptical abt relationship, was badly affected so just take it one day as it is, nonetheless i think dearie also suffer the same effect as me, so it just make us so perfect, understanding each other so much. She just plain worried that one day things might change and turn sour, and of cos i feels for her because i'm just as worried as her. sometimes i feel that me and her just think the same way, it is either i'm just as childish as her or she is just as mature as me! i mean in terms of relationship. I'm glad that I've found her. I just plain love the way she love me. I thank god that she appears in my life, somehow or rather there a sequences of events that lead us to be together, somehow or rather it seems to be plan of. Sorry i cant explain, as i say everything happen for a reason, We just have to learn from our past mistakes and be a better us that kind.

I dont know what my future lies, but i very comfortable with you dearie, as i say it so many times before, I just treasue every moment spend with you! I LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME!

2005-01-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

Wake up early in the morning to get ready for the last day of my Uni life! yeah! It's the last project presentation on my part. Now that i'm done with it, i can rightly declare that everything is over! I just have to wait patiently for my result and hopefull everything turn out well, and i will recieve my Honours degree cert in Nov 05 as scheduled =)

My presentation wasnt tt smooth, no laptop for my presentation, i didnt own a laptop and thought i might have my classmate laptop or even able to loan one of the laptop from the sch to use, however seems like Mr Murphy is right, his famous murphy law is back to hit me! Nonetheless just go ahead and present without the aid of presentation slide though, Luckily the lecturer like what he hear, and he's kinda impress at the way i presented, though i know that there is still room for improvement, he said it was a very good presentation nonetheless. Wow! Wat a remark! That's to me was good enough and it just make my day! Having a lecturer to praise me on my last presentation , my last day as a undergraduate just make the whole journey of my degree course ending in such a sweet high note!

After that went to collect my dad's car. It was ready for collection after 4 days of repair. Was happy to see the current state of the car, memories of the car accident just keep flashing across my mind and i thank god i'm still alive and the car didnt sent to a place for scrapping. After that went to tyre shop and get the car tyre change. My goodness, after seeing the state of the car tyre, i know exactly what the main reason for me losing control of the whole damm car! One of the side tyre was totally "botak", wah piangz! I didnt know how badly worn out the car tires were. Now, this explain exactly the reason why my car skided, hey i aint pushing the blame but the fact is that with one tire "botak" and the the rest of the tires wasnt in reallie good shape, it just not suited to be drove in a wet condition! Damm it, the accident could have been avioded, i shouldnt have drove at a speed i'm normally would have drive while approaching the bend because the tires just werent ready on that slippery road! argh! Sucks!!! Well the accident already happen, nonetheless still wanna thank god that i'm still alive and be able to sit right here in front of my comp typing this out! Somehow or rather i think the "fu" that i got from Japan to protect our family having a safe journey while driving seems to work and prolly it might just be the act of god to send me a msg that i shouldnt be driving so fast on rainy days while approaching a bend. I just thank god that i'm safe and sound to be able to still see my parents, my loved ones ard and that includes you dearie =)

Gonna head to my bed for some much needed rest. Havent been reallie resting well this past few days. Gonna take a nap now ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

* Bed bed here i comeeeeeee.............

Happy New Year 2005 !

2005-01-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

When the clock struck twelve, screams and cheers were heard along Orchard road and of cos without the lack of that terrible "spraying session"
Not those friendly handshake gesture wishing everyone Happy New Year but those sticky, foamy spraying all over the place, your body, your eyes, ears, ......

It was a happy occasion! It's a brand new year! Not that i mind a single bit of the fun surrounding Orchard road, i just hate it when somebody just spray in yr eyes! I hate it when a group of guys just go over and spray gals, it's a joyous occasion, not an occasion to disturb gals and get to know gals tt kind..... Those ah beng just seems to like this kind of ways to "tackle" unknown gals on the streets. Have fun yes, but not the way of having a whole group of ppl coming towards a gal and spraying her face, eyes, ears...... no wonder there are reports that some gals got molested during Christmas and New year celebration. I see it with my own eyes a whole group of guys "arming" with one spray cans on each of their hand surrounding a few gals and spray at them. While some knows their limits, and some dont always taget gals, they target those less equip or armed ppl. It seems more like a spraying war than a happy occasion celebrating the born of a new year.
I'm not exactly a racist, but i couldnt stand those indians, blangahs, ah nei, wat ever names you have for them..... I'm not too sure whether they are locals or not, prolly some of thems are not, They are a bunch of idiots! They onli target gals, ladies, in short, female species. They just aim at the eyes, I feel like whacking some of those indians! Freaking irritating, They are having fun just by spraying at the gals and make them scream and god knows prolly just touch abit when their eyes are covered with foams. Those indians doesnt look local to me, and to me thats crazy, if they are not local which means they are prolly from india, sri lanka and they jolly well know that their native country are hit hard by the tsunami, and they still have the mood to get out of the streets and have fun disturbing gals. Yes they didnt spray on guys, they just spray gals! female species!
I got soooo worked up that i nearly fight with one of those indians, freaking moron, they got nothing to do than keep disturbing my dearie....... f**king idiots! If not because i know that it was suppose to be a happy/joyous occasion on the back of my mind, i would have just throw a punch on those "black shit"!

Came home relatively late, didnt get enough sleep and off i go to help my dad with his work the next day, nothing special happen, passing by early morning on the streets of orchard road, where it was quite clean compare to the day before drastic dirty condition. It just show the efficiency of our cleaners! They reallie did a great job in keeping Singapore clean! *Salutes!
I wanted to go home and rest earlier and so i was driving at a little faster speed, it wasnt raining, however it did rain a moments ago and the road was kinda slippery, so when approaching a sharp bend and I executing my cornering tt time, my car just skided and i lost control of the whole damm car - the car just goes 180 degree to the right then 180 degree to the left and then right and then left and BANG! My car crash! I wasnt dazed or watsoever, my reaction was that this time i'm in deep shit!!! the doors just got stuck and i just couldnt come out of the whole car, i have to reallie hit it real hard in order to push open the door, and now that i manage to open the door, i just couldnt close it..... my gosh! I couldnt believe it! Throughout my 4 years plus of driving, i never met any accident, and my first one was on 1st of jan 2005 and what a day to have a car accident! and what a way to start my 2005! I think maybe i should go and attend advance driving course (a course you need to take before you can go for car racing on a circuit) Prolly i just need to know some of the techniques, so next time if ever my car skided, i would know how to react.
I think i'm kinda traumatise by this whole incident, till now, whenever i drive and approaching a bend, i would go super slow, not the usual me that is....... oh well.... luckily i'm safe, but the repair cost gonna cost quite a big sum. I thank my fourth uncle for sponsoring me $1000. I was so touch and sooo paiseh.... hiaz...
apologies to my dad too, caused it is his car and because of the accident created lots of unnecessary inconvience for him.
The accident could have been far worse, i thank god that i'm still alive and no major injury inflicted to me. Now i would reallie drive with care, it's gonna be along time before i would start driving recklessly again........ wait a min, i dont think i will ever drive recklessly again.

My new year resoultion!
* To grow taller! yes ... for many years, it never change! hahahahah
* To earn more money! yes tones and tones of money

Happy New Year to all my friends! Have a wonderful 2005!

Tsunami - The nature force

2004-12-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

Forget about the latest gadget in town, forget about what's hot and what's not for fashion! The "rejected" feeling of not having one of the latest gadget, following the latest fashion trend is nothing compared to the massive destruction caused by mother nature. Thousands of lives were lost by the recent horrendus Tsunami.

What is Life? Have anyone wonder? Didnt i mention i'm going to post something about my thoughts on Life and Death, didnt know that a few days later, thousands of lives are being swept away just in a couple of hours.

*Why are we born?
*Who made our existence?
*What is the purpose in us living?
*What is life after Death? Is there any in the first place?
*Where will we be after we die? Dont tell me is either Heaven or Hell, because do u think it reallie exist ? If there is life after death, what happen to those Dinosaurs that once rule the earth, what happen to those animals that dies, wouldnt they be experiencing life after death too........

I dont wanna ask any more qns, the thought of it just me scared, just make me wanna tears, it is not death that is scary, it is the thought of leaving yr loved one behind, the things you love to do (be it sports or whatever passion you have), imagine leaving behind all yr fav CDs, electronic gadget, yr soft toys, etc..... Not knowing where the hell you would go, what life would be in the year 2100 or 2200 ...... we cant live that long to see the world, we cant do this , we cant do that, then where will we be in yr 2100 or 2200? The thought of dissapearing forever in the faces of earth just scares me, Then the qns of where are we here and where will we be after death always sent shiver down my spine...... Hundreds and Thousands of qns about life and death always ringing in my head, and i could only beg with mercy to my brain not to think about all these.

I dont mind seeing ghost, though we have been taught that they are the spirits that would do more harm than good to you. I heard stories of ppl being possess by evil spirits, how true would that be? Is it just a make-up stories or was it real cases, many a times we always scare ourselves out of nothing......... When we are young, how many kids dare to walk alone in the dark... Why are we just sooooo afraid to walk in the dark, is it because our parents or whoever always say there are ghost ard and some badies ard dark places. Our mind are just being tuned by our parents or our seniors that whenever we are alone in the dark, we will shiver in fear.

Going back to those stone ages days where human races dont even know how to speak, know nothing about electricity, they faces the dark once the night falls, and with onli moonlight to fall on if there ever need to see something...... Do u think they are worried of ghosts?

People always say we'll become ghost after we die, or whatever kind of things based on the stories you heard since young..... i dont mind seeing a ghost because if there is such things as ghost or ppl possess by spirits, then prolly i would be contented because i would know that i would still live after i die, there is still life after death tt is. I know i got weird thinking, but that is me, cause the thought of dissapearing completely and leaving behind yr loved ones and yr beloved stuffs just scared the shit out of me........

Ok, enough of my it, i dont wanna think anymore..........

The recent Tsunami attack just reinforce that statement or , "Life is fragile" , "Life is just like a Candle"
Buildings and roads that takes years to build, Families that takes decades to build up are just literally wash away by that massive Tsuanmi within hours. One might think that some part of those villagers might blame the god for taking aways the lives of the beloved kins, they would probably blame the "sea god" or whatever god they might think of or being mention by their ancestors............... whatever the case, shant argue whether is it god's will or just the cause of that destructive earthquakes

Let's have a moment of silent for those that had perish in that terrible Tsunami

Anyway i'll be away for two days, just in time for the 2005 countdown, it's the time where most would be scared to travel by the sea, but for me, i'm just going against the odds by travelling using ship route.

Just hope that i will have a safe trip. =)

Happy advance 2005 to all my friends!

2004-12-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Merry X'mas Everyone! Urm... though it's kinda late, however there a saying "Better Late than Never"

Well was quite busy for the past few days, didnt reallie have the time to sit down in front of the comp to blog, was busy driving my relatives ard this christmas and not forgeting spending precious time with my dearie!

It was a special christmas this year, no happening stuffs, just me and her... and i think sometimes it is better to leave the whole world for a while to be with yr loved one. That's exactly what i did.

Christmas Eve
Didnt do much, just me and dearie out shopping, places were flooded with people! gosh! i hate crowds! yea i reallie hate it! I just cant walk, shop with peace, and with tt sickening feeling of squeezing through the crowds! oh gosh! yucks, pukes!

Got a christmas gift from dearie...... it's a wallet !!! Sweet! Real nice...... The way she wrap the gift, ohh..... nice wrapper, nice wrapping skills, the best thing is the gift itself! Branded Wallet, bet it cost her quite a fair bit, She bought me something that i would have to think thrice or countless time before buying. And to think that she dont mind parting away her precious money to get me something sooo expensive when she's not even working! Gosh, dont want her to go into financial crisis bcos of this gift, but it's happening soon anyway.......

*looking at my precious wallet now! Sweet! =)

Got her a pressie too, she badly need a watch and i guess it's the perfect christmas pressie for her! =) It's the latest design, and it's not even official launch yet till Feb 05 and currently there's only 1 piece of tt design at 2 outlet in Singapore and since i get 1 for her that would mean there's left onli one in the whole wide singapore, which also means either 1 more person or none will have exactly the same watch as her till the official launch date! ok at least tt wat the salesgirl say. Nonetheless such a special girl she is definately deserve a special gift that i'm giving her. Merry X'mas dearie! =)

Christmas Day
The moment the clock struck twelve! Ho ho ho! Dearie just beside me! Tt's nice! keke~ It's always great feeling when your loved one just beside you on this joyous occasion. =) grinz
Was out with my relatives that's from overseas, since they came all the way here, it onli make sense for me to bring them ard, and dearie was there tagging along too....... it's just feel nice having her accompanying me.

Boxing Day
Was out shopping with my relatives again, and this time it was an improptu decision that dearie was out with me again. hahahah~ Guess she cant even not see me for one day! hahahah.... i'm just kidding! =P

My sis is off to Batam enjoying herself with my relatives! Well I'll be joining her soon when i settle my stuffs, and then will head back to Singapore for the YR 2005 Countdown!!! =)

6 more days to year 2005!!!
Very very fast it's gonna be the end of yr 2004, i can still remember soooo clearly about saying out loud my yr 2004 resolution on 1 jan 2004..... oh well... times reallie flies, and now i gonna have my 2005 resolution ready to be said!

I hope i will have a wonderful year ahead! as Yr 2005 is my year!! cos it's the chickie chickie year! hahahaha....

Just in case i dont blog tt often......... to all my friends, Best wishes for Yr 2005!!! Cheers!

2004-12-23T08:30:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho ...... Santas Clause is Coming to town......

Just 2 more days before Christmas...... Been walking ard lately and saw sooo many shops putting up e "On Sale" signboard...... argh! no money man! if not i will be one of the many enjoying myself with discount products. =P

Still got no plans for Christmas! hahahah... dunno where to go, dunno wat to do........... Well dont have a habit of celebrating Christmas though.

Meeting Dearie later to watch the "Kung Fu' Movie, i believe i will have a good time laughing away while watching that show, Stephen Chow never fail to make me laugh in his show. =) *grinz

Office is having Christmas celebration later during lunch time, i got my pressie ready, no fanciful pressie, just cheap cheap one, hehe.....

* I want lots of pressie for my Christmas!!! =p

2004-12-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hi Guys. i'm back ! I better be back before you guys get sick and tired of reading the same entry for days! =) and of cos before spiders start crawling all over my bloggie site. =p

Nothing much happen during the past few days, been busy with one stuffs a couple of days ago, and that is to get my Final Year Project done!~ Finally complete it on 18 dec! Phew~ Hopefully nothing go wrong and i will graduate with a Degree!! Complete a hons degree at the age of 23, and considering i'm a guy that gone tru national service... hmmm.... not a bad achievement... hahaha.... *peace
Going to be Harry Potter as plan next year nov, when i recieve tt piece of paper, many regards as a Degree cert, and without it, many companies would just slam their door hard on yr face. Ouch! tt's the cruelity in life!

Spend the past few days chilling out with dear..... yeah.... i think abit no life ... just me and her... however i just like it this way... and she doesnt seems to mind a single bit. Went carrefour tt day with my parents, she can just click with my family just like tt...... I dont think i can click with ppl the way she does it. =)

Christmas is coming..... *kelv sing........ Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way................ Joy to the world, the lord has come....... Last christmas i give you my heart, the very next day you give it away, this year to save me from tears, i give it to someone special.......................

okok...... enuff of singing.... Christmas is coming, and yet i dont know wat to do... oh well.. normally i dont have a habit of celebrating christmas.... it's just in me. Nonetheless gonna spend it with someone special this year...... with or without doing anything , it doesnt matter ... as long as i'm with her..... everything, anything is fine.......

*smile =)

2004-12-16T15:25:00.000+08:00

Dearie is coming back today! wooohoooo..... ; )

Two more days before my project submission, and i still havent finish yet..... kan cheong spider liaoz.... just ask for extension and couldnt get it.....ohh no.... hiaz....... just have to try and finish it....shall hope for the best..... i believe i can do it

"Just Do It" yeah.... hahahahah

Ytd was my cousin big day..... was busy sending my relatives here and there..... been reflecting alot ytd, seeing alot of my cousin that are younger than me growing up..... and its kinda scary.... cos this means i'm growing old..... hiaz... well tt's life isnt it. I still can remember when i was 8years old, i wish i didnt have to grow any older.... I dont like the idea of growing old and then die..... So much thought went tru my young mind then and it is still pretty much the same now. Gosh! time reallie flies! Shant be too melancholic..... will put some thoughts on life and death next time... for now i need to spend more time on my project rather than my blog! hahahah....

oh well.... just too happy that dearie is coming back.....
She's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back, she's coming back............ did i mention that she's coming back... oh yes.... dearie coming home, she is coming back!

=) *big grinz

2004-12-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

It's tuesday !!! two more days, dearie will be back! wooohoo... okok... cool it kelvin cool it... you are crazy..... yes i am, I miss her like crazy =)

It is also 4 more days before my project dateline!!! argh! die! Kinda half way tru... havent been reallie going full force in completing it, i guess i always reward myself for the effort i put in my project. Sometimes over rewarding! heehee~ Basically it is like work for 2 to 3 hour straight, then i will play game, relax, listen music... do watever stuffs other than project for more than same amount of time i put in my project... guilty guilty =P

So far this week has been good, missing her wasnt as bad as i first thought cause we thought we not going to talk for the longest time, luckily thanks to the greatest invention on earth, that invention we call cellphone, or handphone as we commonly know. Dont know whether Hp bills gonna shoot up or not. Well.... its doesnt reallie matter as long as i know she is doing fine over there, and she'll be returning like in two days time! =)
I'm happy because i can save on overseas call and secondly i can see her... well the latter will be the more exact reason though =)

Tml is my cousin big day, yes it is his wedding!!! Wish him blissful marriage. =)
This also means that its gonna be a busy day for me as well, as i have to chauffer my relatives ard..... FOC chauffer leh.... wah piangz..... oh well it's a joyous occasion so it doesnt reallie matter =)
Time reallie flies, still can vivdly remember the days where i use to play with my cousin, and tml he is gonna get married (as in chinese customary), and prob few years down the road he will become a father. Without me carefully thinking, i'm gonna reach mid twenties pretty soon... oh gosh..... that's super fast! The way time flies reallie scare me...... Responsibility always comes together with age. The older you are, the more responsibility you would be expected to shoulder...... gosh ... i havent have enough fun yet... oh well who would say they have had enough fun. I miss the good old carefree days where i dont even need to care about money, work, blah blah blah.....
It is way much better to be a child. Sometimes with the amount of stress, pressure, responsibility you have, you just feel like hey! i need to take a break and catch my breath! phew!

Well.... that's the cruel fact of life b'cos time and tide wait for no man! Now i just have to look forward and miss all those good old days =)
Hope year 2005 would be a wonderful year for me!!!

Ok gonna catch the last episode of "My mighty in-laws" It's gonna be real exciting!!! After that shall head back to my project.....

*counting down the no. of days..... it's just another 2 more days....... =)

2004-12-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday!!! Times reallie fast.... we approaching to the end of yr 2004 pretty soon..... Alot of things happen this year... Ups and down but i thank god cos i believe i gonna have a good closing end for my 2004 yr. =)

Those that know me and quite close to me will know exactly what happen to me during my low key period this year..... I thank those who stood by me during that period of time.... and i'm soo happy that i have found somebody special that would stand by me forever.....

She may not be the prettiet woman i ever know.... She may not be good in alot of things but to me she is someone special....
*She is sweet, real sweet
*She show me the meaning of love that i use to find it sooo difficult to trust just months ago

LOVE is a strong word.... and i dont say LOVE to anyone.... I have my own sets of LOVE value, i have my own defination of LOVE, LOVE is a word i would use it sacredly.... I onli say it to two woman in my life b4... however she gonna be the third woman that i will gonna say it. I believe she deserve every single alphabet of LOVE... she deserve every single meaning of this word LOVE from me.

Dear, you know how much u mean to me... This song is for you.....

Say'n I LOVE YOU - Moffats

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true
I may not be the best
Looking guy you ever knew
But I can show you love
That will always be true
And when your skies turn grey
My love will guide the way
And if these words that I hold
Could only be told

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

And when your tears fall to the ground
I will pick you up when you're feeling down

Saying I love you, it's the hardest thing to do
and if I ever do, girl I'll always be true

_____________________________________________________________________________________

She is out of town, going genting for holiday... i wish that she will enjoy herself..... =)

I just left a week before i have to submit my project up... this coming week gonna be very busy ... with wed gonna be big day for my cousin cos it gonna be his wedding!!! Shall not spend sooo much time on my blog lioaz... gonna head back to my project.... I need time... plenty of time.....

*Off to my project now....
*I MISS HER =)

2004-12-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

My dad got his cab on the day same as dear dear bday.... that's to me is soooo conincident yeah... =) Well so far it has been good for daddy so far.... i wish him good business =)

Was out with dear celebrating her bday ..... think i didnt reallie do a great job.... alot of impromptu decision, nonetheless hope she enjoyed herself =) Well just love the times we share together...... it is just plain sweet!

I got myself a brand new nike slipper! hahaha.... did i mention before i onli wear nike slipper.... oh well i'm just abit nike craze.... well dont care lah.... i "Just Do It" hahahaha

I havent start on my project yet... argh! simply no mood... i will start tonight... yap.. definately tonight! I have to submit the project if not i cant complete my degree course and it would mean i wasted two years studying for tt stupid paper call Degree in accounting and finance. Sometimes i wonder do i reallie need to go tru shit and money to get that piece of paper... afterall it is seriously a peice of paper..... oh well... shouldnt complain so much since i'm very very close to the finishing line..... Gambatte yo!!!

well been out with dear every single day from the day we got together... i dont know whether it is good or bad.... but i just miss spending time with her but at the same time i got my own stuffs to juggle.... guess it is what we always say, we need time management and setting priorities yeah.... hahaha

Well it;s gonna rain soon now... dark clouds over the sky... well just hope that it dont rain while i'm coaching later.....

Christmas approaching... and i dont have enough money to spend during this holiday.... argh.. financial crisis for me...... bleahz.... nonetheless hope i can see money fall from the sky soon......

*staring at the sky now...........

2004-12-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

My daddy and sis are back !!! I'm free from the responsiblity that i was shouldering for the past few days! Phew!

Yup as my sixth sense predicted correctly, i got my pressie from dad.... nice nice.... =)

Today is dear's birthday............. Happy birthday dear! =)

My dad is going to collect his taxi today !!! oh wat a day yeah.... 0812... This number sure is special...... quick must buy 4D ... muahahhahhaha

Ok is lunch time.... i'm hungry..... Food........ i'm coming for you!!!!........... yum yum yum yum...

2004-12-07T11:08:00.000+08:00

It been 3 days since i last blog anything.... well... apologies for that... i have been a filial son all these while. Has been helping my dad with his business while he is enjoying himself over at Thailand with my sis.... Talk about fairness yeah.... hahahahahahaha

Well since the day i finish my exam till now ... i havent even touch my project yet... ohh guilty guilty but at least i manage to borrow some books to start on my project.

These few days have been kinda a routine for me... wake up 6 plus in the morning go work (as in my dad business) then do this do that as he has ask me to do.... blah blah blah.... And at the end of the day i will sleep like around 2am in the morning... so which means i onli been getting 4hrs of sleep for the pass three days.... i wanna faint soon... my eyes kinda puffy now... Dont know whether i look like puffy fish or not... wwaaahhahaha....

And for the past few days i have been meeting dear too.... ohh... dont know wat going to happen if we dont meet each other for few days... well.. guess it will happen pretty soon cause i dont have sooo much luxury of a time to spare and neither has her too.... =p

She is a sweet lovely lady.... did anyone know that she spend soooo much time and effort on creating, decorating, fixing a blogsite just for the both of us..... omg! Tell me if she sweet or not.....=)

And it was just 2 days ago that she told me i am rank no.1 in her life! Am i really that good to be somebody no. 1 in their life? oh well..... to her i am... and i am real honoured. =)

It's tuesday today and tml would be dearie bday!!! and i havent got her a present yet.... gosh! any idea anyone???? (Within my budget pls ah...) =p

Tonight is the night my dad and sis are coming back!!!! Hoooray!!!!! I can sense they gonna bring back alot of present for me.... My sixth sense normally dont fail me! hahahahaha....

*prezzie prezzie........ =) BIG BIG GRINZ ... hehe~

2004-12-04T02:12:00.000+08:00

EXAM OVER!!!! Hoooray!!!! It feel sooo good... yeah... so damm good! Was in happy mode for the past two days or so.... Just wanna relak my mind, my brain after working so 'hard' for my exam. I think i've no more brain juice left lioaz..... =p

Thursday paper was good, at least i know how to do..... however i got soo many info to write, i dont know how to arrange it in nicely order....hahah... and in the end..... dont reallie have time to finish it properly.... i guess i always write grandfather story.... hiaz... well.. dont think soo much... at least it is definately better than the tuesday paper.... and i can rightly annouce i gonna graduate from my degree soon ............ wooooooohhhhhaaaaaaa........

I nearly scream! when the invigilator say "ok, times up, stop writing"..... i'm not trying to scream or shout at him, but the fact is that my exams are over... yeah it is all over... finally over.... my last degree exam paper is over!!!

I feel like celebrating until i realise hey...i still have a project need to be submitted on this month 18 before i can duly say i have complete my degree course (of course that is that i got no supp paper or watsoever) I was like... alamak! But hack it... gonna play first.... i still left a jolly 14 days to work on my project.... at least it is a project .... i also believe project is easier than exam.... urm.... i hope this belief still hold on... ok at least till i submit my project on the 18. =p

Went out with Jo after my exam.... she was late and yet she still dare to come out with the joanne rule of punctuality... omg... can faints ................ Went to catch the show ... "without a paddle" quite a nice show.. was laffing alot in the movie... The show was nice, but the things that happen in the show was even nicer....... *shant say what actually happen in the show... *grinz
muaaaahahahahahahahahahah

After the show, was walking aimlessly again.... we always do tt, however we kinda enjoy it... ok probably we just enjoying each other company and not the walking aimlessly part... cause after walking sooo long, my leg and back hurts ....

Friday, sent my sis and dad off to Thailand... Sawadee-kup .......... my sis is having competition over there... how i hope i can join her.... i mean i just wanna go overseas.... =) however i cant.. cos i have to help my dad on his business since he's following sis over ... They better buy something good for me when they come back..... hahahahah... just kidding...=p

Alright its time to sleep! Need to catch some rest.... very very tired..... to that someone special that has enter my life... i miss you....... *poof*

2004-11-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hasnt been a great day today! So damm bloody weird... Woke up today and manage to catch the bus to go to exam venue... wasted 10mins to try to clarify with them to get my seats... why cant they have a proper allocation, soo many miscommunication, idiots man! It's already 10.10am on the clock, take a look at my exam qns... feel like walking out immediately, this is madness.... spend close to half an hour to decide which qns should i attempt, and in the end onli manage to complete 2 out of 3qns.. SHIT! Was quite tired after the exam cos i studied till quite late the day before... tout i can go home and sleep but was ask to do some stuffs.... argh.. didnt rest and of i go for coaching... miss my bus the moment i reach there.... waited and waited and it seems like ages and the bus still insist on not coming, well took another bus instead and then try to change bus later at the other bus stop, and not long after i alight at the bus-stop, the bus i suppose to take came, wah piangz... why cant the bus just come 2mins earlier just now.... Because of waiting for tt stupid bus i was late for coaching.... Then when i finish coaching was about to leave tt time, it rain! Gosh.... wait until the rain stop and then proceed to the bus stop to take bus and go home, and when i ran towards the bus stop the moment i saw the bus, the bloody female bus driver just dont wanna stop for me, and in the end i have to wait soo damm long again for the bus to come! Idiots! Everything didnt seem to go smoothly for me today especially the EXAM TODAY!!! argh!! I wonder did i offended anybody and being cast a spell or wat! Argh! Hope tml will be a better day! Hopefully my thur would not be the same as today! Thursday gonna be the last day of my exam! Hope whatever i study will come out!
*Pray Hard!!!

Anyway Thanks Jo for being sooo sweet, thanks for that lovely sms, you did make me smile! Thanks

Alright time to head back to my notes! Last paper! Hang on there!!!!

*Studying Mode

2004-11-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

So fast its the last day of the month November. This also means that i'm going to have 1 more exam before becoming a free man. Oh well it was just last week that the thought of having exam would sent cold vibe to my skin, and now i'm going to finish my exam pretty soon. Times reallie flies!

Today paper just sucks! and i reallie mean suck big time!!!! Argh! Frustration, agony, whatever negative aspect of feeling will be associated with me right after i finish my paper, or in fact while sitting for the paper. Up to this point in time i am still FRUSTRATED, ANGRY, FURIOUS, MAD!!!!

I just couldnt do a bloody single qns! Yes not even a SINGLE Qns !!! This is the worst paper i ever take in my whole student life! It was drastic contrast to all the papers that i have took previous week. I have confidence abt the result or the marks i going to get for all my previous paper. Nothing of this sort can be said to this paper, probably the outcome that i'm most confident of is that i'm going to FAIL, and i mean FAIL BIG TIME!!! ARGH!!!
I'm absolutely gutted! The papers is upon 300 marks (3qns 100 marks each) and i only manage to do 2 qns, and u guys know that i dont even know to ans any one of the qns. I do it for the sake of doing it! I reallie wish i didnt have to sit for this paper!!! I feel like walking out of the exam venue, but the saddest truth is i'm already there... leave and i would get 0 marks, so i decided to give it a shot even though i aint know shit abt any of the qns!!! To make matter worse, it is all calculation based qns... it is either u know or u dont know, there is nothing in between, it is not like those kind of marketing or management paper where u can bluff yr way through and hope for the best that kind! Oh well.... i'm dead! i'm in deep shit! would reallie have to pray very hard in order to get at least a 25%.... yup u get me right... that would mean 75marks upon 300marks! Gosh! That's the minimum criteria i have to obtain before any thoughts of having an honours degree and i havent even consider other factors yet!!! gosh ! This paper is terrible... i should have just take it last semester. Even if i took it while i was sick i think i could still gather a score higher than what i'm goin to get today. It's not that i'm pessimistic or what, it is just the cruel fact of the bloody truth! I aint know how to do a single qns!!!! I aint know shit man!!!! Ok the problem is not because i didnt study, if i didnt study then it is fair enough, but the blooy problem is that the topics that is being tested is not being covered with me last semester!!! I bet they did some correction over what topic is going to be tested and what is not for this subject for the current batch of student and not me!!! And i'm the bloody kuku from my own batch (previous batch) sitting for that bloody exam paper! Tell me abt it! I know nuts what is going on for the current batch of student! and to be tested on the topic that they study and not mine! This is ridiculous! Oh gosh! can somebody pls save me! I need the marks! i badly need the marks! I do not want the result for this paper to spoil all my previous good mark i obtain , the effort i put in for all my previous papers! I do not want at the end of the day i didnt meet the first criteria for a honours degree because of this bloody stupid idiotic reason! I'm going mad!! Real mad! and to think that i still have one more paper to go! I just have no mood to carry on and to add salt to my wound, the next paper for me is also last semester paper, and i beginning to wonder whether will it be the same topics that i did covered to be tested in this coming paper! I'm going crazy! This is madness! .... MADNESS !!!

安靜 - 周杰倫 ( An Jing - Jay Chou )

2004-11-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

I love this song soo much.... The lyrics is sooo meaningful.....and it says exactly what i was feeling the other time..... oh god! why am i feeling nostalgic again...... argh.....

安靜 - 周杰倫

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

An Jing - Jay Chou

Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself clear
I know and I'm sure
You don't regret
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
You being with me was in the past
I hope he loves you more than I do
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

You want me to say it, but it is awkward
I don't even want to break up
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much
I'll still be fine
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
I really don't have the ability
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you so much

2004-11-28T10:58:00.000+08:00

I'm one big culprit of not studying... just aint no mood.... my friends are all celebrating the completion of their degree where i'm left to complete another 2 more papers! Argh! Oh well Exam coming on Tue... and i have to do something abt it... i have oredi wasted two days as i didnt even touch my notes. I needed somebody to kick my ass and scream my head off a little.... oh well.. nvm...i shall find some self-motivational factors!

Today is Sunday, and it's a perfect day to study.... *yah damm right! oh well..... i going to have my whole day preparing for my exam..... I shall look forward to the day 2 Dec where i will duly complete all my exam ! Yeah! But in the meantime i gonna slog like an idiotic person..... and i dont like this kind of feeling....

Ytd was Jay concert.... heard from Jo is a super duper concert... and i'm jealous.... hahaha.... oh well... some of his songs are real nice and the meaning for certain songs are really very meaningful... okie, shant elaborate what kind of connection between me and his few certain songs.... just dont wanna feel nostalgic yeah.......

I'm going to head back to my notes.... i needed to... i being force to... cos i dont have a choice and i dont have much time left either.........

*Switch to Studying mode!

2004-11-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today was my second paper and i couldnt finish in time! argh! Oh well Second paper for me but for my classmate it was their last ! Argh! After the paper, there was like soo much noise... noise of celebration... I'm jealous! freaking jealous!!!
Tml still got paper! argh! gonna head back to my notes soon... just no mood to study ... sianz....

Just finish watching "ye man qing jia" (My Mighty in-law) on channel 8. What a funny show!!! I getting hook on that show! Vincent Ng was super funnie in that show.... Almost all the character in the show are damm funnie too.... Two thumbs up man!!!

Well today episode is abt Rui-en and Vincent... hmm.... the way Rui-en tell Vincent on the things she like abt him.. oh my god.... thats like sound sooo damm familiar ! hahahahah
Well it was reallie sweet of her! i mean bascially when u like someone... u reallie like almost every single thing abt tt person lor... basically there is no reason why u like him/her but you know abt what/which things u like abt him/her and if u list it down, it gonna reflect almost pratically everything about him/her. =) grinz
Well just now tt part was reallly kinda bring back memories ... hiaz... sometimes it is just sooo hard to find someone u like and tt someone like u in return too..... =p

okok... shall stop feeling nostalgic and head back to my notes.... i'm soo worried that ppl might mistaken that i'm in a relationship with my notes now since i'm soo damm close with it.... its always me and my notes..... i'm freaking out soon....

Somebody saves me...................

*i'm uttering rubbish ... pardon me pls..... *poof*

2004-11-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Finally i decided to upload one of my all time fav song...... This is also a song where my nick came from..... "selfestem" .... I'm in a punk-rock mood now..... so here Selfesteem by offspring .. take it away.... =)

*Kelv sing... ahhemm.... la la lala la la la la lala.....

Selfesteem - Offspring

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert

Now I know I'm being used
That's ok because I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self-esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so

When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care, Right?

Now I'll relate this a little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem

2004-11-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

Recieved a letter from the Navy asking me to go back for a seminar in full uniform! Argh! It's coming.... i can sense it coming..... my reservist... my national service liability ....argh! Well wat a waste of time! A full day listening to all those craps that i couldnt find at least a bit interesting! I bet they are preparing me for all those reservist shit! Leave me alone man... Not that i'm dont love the country or what, but i just think it's gonna take away the fun of being a common people (civilians) and i think i could have use the time to do something better, more meaningful things. And to think that i receive this piece of news just in the midst of my exam.... i wonder whether do they really have to give me their very own "morale boosting" treatment in such a timely fashion.

My dad just call me and told me he pass his taxi vocational license! Holy! Congrates Dad! You deserve it! He sounded sooo estatic over the phone that if there is a $100 dollar note lying on the floor, he'll probably miss it......
I bet he is beaming with joy now! He reallie deserve it for i witness the amount of effort he put in before the exam..... The way he studied and prepared for his exam makes me feel so guily over the way i'm currently preparing for my exam now! *ouch!
You can see the amount of desire he wants to get hold of that piece of license from the look of his eyes, the way he behaves..... If u staying under the same roof with him, i can gurantee you can feel it the same way as i do. Now that he passed the exam and getting the license soon, he deserve every single bit of that small piece of card that got the word "Taxi vocational license and his name on it."

Congrates to you, Dad! I love you!

Back to my own life, hahaha.. nothing much..... same shit, different day! Kinda half way tru my revision for my tml paper... pray hard that watever i've tried to study and memorise would come out in tml paper..... =)

I'm heading nowhere now except back to my notes ..... *poof*

2004-11-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

Done with my First paper! Phew ! One down and 4 more to go... sweat sweat ....
Should have do better for my first paper... hiaz ... wasted man... I need to Hit 75 marks but i guess i could onli gather a marks that is close to that... booooo man.....

Oh well was down coaching and end up swam quite a bit.... feeling abit tired... and since i onli gathered 5hrs of sleep today, i guess it didnt reallie help ah... okie... i think i need to head back to my notes..... bed? notes? bed? notes? .... ok both i think

*poof*

2004-11-22T08:28:00.000+08:00

Another piece of nonsense to destress me... oh well... This kind of survey or quiz or watever names u have for it, their main purpose is to destress a person yeah... so the answer or the result for it are sometimes true, sometimes it is somewhat true, sometimes it is not so true, sometimes it is not very true, sometimes it is not true, sometimes it is totally untrue

Hahahaha.... you are the judge to whether if it is the truth......

so many words of "true" ........... *faints

You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.

What Planet Are You From?

2004-11-22T08:00:00.000+08:00

It's Monday!!! holy sh*t! Tml the start of my first degree exam... -_-"
*Praying hard

Oh well still got time to do this boh lioaz survey ... ok... take it away

You Are the Loyalist

6

You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal.

People find you easy to love and care for.

You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises.

You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.

What number are you?

2004-11-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

I made jo angry a long while ago... oh well wasnt mean to... anyway clear up the air oredi... she noe my intention wasnt to attitude her but something else... guess i get it all so wrong yea....
I hope i'm to her is not an attitude boi ... but a good attitude boi =) *big grinz

I get soo bothered over the fact till i couldnt reallie study... i mean i didnt mean something i didnt mean it.... ok wat am i saying.... i didnt meant to attitude her... and u know if somebody wrong u .. u wldnt feel alright rite... so that's exactly what i'm feeling.... Oh well.... i wouldnt give a damm if tt somebody doesnt mean anything to me lor.... okie... enuff said.

Ok shall head back to my notes.... i need to be good boi remember... hahhaha.... =)

2004-11-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

Today is already Friday, just 4 days before the start of my Exam!! Yesh 4 days!! argh!! how fast is that! Gosh! I'm still slowly cultivating to be a hardworking student.... i still cant get into the mood of studying, prolly i'm somehow distracted over certain things.... oh well i'm gonna keep my focus.... =)
i did it once a few months before when things happen, i will do it again... no doubts abt that! =)

Nothing much happen today, just me and my notes and of cos my beloved bed *grinz =) oh well enough of destressing in my blog... gonna head back to my 'lovely' notes....

*Gambatte yo!!!!! Study Study Study!!! =)

2004-11-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

Was out with Jo ytd, basically just shop and shop and shop...... Didnt really have an agenda but just wanna get some fresh air... and she was a great gal to hang out with except those poking, pinching, punching, all those P's u can think of =p

Treat her one thai ice tea and guess wat, i drop my very own ice tea and it spill over my berms... oh.. how clumsy can i get... Well my berms and slippers get jealous over the fact tt i treat Jo ice tea i guess, so much so they want a share of my ice tea... argh!

Woke up this morning with blue black on my arms... i guess no need me to say... u guys shld know who the culprit is ah.....

Read a few notes... but still not studying enuff i guess.... i will head back to my notes once i finish Sg idol....

I will study! I doesnt have much choice yea..... =p